A Villainess's Struggles

Since yesterday was Sunday, today is Monday (yes that's common sense) meaning that I have to go to school. I can't believe I have to suffer through education again... Although I went to university, it was an art university. I hate to admit this but I'm actually pretty stupid. I had horrible grades throughout my school life and it'll probably be the same in this life too.

But in this world, women didn't have to study as much as my past life since women don't usually take over businesses unless they are more capable or there is no other heir. In my past life, I enjoyed art as a hobby and eventually decided to do it as a job. I don't know what I should be in this life...

I put on my navy blue uniform and looked in the mirror. Wow~ The uniforms of this school is so nice! After breakfast, My chauffeur drove me to school and dropped me off. The school I'm attending is called WoodLily and I would go here and graduate in grade 6. This school was also where the male lead attended for primary school. After grade 6, many rich families send their daughters to a private girls only school for grades 7-8. I can't wait to be separated from that brat named Henry.

Even though us kids are still in kindergarten, Henry seemed like he was the boss of this grade. The girls all tried to talk to him (probably due to their parents forcing them to communicate with Henry so that they can be connected to the Lawson family somehow). Henry looked unwell with all the girls around him, at that moment, I just wanted to laugh at him. It wasn't any better for Blake either as his family had a big business as well. I recently found out that he had a older sister and she might be taking over the business instead of him. In the comic, I remember Blake went travelling around to different countries after graduating from university. His private life wasn't mentioned much in the comic as it was all centered around our male lead after all.

The truth is, I have no friends in school right now. Although the food here is very nice, I feel really lonely eating by myself. Most of the girls don't want to talk to me because I seem like the cold type that would harshly reject you when you talk to me. I knew it, it's all because of my slanted eyes! Out of all characters, I just had to be born as Natalie...

I remember in the comic, Natalie had a cousin named Angelina. She was one of those girls that used Natalie to bully the female lead and ended up getting away with everything. So to sum it up, my cousin's a snake! She's also in this school but she's in another class.

The problem is...Today for lunch, our boss Henry the brat and his sidekick Blake sat in front of me.

"I don't want to sit with you either but my mom told me to be good 'friends' with you" Henry scowled.

I didn't realize it but I was glaring at him while Blake looked at me and shook his head. I noticed what I was doing and slapped my cheeks with my hands. If I make Henry mad at me, who knows what he might do in the future...

Blake stared at me shocked. Hey, what's wrong with controlling my emotions to suffer a nicer life?

After lunch ended, all the kids returned to class and listened to the lecture. All this stuff they're teaching to kindergarten children is basically grade 1 work (from what I remember).

All the students in the class know how to do addition and subtraction and can read many English words. This world is scaring me...

When school ended, I returned home and I realized the mansion was very loud.

"Welcome home milady" said one of the maids.

My mother was sitting on a couch nearby. I walked over to her.

"Mother, is there something to celebrate today?" I asked.

"Yes...Natalie, the truth is.." She replied.

"I'm pregnant" said my mother.

Ah~ Right, 'I' did have a younger brother named Richard. He looked very similar to my mother. I look more like my father due to my eyes. From the comic, he was basically a puppy. He was really cute but his older sister (aka the comic version of Natalie) hated him. The female lead really liked him and thought it would be nice to have him as a younger brother. There was even a part in the comic where Richard said that he wished his older sister was the female lead instead!

I better not make him hate me.

I also can't believe my mother and my father were m.a.k.i.n.g. .l.o.v.e in their room next to their daughter's room. I'm so glad I wasn't able to hear anything since the walls were thick.

"Do you want a boy or a girl?" I asked.

"Preferably a boy so that he can take over the business" my mother smiled.

Well she will be happy since it will be a boy. I wonder how father will react to this~

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Time went by really quick and before I knew it, my mother was giving birth to my baby brother. I'm going into grade 1 very soon.

I'm currently in the hospital next to my father waiting for news from mother.

After a while, a man came out and told us

"Congratulations, it's a healthy boy."

I never saw my father cry and seeing it right now kind of shocked me. I knew I was going to have a younger brother so I wasn't very surprised.

My mother looked really tired from giving birth but she had a smile on her face. I watched my newborn brother cry and it felt unrealistic.

It's already been a year since I regained my past memories, I got used to my surroundings but it still feels weird. The comic hasn't started yet but I'm worrying a lot.

Hopefully in the future I will be less stressed and enjoy this life a lot more compared to my past life.