35 – Side : Arna Bell

When I opened my eyes, it was pitch black.

Since when have you been trapped in a place like this?

At first, it may have been just simple expectations.

“Wow! My Belle shoots a bow really well. Will she become a great guardian later?”

“Really…?”

It’s just that I like being acknowledged by my parents.

I like that people like me.

Since I also liked handling the bow, I practiced harder than anyone else.

It must have been around that time that I met Arhan.

“Hello, are you Belle? Nice to meet you.”

“Yeah, let’s be friends?”

We went to the same academy and dreamed of being the same guardian.

So, I thought we became closer than anyone else.

At that time, I lived my life feeling the pleasure of pure training itself without any worries.

Maybe I miss those days.

As time passed and we grew up, things began to change.

Arhan had a genius talent for fighting, and he was even born with characteristics that supported him.

On the other hand, my talent looked shabby.

Of course, it’s not that I was jealous of this.

Because we were still best friends.

But,

“Bell…? Didn’t he do more than I thought?”

“That’s right. Aren’t you just hanging around Arhan?”

“……What are you guys talking about…?”

“Ah, did the bell come…? No, it was nothing.”

It was scary.

I was afraid that the reactions around me were gradually changing.

The classmates I trained with when I was young turned into rivals who were colored in the world as I grew up, and I was afraid that those who always greeted me with a smile when I met them were swearing at me behind my back.

The fact that I was assigned to class B at the Celtic Academy, where I finally entered, ignited the gossip.

But still, I blamed myself for my lack of effort.

Without knowing that the seeds of inferiority were already planted in me.

And the incident that put a wedge into that inferiority complex must have been this midterm exam.

“You be quiet, you shiver.”

Even with Shin Chan-ho’s vitriol, I somehow agreed with myself.

Among the gemstones of all these extraordinary talents, I looked like an insignificant pebble.

Even Shin Chan-ho, who had that kind of personality, even Lars, who should have been ranked lower than me, seemed to shine more than me.

My heart was festering more and more.

Now, training with a bow is no longer something I truly enjoy, but it is just a repetitive learning that I force myself to do every day in order to keep up with my surroundings.

But my usual smiling personality, I couldn’t even express my festering heart like this.

“Why isn’t it class A? Mama’s content with Belle, she’s happy.”

I’m sorry, Mom.

I don’t think I can do that.

“Because I know the times you’ve worked hard. You’ll definitely be able to rise above it.”

No, Arhan.

The words I wanted to hear weren’t just vain hopes that lifted me up like that.

In this difficult situation, I wanted to hear the consolation that truly worries me.

I just… Wanted to be a helpful colleague by your side.

I wanted to cry.

I wanted to shout out loud.

But because I know better than anyone else that they really care about me.

What I expressed outwardly seemed to betray even the last remaining expectations of me, so I kept it in my heart.

So, the incident happened on the day of the midterm exam.

The team was eliminated in the shortest amount of time without any help.

The only flaw in the strongest rotation.

Accepting all the bad reviews.

Eventually, I ran out of the place.

“Hey…! Mr. Arna Bell! Where are you now…!”

“Help…….”

Even in my own eyes, I was too ugly.

What the hell did you mean by running out of the seat crying because you did a good job?

It was just the escape of a loser.

Like that, when I ran out for a while and reached the front of the dormitory, I ended up sitting down as it was.

I was so mentally exhausted.

That’s why the reason you got hit sounds like an excuse.

“Are you… Arna Bell…?”

“…..Who…?”

“Ah…! I’m here to tell you good things. Don’t you need some strength…?”

“…..What is that…”

“The strength to stand shoulder to shoulder with those friends you want, no, more than that, and make them look at you…!”

Anyone can think of it, it would be a strange story.

Nevertheless, it was my choice that I fell for that word.

This is how it was created.

I can’t even handle my body properly and am being manipulated by the enemy, causing damage to the academy.

I was the worst scum.

In that state, I once again tried to kill Shin Chan-ho, swayed by the woman’s words.

If it hadn’t been for that man by now, it might have been really irreversible.

Kim Gasok.

The one who ended me miserably in the end.

In the first place, they must have known each other through Arhan.

A man who has no kinship with me to that extent, and whom even the present country can easily deal with, is blocking me for the reason that he will save my life.

It’s really a waste.

He eventually reached his limit and, wringing out the last of his strength, began to run wild.

When he finally couldn’t overcome the runaway and attacked me, while feeling the fear, a sense of relief came from somewhere.

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Rather, if it all ended with this, I thought that it might be better for me to face a comfortable end.

…… Professor Lim Yeon-woo saved me.

When I opened my eyes again, everything was already over.

The culprit behind the incident was revealed, and I was already being treated as a victim of that fanatic.

So, I said I accepted it myself.

I’m already too tired.

Too many people have already suffered because of me.

I didn’t have the confidence to carry on this dream any longer.

Probably, my disposition was decided to be expulsion.

Maybe it’s worse than that.

Then, the professor opens the door and enters the hospital room.

“……Professor, what happened to my disposition…?”

“Huh…? Ah, that? I decided to just skip it.”

“It’s probably expulsion, right?”

“Just two weeks of training at the academy? I decided to hit that much. In the first place, the biggest victim, Kim Ga-sok, didn’t want your punishment. Anyway, I’m glad.”

What the hell does that mean?

I… Have already made up my mind to give up everything.

It shouldn’t fizzle out like this.

“Uh… Uh…? Bell? Where are you going?”

I sprinted out of the hospital room that way and went to find Kim Ga-sok’s hospital room.

I felt an unknown rage at the sight of him lying carefree, calmly trampling on others’ determination.

“Huh? Was that Arna Bell? What happened…”

“Why the hell…!!!!”

“Ah…?”

“Why did you stop punishing me… I wanted to end it here…! Just leave me alone…”

It was the first time.

Why did you vomit so much resentment on others?

“Giving up… Why… All of a sudden?”

“You don’t know that, so I ask…? I… I’m already finished…”

“What the hell are you talking about? If you’re only doing it because of this incident, you’d better stop. If you’re like me, that’s enough…”

“Shut up!!!! What the hell… What the hell are you saying you know about me..!!! Arhan, whom I’ve known for decades, and my heart that even my family doesn’t know… Don’t judge me that way…!”

“…….”

“It’s just… I… No, I just want to rest now… Can’t you just leave me alone…?”

Please leave it like this… Me…

“I’m sorry, but I can’t do that.”

“What?”

“Certainly, I don’t know you all that closely, and I’ve only seen your face a few times, but I know that the consolation or words I can offer you are meaningless.”

“Then…!”

“This is a separate issue from that.”

What are you talking about?

“I mean. No, actually I’m not sure, but I think I want to save this world, people.”

“…..What…?”

“I know it may sound strange, but I don’t have family…. I don’t have family, but I want to save not only my precious friends and colleagues, but also the people who support me, even a guy like Shin Chan-ho who speaks badly about me. Want to.”

“………..”

“Of course you heard of it.”

“…… Uh…”

“So, this is a matter of my convictions. I will never let you give up on yourself. No matter what others say to you, even if you underestimate yourself and try to fall to the bottom, I want to save you.” “

It was the first time.

I have never heard someone say that.

“So… That… What the hell. I’m sure you had a goal like this. What the hell was that?”

“…… I wanted to walk on the same line as my friends, relying on each other…”

“Then follow that goal. You can live thinking only of you.”

“………”

“‘I believe in you…!’ Or ‘trust me…!’ I can’t say something grandiose like that. We’re not very close yet. So, even if you’re cheating a little, why don’t you try to get to know me?”

I couldn’t believe that the reason he was trying to save me like this was because of his beliefs.

Even though I couldn’t believe it, why am I gaining trust from his words?

Why, despite his words, I don’t have any burden of expectations.

Now there are too many unknowns.

Everything is a situation that you are experiencing for the first time.

Still, for some reason, I wanted to hold that outstretched hand.

After holding on to the heart I had already given up on anyway, I wanted to live by believing in myself one more time, even if I was deceived, by his words one more time.

“What… You’re smiling right now. Well, the look from before didn’t suit me very well. I like your smile as usual.”

So.

I don’t want to miss him, who will be a turning point in my life.

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Wow, I was really cold.

Suddenly, a bell came in and said he was leaving the academy.

Isn’t the healer sister next to me taken aback when she sees me crying and pouring out her anger?

I was going to take a break, but I’m in this situation again.

What the hell this f*cking world doesn’t give me a chance to breathe.

Anyway, you must never let Bell leave now.

No matter how wrong the development is, there is a law that is the last remaining Maginot Line.

It’s scary to think of what kind of catastrophe will happen if she leaves here.

At least, it’s fortunate that I was persuaded by my words(?) To some extent.

At least my words of wanting to save everyone were sincere, so I’m guessing that I might have been influenced by that.

Now….. I guess this is the end…?

“Wait… What the hell…”

“…….?”

“What the hell is your relationship with Bell? Yoo Chun-Hwa? Did you change trains already…? Or a pair of legs? Or a third lover again? That brown-haired girl I saw before, and even the black-haired girl. … How far did he extend his magic power…? Hey, maybe even me…? Uh, I can’t use it on adults…! Anyway, what’s your relationship with Bell! Arhan? What’s the relationship with? What happened? What kind of incident happened so that it developed to the point where you were crying like that and just opened up your feelings like that…?

Ah, Seo Ji-woo….. Healer sister…

There you are.

Life.

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