After clearing the game, I became the villain BOSS

Nuo Bai stared blankly at the line "I also hope" that he subconsciously typed, and then raised his head absentmindedly.

The dim warm light shines in the house, surrounded by only the sound of the wind blowing and falling snow, and the sound of the kind old man using his chopsticks. The warmth of the fire fills my heart and spleen. This is the peaceful life I have been looking forward to for a long time.

Nuobai was silent, his finger hovering on the delete key.

She didn't know how long she hesitated before silently deleting the original line.

Then type the next line again:

[Happy New Year and wish you peace in the coming year]

After sending the message to Su Mo, Nuo Bai continued to eat.

At this time, Grandma Zheng suddenly smiled and said, "A message from a boy?"

Nuo Bai blinked and typed:

【How do you know? 】

Grandma Zheng laughed loudly: "Oh, the corners of her mouth are almost raised to the sky, can I still see it?"

Nuo Bai was startled for a moment and rubbed his face.

[Did I laugh just now? 】

Grandma Zheng said kindly: "Yes, you didn't even react, right? It seems that the other person is a boy that you like very much, and you didn't even realize it when he smiled."

Nuo Bai was a little shy and kept rubbing the back of his head.

Grandma Zheng took Nuo Bai's hand and said sincerely: "Girl Bai, I won't ask more about your personal life. I just want to give you some advice from people who have experienced it."

"The most important thing in life is to recognize what you really want. Don't think this is easy, it's very difficult."

"Sometimes you think you want something, but in the end you find that it was just a bubble."

"Take grandma as an example. I have always been a little woman with no ambition or future. When I was young, my biggest wish was to find a reliable man to marry, have children, and live a stable life."

"But you also know that my husband and daughter are no longer here. When they first left, I felt like there was no hope in my life. I couldn't live my life anymore. I really wanted to die early."

After hearing this, Nuo Bai hurriedly sat down next to Grandma Zheng, held her hand, and kept shaking her head.

Grandma Zheng let out a hearty laugh, gently stroked Nuo Bai's back, and said, "Don't be anxious, don't be anxious, we haven't finished talking yet."

"As time passed, you moved to this community. At first, you came to buy soy, rice, oil and salt every few weeks. Later, you occasionally came to chat with me and play chess."

"Suddenly one day I discovered that every time you leave, I always look forward to your coming again next time. Hey, life doesn't seem that hard anymore. I have hope again."

"From that time on, I understood that life itself is not important at all. What is important is who you live with."

This sentence made Nuo Bai fall into deep thought, his eyes lowered and he was speechless for a long time.

Grandma Zheng smiled knowingly and said softly: "Bai Yatou, you have always been quite mysterious and rarely mentioned the past to me."

"I only know that you live alone and have no social circle. You seem to be used to living alone."

"But you have to think carefully, is this really what you want?"

"Are you really enjoying this kind of life without anyone around you wholeheartedly? Or have you actually misunderstood your own thoughts all along, and there are some things deep in your heart that you are not aware of?"

There was silence all around, the warm light flickered inside the house, and the snow fell outside.

After finishing the New Year's Eve dinner at Grandma Zheng's place, helping clear away the dishes, and watching the New Year's Eve party together until late at night, Nuo Bai returned to his home.

There was no light in the bedroom. She leaned against the wall and sat by the window sill, holding a sleeping cat in her arms, and just silently looked at the night view of the city.

Tonight, Crescent City is as bright and colorful as usual, with thousands of lights shining, and every household is immersed in the happiness of reunion.

Gradually, time passed, and it was New Year's Eve at 0 o'clock.

As the melodious New Year's Eve bells rang in the distance, New Year's fireworks began to bloom in the night sky. The brilliant colors dotted the entire Crescent City, like bright stars falling into the world.

Nuo Bai looked through the window and silently listened to the sound of fireworks outside the window.

Fireworks go up and down one after another, the sound is warm, but for some reason it sounds a bit cold.

Looking at the fireworks that had nothing to do with her, in a daze, she recalled her experiences along the way.

Once upon a time, she was also a timid and crybaby child, because she lived on the streets without a parent since she was a child. She picked up garbage, slept on the streets, stole things, and received countless insults and beatings.

But what can be done? Alone, she could only silently wipe away her tears and swallow the bloody food.

Later, she was pushed by fate to become a mercenary, traveling through wars all year round, licking blood on the tip of a knife. In order to get rid of the disease that was chasing after her, she could only run with all her life and time, hurting people, killing people, and... Keep sinking in the darkness

From childhood to adulthood, there was an inexplicable feeling of emptiness that accompanied her.

She couldn't tell what it was, she just felt that it was brought to her by the breathless mercenary life.

So she wanted to cure her illness all the time and escape from that kind of life.

Later, she successfully retired and lived the ordinary life she expected.

Yes, this kind of life is very good. Every day is filled with cats, dogs, flowers, and grass. The body and mind are peaceful, and there is no need to struggle to survive.

But that inexplicable feeling of emptiness has not disappeared, it still lingers there day by day.

Why is this

Nuobai closed his eyes as he listened to the cold sound of fireworks.

She tried to imagine the scene of others at this moment, imagining those warm families, with relatives sitting around the dining table, and laughter filling the whole house.

Imagine friends gathering together to play video games and board games, surrounded by snacks and soda, spending this special night together.

I also imagine couples exchanging the first kiss of the New Year under the fireworks, walking hand in hand on the city streets, cuddling happily, and looking forward to next year's vision together.

Then she started thinking about her life.

No relatives.

no friend.

No lover.

Nothing at all.

A person comes into this world.

Growing up alone.

A person lingers on.

A person lives silently.

Lonely

Suddenly, Nuo Bai realized it.

The feeling of emptiness that had accompanied her since childhood was loneliness.

All this time, she just wanted to live, but she never thought about how to live.

She used to want to escape from the fighting and disputes all the time, but she never thought about why.

She thought what she wanted was peace alone.

But it's not.

What she wants is to get rid of that loneliness.

At this moment, Nobai's heart seemed to have been hit by something, unspeakable throbbing surged throughout his body, and an unknown sadness spread in his heart.

She held the cat tightly in her arms and looked helplessly at the sky outside the window where the snow and fireworks intertwined.

So lonely. (End of chapter)