After I Died, the Scum Gong’s Grief was Too Much for Him to Live

Hearing He Chengyang’s words clearly, Xu Zhun’s sleepiness disappeared, rendering him completely awake.

Obviously the inside of the quilt was warm and comfortable, but he felt like he had fallen into an ice cellar and felt cold all over.

“You said you like me just for me to cook for you and sleep with you?”

What was the difference between this and a servant who was a bed partner?

Xu Zhun trembled and looked at the man next to him with questioning eyes. He Chengyang, who kept saying that he liked him and wanted to be with him, could say such hurtful things?

He Chengyang slowed down and realized that he had unintentionally expressed his true inner thoughts.

His mind was spinning very fast, but he quickly calmed down.

He lowered his face and said solemnly, “We have already determined our relationship. What’s wrong with living together? I am your boyfriend now, shouldn’t you take care of me? Is it still the same as before when we were bed partners?”

Xu Zhun was caught off guard by his repeated questioning. “I…That’s not what I mean.”

“Xu Zhun, do you still doubt me? Still don’t believe my heart for you?”

He Chengyang turned over and turned his back to him, “You weren’t like this before! You’ve changed!”

“No….I was just too stirred up. This is all so sudden that I can’t even react.”

Xu Zhun felt that he probably misunderstood He Chengyang. His company has colleagues with lovers who also live together. When it comes to getting along, they also eat and sleep together.

Cohabitation before marriage is like trial marriage, and the life of cohabitation is actually similar to that of a husband and wife.

Hearing Xu Zhun give in, a triumphant expression flashed across He Chengyang’s eyes.

So stupid to be coaxed with just a few words!

“I like to eat the food you cook, not because of how delicious you cook it, but because you yourself made it. I want you to sleep with me, I want to see you all the time. Xu Zhun, why don’t you understand? I really like you. But look at what you have done to me. You avoided me, blocked me, ignored me, and you changed the lock of your house and turned me away. I have changed so much for you, so why do you doubt my intentions for you?”

He Chengyang’s words made Xu Zhun feel very guilty. He felt that he was indeed too much.

“I thought you didn’t like me….that’s why….”

“Where do you see that I do not like you? Just because I called Xiao Shuo?”

“That was one of the reasons….and at the KTV that day, you let them humiliate me.” 

What happened at the KTV was a nightmare for Xu Zhun. The humiliation of those princelings to him was less than one thousandth of the harm He Chengyang caused when he abandoned him.

Such a trusted person just left him there, alone.

This incident was the reason Xu Zhun wanted to leave He Chengyang.

He Chengyang was particularly agitated when Xu Zhun mentioned the KTV. He turned his head and looked at him with a sharp expression. “Xu Zhun. How come you know my eldest brother? What is the relationship between you and him?”

Being stared at by such a fierce gaze made Xu Zhun feel chills on his back. He subconsciously explained, “He was always a client of our company. When they forced me that day, I wanted to call you but accidentally dialed President He’s cell phone instead.”

He Chengyang raised his eyebrows. “It was just like this?”

“Please believe me, President He and I just have a business relationship.”

Unknowingly, the topic of the conversation was in He Chengyang’s hands.

He nodded in satisfaction, taking Xu Zhun into his arms. “At the KTV that day, you didn’t give me any face. I just threw you down because I was angry. I swear, I would never let those people humiliate you. After I learned about it, I beat them up severely. Xiao Zhun, no one can bully you now. From now on, I will protect you.”

Xu Zhun lost his parents when he was young, and grew up living with his grandmother.

The lack of family made him want to have a home, and when he heard He Chengyang’s words, his eyes turned red.

A burning emotion was stoked somewhere inside his heart, making him feel very warm.

From now on, he is no longer alone.

But, he doesn’t have much time… Xu Zhun suddenly wanted to be selfish. He didn’t want to leave his beloved even when he knew he was sick, like those TV series on screen.

I want to be by He Chengyang’s side with the only time I have left.

“He Chengyang, if one day I disappear, will you miss me?”

He Chengyang’s expression stagnated, his brows furrowed.

Why does Xu Zhun always ask such silly questions, like a girl?

He doesn’t want to completely deceive people, so naturally he wouldn’t do it this time. He hugged Xu Zhun hard. “Xiao Zhun, don’t say anything stupid. You’ll always stay by my side.”

“But every one gets born, grows old, gets sick, and dies. If one day I end up dying, will you be sad?”

Something flickered in He Chengyang’s eyes.

He shouldn’t be too benevolent, he should just make Xu Zhun appeased just now so he won’t talk so much.

“Of course I will be sad. I’d be miserable/”

He Chengyang casually talked, and then leaned over to kiss Xu Zhun’s lips.

Xu Zhun was sad to hear him say that, his heart hurting like it was stabbed with needles.

He hoped god could give him more time, and he hoped that his illness could be controlled. In this way, he can accompany He Chengyang and be by his side.

–

At the insistence of He Chengyang, Xu Zhun moved into the villa.

That night, He Chengyang showed all his enthusiasm, and tossed Xu Zhun around miserably.

Although his body was very tired, and that particular part was very painful, Xu Zhun’s heart was warm.

He Chengyang liked him, otherwise, he would not care about him like this.

The two began to live together.

During the stay, he took orders at the company desperately. He wanted to make money to buy imported medicines to keep his condition under control. When he got off work and went home, he prepared dinner and cleaned the house.

There used to be a servant, but He Chengyang later fired them, saying that it was not convenient when doing intimate things.

He Chengyang always did heart-pounding and blush- inducing things, regardless of the situation. Xu Zhun was not as calm as him, and often didn’t know where to put his hands and feet. He Chengyang felt particularly disappointed every time, and in the end, simply stopped hiring people.

Xu Zhun had to take care of the housework and also work, so his body was a little overwhelmed.

Although tired, he felt that this period of time brang unprecedented happiness.

On the way off from work, he bought a lot of vegetables.

He Chengyang was very picky about eating, and he had four dishes and one soup everyday.

When Xu Zhun returned to the villa, he went into the kitchen and started preparing dinner. He heard footsteps halfway through cooking.

Not even having a chance to look back, his body was hugged.

Leaning back into the hot embrace, Xu Zhun knew that He Chengyang was back.

He tilted his head to avoid the man’s kiss. “Don’t make trouble! I’m cooking.”

He Chengyang stared at the small piece of tender meat exposed outside of his collar, feeling hot all over.

It had been more than a week since he’s lived with Xu Zhun. How is it that he became more enthusiastic?

While in doubt, he kissed Xu Zhun’s neck. “Let me kiss!”

He slipped into Xu Zhun’s clothes with dishonest hands, rubbing the soft flesh of the side of his waist.

The place that was touched was numb and itchy. Xu Zhun avoided, and said, “Don’t…Don’t touch.”

“I’m not breaking the law by touching my wife.”

He Chengyang carried Xu Zhun in front of the cooking table and began to take off his pants.