An Impossible to Reject Confession

“Do I look like someone who is sick?” Xu Youyou asked. 

Qiao Mu’s gaze fell on Xu Youyou’s thick coat. 

“It has nothing to do with my parents getting divorced.”

“Then why do you feel cold on such a hot day?” Qiao Mu asked. 

“It’s because of……” The last “you” word was caught in her throat and she nearly spit it out. 

“Because of what? Is it really because you are unaccustomed to the environment?” 

Being unaccustomed to the environment was just a random excuse she had fed to Bai Yi, but Qiao Mu did not believe it. 

“Because of a dream” Xu Youyou said. 

“A dream?”

“Yes,” Xu Youyou nodded her head, “I often dream that I am on the peak of Mount Everest and there is a blizzard. I can come down and I freeze to death. After I wake up, I feel cold no matter how hot it is outside. So I think in my previous life I froze to death. I actually told my mom and my psychologist this but they don’t believe me. They just think I was triggered by the divorce.”

After finishing, Xu Youyou secretly watched Qiao Mu’s expression. The expected unconvinced expression or something equivalent didn’t appear, but rather on Qiao Mu’s face was a frightened look. Although it was just for moment, Xu Youyou was certain she saw it. 

What was he scared of?

“You…you seen a psychologist?”

“Yes,” Xu Youyou nodded her head. 

“Did it help?”

“I’ve already said that it wasn’t because of my parent’s divorce. Since I wasn’t triggered by it, of course it wouldn’t help. If it did help, then I really do have a shadow in my heart.” Xu Youyou said. 

Shadow?

“How could you make this wrong move? How did you lose the game of Go? Out of thirty practice Go questions you missed two……”

“Qiao Mu?!”

Qiao Mu snapped back to reality but his eyes still carried a frightened look. 

Xu Youyou looked at him with worry, “What’s wrong?”

 “Nothing,” Qiao Mu shook his head and quickly walked forward, his face expressing an unwillingness to explain.

 Xu Youyou noticed that Qiao Mu was acting a bit strange and didn’t ask further. After all, in Qiao Mu’s mind, they were just deskmates who met two days ago. 

Xu Youyou had a lens into Qiao Mu’s previous life, but Qiao Mu did not have one into hers. 

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On Saturday, Xu Youyou slept until 10:00. It’s rare that she woke up in good spirits. Last night she actually hadn’t been woken up by the cold and when she woke up she didn’t feel that cold either. 

It seemed her guess was correct, as long as she stayed with Qiao Mu for a while, the cold effect would lessen. 

In order to test her cold sickness, Xu Youyou tried and took off her thick jacket and only wore a white sweatshirt. She walked a circle in the yard and didn’t feel cool. 

“Yes! Yes! With this speed, after one or two days I’ll fully recover from the cold sickness. It is only a pity that today is the weekend.” Xu Youyou wished that she could run to find Qiao Mu right now, but she stopped herself. Now her body temperature had gone from winter to late autumn. Although is still wasn’t normal, it was at least bearable. 

After being excited for a while, Xu Youyou felt a bit hungry. Right when she was looking for something to eat, the phone rang. It was a call from Madam Li. 

“Mom, did you leave any breakfast for me?” Xu Youyou asked. 

“I left the house at 8:00 in the morning, if I left any it would be cold by now. You wouldn’t be able to eat it.” Li Leyao said. 

“Oh, then I’ll go out to buy something.” Xu Youyou grabbed her keys and began to walk towards the door.

“Oh right, did you buy anything recently?”

“Oh, yesterday I bought some snacks from Taobao, but I filled in the house address.” Xu Youyou said.

“It was sent from Country Y” Li Leyao said. 

“My camera arrived?” Xu Youyou excitedly asked. “Mom, don’t touch it. Be careful with it. I’ll come over now to pick it up.”

In the previous life, besides climbing mountains Xu Youyou also enjoyed photography. When leaving Country Y, Xu Wenguang felt incredibly remorseful as he watched his daughter suddenly get sick. Not only did he generously give Xu Youyou a credit card to represent the monthly allowance that he would send, he also said that he would get her anything she couldn’t find while in China. 

Of course Xu Youyou wasn’t polite with him and in the airport lounge she picked an expensive camera for herself. And she sent her request to Xu Wenguang before the plane took off. 

It had only been one week and the camera had already arrived. It seemed that Xu Wenguang still had a bit of conscience. In comparison, the treatment in this lifetime was a lot better. In the previous life, if she wanted to buy something they would get in a fight. Now in this life, one text will have it settled. 

Was this what people called “asfjdalksjflkajfklasjf”

Xu Youyou’s house was not far from Hongluo’s main road, it only required a ten minute walk. However the route had many intricate turns. Xu Youyou had followed Madam Li twice and thought that she knew the way. But halfway through, she couldn’t find her way out. 

Shit, I’m not lost again, am I?

This time, Li Leyao seemed to predict that her daughter would get lost and sent a voice recording: “Did you get lost again?”

“No.” Xu Youyou refused to admit it. 

“Almost all the alleys lead to Hongluo’s main road. Just find someone to ask.”

“Okay.” 

It wasn’t that Xu Youyou didn’t ask anyone, but the intricate and complex alley in her eyes did not look complex in the local’s eyes. Each time they helped direct her they would say something along the lines of “You go out this turn, make a left turn, then a right turn, then another left turn……”

Xu Youyou felt dizzy just listening and it only made her feel more lost.