But I Will Still Love You....

I was crying and couldn't stop my tears then suddenly a hand came from my back it was so warm so soft and held me tightly, it felt so comfortable, then I tried turning my face and a sweet voice with a warm breath tickling my ears said, 'don't worry I have got you there' I didn't stop crying but it felt that someone was there to listen to hear my misery someone who could fix the hole in my heart and after a while, I stopped and said 'I am okay now you can leave me.' She said half asleep 'oh no just a bit more stay like this, just for a while'.

'Rias are you sleeping' I replied and turned then she fell on my l.a.p then I picked her up and laid her down in the bed it was a double-decker bunk bed, obviously I couldn't lie her in the upper bed because I didn't want to hurt her and even myself.

As I looked at her she was so beautiful I couldn't control myself, I just gently pushed my lips against hers and it felt so warm and fussy, felt like to remain forever like this but then I controlled my emotions and held back.

I again went back to my work arranged my clothes then closed the gift which dad gave me kept where I generally not able to see probably it was in the locker of the wardrobe.

Then I went on the balcony we were on the second floor and a fresh and cold breeze blew, it was colder than a breeze on Shimla and it was white everywhere just like nature has covered all the misery with its love and happiness which reminded me one of the incidents when probably 11 and if I remember it correctly, it was the time in January when dad didn't go office said 'I want to spend time with my family' we went hiking in the mountain and it was so fun I enjoyed every bit of it, we played with snow we laughed, skied, made a snowman which was very big we had fun.

Probably that was the last time when we all went together and then my dad started his own business all he did after that was making excuse, but I never minded or felt bad because I already had my mom she never let me feel lonely everything was just so nice but that night, oh forget it…

Then I went inside because it was becoming quite cold outside, shut the door went for a bath, turned on the geyser and went inside turned the shower on and the lukewarm water from the shower touching my body felt so relieved when I came out Rias was still sleeping probably she was too tired therefore I thought not to wake her up then wrote a note, attached it on the table locked the door and went for shopping as we didn't have any grocery for even dinner just some snacks which were not even enough for me.

I opened my phone but couldn't use it because it was already hacked by the school and I didn't know how to use it, therefore I started walking it was already dark and street lights were on, I kept walking I didn't found anyone for a while then I saw some people gossiping and laughing then I thought they might help me but as I tried to reach them just beside them I saw a big board which was covered due to trees and it was written supermarket.