Eternal Burning

Not everyone has the courage to challenge the limit, and not everyone dares to indulge their desires. When Shang Muxiao said I'm going to rush over and surpass it, if I was just a little envious of him before, then from this moment on, I started to be jealous of him.

Jealous of his rashness, jealous of his arrogance, jealous of his dazzling, living life that serves infinite instinct.

I clearly know that I can't be like him, and that jealousy or envy can't change my established outlook on life, but it doesn't prevent me from feeling that he is... shining.

This is probably the young man. Rubbing the hard edges and corners of the trophy in my arms with my fingertips, I thought with some self-deprecation, if reminiscing about green chūn is a precursor to aging, then I will probably age prematurely.

Shang Muxiao took me to the side of the car and put the trophy in the passenger seat for me. As I drove away, he stood on the side of the road watching me silently.

After driving some distance and then looking in the rearview mirror, he was still standing in the same position.

When I got home, I searched around and couldn't find a suitable place, so I had to put the paperweight... trophy given to me by Shang Muxiao on the bookshelf, to accompany my collection of books.

Before going to bed, I clicked on the mobile app and found the work chat group of our department. After hesitating for a while, I typed a line and sent it out.

I found that Bergson's concept of intuition might be right, instinct is naturally superior to reason.

As soon as these words came out, the quiet work group instantly exploded.

Socrates Down Dog: ? ? ? Brother North? ? Brother Bei, if you are kidnapped, just blink!

Descartes Wannianhei: Congratulations for abandoning the dark to the bright, the concept of traditional rationalism is inherently flawed, and a high degree of objectivity does not exist.

Descartes Wannianhei: Wait, Arabidopsis? Are you a mustard? ? ? Are you crazy? ? Are you and Director Dong not staunch supporters of rationalism?

Qingwan Aristotle: ... disciple! ! You haven't appeared in ten thousand years, so when you appear, do you give the teacher such a big surprise?

Anti-Rational Pioneer: Director, you are the last of the rationalists of Qingwan University.

Socrates Down Dog: Waxing.

Qingwan Aristotle: Weep! !

I ignored the discussions in the group, and exited the software and went to sleep with peace of mind.

The next morning, when I turned on my phone again, I found a lot of news. There are the recent updates of the puppy sent to me by Dr. He from the veterinary hospital, and Yu Xixi who carefully and privately knocked on me to ask me what happened, and... my mother asked me to go home for dinner once a month.

Looking at the last chat, I still told me to go home for dinner. On the same day last month, not a word was bad, it was as if she had set an alarm clock to remind herself once a month, so that she would remember to call my eldest son home for dinner to avoid appearing that they were too indifferent .

Staring at those few words that had become cold due to mechanical rigidity, I wanted to refuse, but I sat on the chair for ten minutes, but still only sent out a word. There is no difference in responses every month.

Before going out, his eyes were suddenly shaken.

Maybe close to the window, the sun shines in and falls on the trophy in the bookcase. Whether it is the trophy body or the diamond on the base, both the trophy body and the diamond on the base will shine, and its presence cannot be weakened through the glass.

Too dazzling.

After thinking about it, I went back to the house, took the trophy off the shelf, and locked it in the drawer.

I clicked on the work group and found that it was impossible to withdraw yesterday's speech, so I had to edit another one and send it out.

Calm down, I feel rational again.

Crowd: ? ? ? ?

Chapter 20 Nothing

Before college, I never felt like my life was weird.

Ordinary is created by contrasting with the uncommon. Uncommon people will only realize how different they are when they meet ordinary people.

I will always remember Lu Feiheng's surprised and weird expression when he learned that my life for the past 18 years has been completely without fun, no friends, and only learning - I thought it was weird at the time, thinking about it now, he may be distressed I.

The first time I watched Shang Lu's movie, I was in college, and I watched Retrograde Wind with a few people in the dormitory. I don’t know if it’s a fledgling plot.” After that, when I watched other people’s movies, I felt that they were inferior to Shang Lu, and I secretly bought his posters and hid them at the bottom.

Lu Feiheng also liked Shang Lu and would often watch Shang Lu's films with me. The most watched films are all flesh-colored, showing Shang Lu's good figure and face.

I should have noticed, how could he be straight as our tastes are so similar.

It's a pity that although Shang Lu was only thirty years old at that time, he had already retired from the entertainment industry. There are only those few works left. I read them over and over again, and I can recite my lines when I see them.

If he didn't retire back then, he would be a movie king now.

It is a pity for many fans that Shang Lu gave up his flourishing acting career and turned to business at the most brilliant time. No wonder so many people expect Shang Muxiao to inherit the mantle and enter the circle to film. This has nothing to do with hobbies, it's more like a... feeling.

But their father-son relationship is so bad, it should be impossible.

Eat the broccoli.