Eternal Burning

Hey……

Hey? A mustard, happy new year. Director Dong's voice sounds a little out of breath, as if he is recovering from a serious illness. That's right, I have something to trouble you...

It turned out that last New Year's Eve, their family was eating out, and they didn't know which dishes were not fresh. Eight of the ten relatives on the table had diarrhea. He himself even vomited and had diarrhea. He was diagnosed with acute gastroenteritis. The hospital is overwatered.

Coincidentally, on the third day of junior high, he had to go to other provinces early in the morning to attend a philosophy lecture. The itinerary was set early in the morning, and it was really inappropriate to release the organizer's pigeons, and they might not be able to find a rescue guest during the Chinese New Year. Director Dong thought about it, and wanted to ask me for help to attend the lecture for him.

I have asked the organizer, it is okay to change people, and they are even more happy to change you, after all, you rarely attend lectures in other provinces. It's up to you now, if you're not free, I'll ask someone else.

It's just to attend the lecture. I'm alone, and there is no difference between the New Year's Day and the usual one. Besides, Director Dong has treated me well these years, and if I can help, I always have to help.

free. I said, you ask the organizer to contact me, I can go.

Director Dong was overjoyed and kept thanking me.

By the way, I heard something wrong with your voice, do you have a cold? If it's serious, don't go, I'll find someone else...

I touched my throat and said: No, maybe I just came back from outside and drank the cold wind. I'm ok.

Director Dong did not suspect him, and after he finished his business, he began to tell me not to overdo it during the Chinese New Year, to pay attention to my health, and not to go to the hospital during the Chinese New Year as he was. The nagging is a bit of nagging, but I know that he cares about me. After listening patiently, I also let him recuperate.

Hanging up the phone, there was no sound in the room, and it returned to the silence that could be heard by falling needles.

The snow was still falling outside, so huge and so silent. The cold gradually took over every corner, piercing the human body, scraping the bones, as if even the blood was about to coagulate.

Going to the window, I looked downstairs. The streets are sparsely populated and there are not many cars, and the whole world seems to slow down.

The snowflakes were blown by the wind and danced in the air, like slow motion.

What a nice view.

The all-white world is breathtakingly beautiful.

Open the window and reach outside. In the cold wind, the snowflakes fell on the palm of the hand, and before they felt the coolness, they turned into a pool of miserable snow.

I stared at my palm for a long time. Until the five fingers gradually became numb, the melted snow slipped down the palm lines little by little, and hit the ground with gravity.

Tightening your fingers, trying to hold something, only accelerated the melting of the snow, making it less for you to have.

The more you struggle, the more you have nothing.

The nails sank deep into my palm, stinging, and I clenched my fists until my whole hand was shaking slightly from the force.

I closed my eyes, and finally had to recognize the reality, stop fighting, let go of my five fingers, and let the last trace of snow dissipate with the wind.

I lied.

I lied to Director Dong that I was fine.

But how could I be okay...

Half an hour ago, I was still hesitating to move on, still stop here, and I was still telling myself that even if it was difficult, but as long as he liked me, I was willing to give it a try. I'm just... so funny.

Shang Muxiao coaxed me to have a sweet dream and made me feel that everything was getting better. Now I wake up and find that nothing has changed.

He is right, as long as you give me a little warmth and a little sunshine, I will succumb to the illusion he created for me called love, open up my heart to him obediently, and pay everything I have easily.

I was stupid and naive to really think that there would be someone... someone would love a crippled like me.

In the end, my heartbeat, my sinking, and all my compromises seemed to him nothing but an expected victory.

A little bit, enduring the pain, I opened the scabbed wound and showed him my true heart. I thought he would be happy, but he actually didn't need it at all, and he might even dislike it. Seeing how hard I was, he didn't know how to laugh at me for being a fool behind my back, laughing at how easily I was confused by him and how easy it was to show my sincerity.

Maybe I did catch a cold. I had a headache and a sore throat. It was like sleepwalking. I rolled up the quilt.

Among us, Arabidopsis is the best deceiver. Jing Shen was reading the book in the upper bunk, and suddenly pointed his head and said something.

Lu Feiheng was playing computer games and laughed when he heard the words: He even believed that Yui Hatano was your fiancee, what do you think?

I raised my head from the thesis and defended myself: I said it all, it was because Jingshen showed me a photo and said that the girl in it was his wife, so I thought it was really someone he knew... …”

I know it, why don't I know it? Jing Shen shouted, she is my wife!

Xu Wei came out of the bathroom with a plate of fruit in his hand. Every shop walked around, stuffing a handful of crispy dates.

If you know a fart, you know how to bully Xiaojie. Xu Wei is the oldest among us. He always thinks of himself as a big brother. Is Xiaojie easy to deceive? No, he is just kind. He doesn't know, some people in this world deceive people without reasons. He said , while rubbing my head.