I Decided To Become a Perfect Girl

57 – Age 15 (12)

It was 1:00 in the morning when I got home after filming.

Time for everyone to sleep.

I cautiously opened the front door.

Even though I didn’t show much, my mother opened the door to the main room and came out into the living room.

” Weren’t you sleeping?”

My mother hugged me.

” Yes, my daughter is coming today. How can I sleep?”

I am a mother who makes me cry again for no reason.

Mom said as she rubbed my back.

” Wasn’t it difficult for my daughter?”

” To be honest, it was a bit difficult, but it’s okay.”

” Well done. Let’s eat first. Are you hungry?”

” It’s early in the morning, so what? I need to wash up and go to sleep.”

” Then, wash up first and leave your luggage with your mother.”

” Eh~ “

I went into the bathroom to wash up.

My body and mind are already at peace with the smell of the bathroom at my house.

As expected, the bathroom at home is the best.

You take off your clothes, go into the bathtub, and get hit by the hot water from the shower, so your mental health is healed.

After taking a shower like that, I came out to the living room to find tteokbokki on the table.

After eating only lunch at the training center, I missed food outside.

” Ah, I need to sleep~”

I pretended not to like it, and my mother said.

” What do you like?”

My mother knows me very well.

She was sitting at the table eating tteokbokki, and her mother sat down in front of me and stared at me, she said.

” So how was it? Tell me about it. I’m curious.”

How was it…?

” Why didn’t you like it? It’s okay, maybe that’s the case. You can do better next time.”

My mother seemed to have misunderstood when I had a bad expression for a certain memory.

” No, it’s not like that. Haa… I need to watch this on TV.”

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” What is it?”

” To give you a big spoiler, I’m the center of the title track. I turned the stage upside down.”

Of course my outfit was turned upside down.

” Really?”

” Yes. The stage will be revealed on June 2nd.”

” As expected, my daughter. If she looks like her mother, she can’t help it, right?”

I don’t agree with that.

While eating a late-night snack like that, as she worked with her mother, it was 2:00 AM before she knew it.

After washing up to sleep, I got into my bed.

Going into the duvet in thin pajamas, I felt the texture of the duvet that was both cozy and rustling.

As expected, home is the best…

All my worries disappeared and my mind became at ease.

hahahaha… You worked really hard for 2 weeks, Dohee.

It was rewarding.

Kim Seoyoon’s voice lingers in my head.

I kicked off the blanket for a while before falling asleep.

***

After resting and healing at home for three days, I had to go to school to fill the number of days I attended.

But if you’re going to take the GED anyway, it doesn’t matter if you attend.

Haa… It’s hard to get a GED.

I said to my mother with a pitiful and sorrowful expression while wearing a school uniform and carrying a bag.

” Mom… I… Can’t I take the GED? Huh?”

” What a GED, you didn’t even debut.”

Every time she revealed her intention to take the GED, her mother only told her to do it after debuting.

She should make her debut soon or not.

When I leave home and arrive at school, the classroom is still noisy in the morning.

Even in the second year, Sohee, who was in the same class, was chatting with her friends.

I worried a lot about So-hee because I thought she would be out of the loop without me, but her timid personality has improved a lot, so I let go.

Sohee doesn’t even know I’m here because she’s talking to the kids.

I approached Sohee and hugged her tightly.

” Is it fun? “

” Dohee! “

So-hee seemed to be very glad to see me, hovering around me like a puppy meeting its owner.

For a while, So-hee was swept away by the crowd that had gathered around me.

” Hey Dohee! You said you took a picture of me?”

” How did you rank?”

” I haven’t voted yet, so what rank is it?”

” You know tier, tier.”

” But really, 3 out of the 4 major agencies are all here? How are the trainees there? Are they pretty? “

” So who saw it!? “

” Who are the judges? “

” Can you give me a spoiler?”

” Dohee, please sign me again! I lost it! “

After healing at home, I feel tired again…

***

After school, I went to work to practice again from today.

The company told me to take a break, but it’s embarrassing not to do it all the time.

Habitually, I went up to the third floor to write down my attendance.

I realized it only after I arrived at the attendance desk.

Ah, I don’t need enemies today.

Looking at the attendance signs written next to the names of Wooa and Chiyo on the attendance sheet, it seems that both of them were still practicing.

The feeling of suddenly feeling sorry for something.

” Hey Dohee!”

A welcome voice from behind.

I put down the roll and turned around.

Soyoung’s manager sister was smiling heartily.

” Hello~ “

“Why did you come to work when you rest at home?”

” I made an appointment with teacher Kwon in advance to learn some vocals from teacher Kwon while resting at home.”

” Yeah? But let’s take a break… You’re just hurting your body for no reason?”

” Yes. I’ll do a little bit.”

” Yes, take it easy. I heard more than anything. Dohee said that she is the center for this title song? “

I think everyone at the company knows about it.

Well, it’s been over a week since the center selection round.

” Ahhh. It just happened because I was lucky.”

” No, I heard about the center tryouts.”

Uh…? Do you know the content of the center selection?

” He said he was very cute with a twin tail. Seoyoon told me vividly. “

Crazy dog Seo-yoon.

After saying hello to manager Soyoung and other manager staff, I headed to the basement choreography practice room.

In the choreography room, seen through the transparent door, there were unnie Woo and Chiyo who are still dancing today.

For some reason, I feel a sense of being sorry, but also being moved.

I thought the unnies would be even more sorry if I went in feeling sorry.

I pretended to be funny for no reason and kicked in the choreography room door.

” John Ye Lee Do-hee appeared~ “

Fortunately, Chiyo and Wooa were just happy to see me.

They ran up to me and hugged me.

” Dohee-ya~ ” ” Dohee-chan~ “

I should have met in about 2 weeks, but especially since Woo-ah unni has been with me every day for 4 years, it seemed like a long time since we met.

” What have you all been up to?”

” We? Are we the same? We go to school in the morning, come out to work, practice all day, then go home.”

The two are in the same grade, the same school, the same company.

Because we spent the day together, it seemed like we could rely on each other.

” More than anything, we decided to debut together next year.”

” That’s right. We do it! Debut! Together.”

In the meantime, Chiyo’s Korean seems to have deteriorated.

” Chiyo, did you practice Korean? “

” Says this. He treats them well. Everyone.”

In the meantime, I learned a lot of strange things.

” That’s right! I heard you, Dohee, you’re the center? Congratulations!”

Wooah unnie congratulated me with an unpretentious big smile.

You might be upset that you couldn’t participate in the event.

” That’s right. The stage was Dohee very cute. Aka the youngest Dohee. “

It’s obvious even if you don’t look anymore.

Kim Seoyoon must have said that.

” Kim Seo-yoon said, right? “

” Huh? Naeun unnie told me?”

Huh…?

” Yes, Naeun unni told me. Maknae Dohee-sang dog Kawaii.”

” Ah… “

Yes, think positively.

Everybody is careful.

It all depends on your mind…

Is it weird for a pretty girl like me to do cute things?

I just acted in accordance with the appearance.

No problem…

I have no problem…

But next year, if I debut again as this member, will I be the maknae again?

f*ck?

After talking for a while, I went up to the vocal room on the second floor just in time for my appointment with Teacher Kwon for practice.

When I entered the vocal room, teacher Kwon Hyuk was already there.

” Teacher Kwon~ I’m here~”

” Oh, who is this? Isn’t it center Lee Do-hee?”

There is finally someone who calls you the center…

” Oh, center Lee Do-hee. I’m sorry. Please call me Lee Do-hee, teacher Kwon’s favorite disciple.”

Me and Teacher Kwon started vocal training in earnest after giving each other compliments and greeting each other.

Let’s talk about the things that happened in Jeodol and the worries, the teacher closed his eyes and thought deeply, and at the end of the long pause, the teacher opened his mouth.

” But, Dohee. Actually, if a tone changes so easily, it’s not a tone, right?”

” Right…”

” For that to change so easily, it is not the tone that needs to change, but the vocalization. Let’s think about it… Dohee. Didn’t I say that Dohee’s voice was good just a couple of years ago?”

” Yes, I heard some compliments back then…?”

” That’s right. Rather, there was a unique feeling at that time? It wasn’t harsh and the bass sound came out? It was very pretty?”

Certainly, there was no problem with the tone until two years ago.

On the contrary, I heard praise.

” Ha…But this has changed little by little… If I had to think about the cause, there was only one thing that could be the real cause, right? A transformer?”

” But ironically, the female voice box goes down 3 heights at most, so it’s normal that you can’t feel the change in tone…”

” Is there anything else to change in the transformer? I’ll think about it again.”

” Nem… “

The teacher was silent like that, and then opened his mouth again after a long time.

” I don’t know if this is correct, but there is only one thing that comes to mind in the end when it comes to transformers.”

” Huh? What is it?”

” But again, this is the difference between men and women, so I don’t know if it has anything to do with you… But you’re a woman too.”

The teacher shook her head, saying long and loud.

” Hmm… Dohee, do you know what changes happen when a woman and a man go through a change of voice?”

” Uh… Vocal changes?”

” That’s right. Men’s vocal cords get thicker and longer, while women’s vocal cords get thinner and shorter? Moreover, the vertical area of the vocal cords, which control the range of pitch, changes. And now, men have a low, rough, and profound voice, while women are thin and thin. Doesn’t that sound like a high, clear voice?”

” Yes. “

” But Dohee, do you know that you are bis*xual?”

” No? “

” What is bis*xuality? It is a person who has an androgynous voice regardless of their gender. Why are there men who are good at female voices? Those people are bis*xual.”

” Ah… “

” But what you need to know here is that most of these bis*xuals are male.”

” As for men, even if the vocal cords change after the voice change, if you train, you can make a woman’s voice.”

“Then can’t a woman have a masculine voice? No, she can easily do it with less training.”

” But it’s only until the puberty period. It’s really hard for women to produce a man’s voice when they’re puberty. It’s almost impossible to say it. The vocal cords are thin and short, so they have a high-pitched voice.”

Ah.

Somehow this seems right, doesn’t it?

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