I Have No Health

1. Flood

Nineina Seia.

Her misfortune began before she was born.

Nineina’s mother, Lofenia, was not in a situation to care about the fetus in her womb.

For it was around this time that Charlotte, the only other family member of Nineina, was driven to death for treason.

Lofenia couldn’t even support herself, let alone a child.

Due to the sudden stress and shock, Lofenia gave birth prematurely, and so the Duke’s daughter was born in exchange for the death of her mother.

She was half the size of other newborns and had skinny limbs.

Her respiratory system was weak, and her heart was fragile.

It’s no wonder she died so soon, her death was to be expected.

Besides, there were people who wanted Nineina dead because she had the blood of a traitorous family. She was a stain on the Duke’s family.

At that time, her father, Rubenio, was the eldest son of the Duke but had yet to become the Duke[1].

If Rubenio became the next Duke and Nineina succeeded him, then the Empire would be led by a traitor’s bloodline.

Eventually, rumors circulated that Nineina should have died along with her mother, and Rubenio’s position was in jeopardy.

Those who followed Rubenio were in tears.

– You must abandon your daughter!

She was a weak daughter from the moment she was born. With a body on the brink of death.

But Rubenio could not abandon his first daughter.

She was the only relation left by the woman he loved.

However, he couldn’t defeat the Duke who wanted to kill his daughter.

He had to make a decision.

– My child has no mother. She’s my only family.

Rubenio swallowed his tears of blood and abandoned Lofenia.

Lofenia, who was dead and had been abandoned, had already returned to where Charlotte was[2].

Nineina became the blood of Rubenio, who had nothing to do with Lofenia.

Rubenio saved his child and dumped his wife in exchange.

– You must be out of your mind for being crazy about one woman!

The Duke was not satisfied with him and continued to pressure him.

He did not hesitate to threaten Rubenio that he would deprive him of his heir position as well as kick him out of the family.

The selfish Duke was vicious towards his own blood.

However, in the eyes of the Duke, it would be a waste to throw away Rubenio. This is because he was the smartest of his three sons and had the best personality. Thus, it would be best to appoint him as the next successor.

The Duke used the stick and carrot approach[3].

– I told you not to be swept away by personal feelings! Rubenio, I’ll keep my eye on you. If you do well, the child will live, and if you don’t, the child shall perish.

Rubenio was no more than an 18-year-old young man when Nineina was born.

At that time, he did not have the power to stand up to his father. He realized that he could no longer protect his daughter if he were to be completely expelled from the family.

– What must I do?

– Until you take my place securely, disregard them. If you go see them secretly, I won’t stay still!

The Duke didn’t think Nineina would live long.

‘If I keep my son away for a while, that useless, weak baby will die.’

Rubenio knew of his father’s thoughts, but he had no other choice than to send Nineina away to protect her.

The baby, who had never been held in her mother’s arms, could not grow up in her father’s arms either.

Rather than crying, Rubenio clenched his teeth and stood up.

–  I’ll give you the world. So just a little… Please… wait a little bit.

QC/N: This is so sad ( ɵ̥̥ ﹏ ɵ̥̥)

No one could understand the horrors of a father who has to neglect their own baby, who can’t even understand words, and ask them to wait.

Rubenio held the baby’s hand tightly and released all his bottled-up feelings.

The dying tree crumbled as slowly as possible for the young pulp.

– Please, live for me.

Just like that, Nineina and Rubenio parted ways.

Nineina always remembered Rubenio’s unforgettable farewell.

Apparently, Nineina was an unfortunate and pitiful woman.

Because, in the end, she couldn’t wait for her father.

The only thing Rubenio will meet is the lifeless body of his deceased daughter.

Even though they both had longed so much for that one wish, they did not meet.

It was Meia, the female protagonist, who brought the fallen Nineina to Rubenio. Everything that would have originally been Nineina’s was handed over to Meia.

Rubenio did not love Meia like his daughter, but he did not treat her improperly either.

He thanked Meia.

Lost and without a purpose, he tried to provide Meia with everything to survive.

He showered Meia with things that he couldn’t do for his own daughter.

Meia’s status as a slave was removed when she was reclaimed as the Princess of the Duke.

Soon after Meia reached a happy ending, Rubenio committed suicide as if he had no more regrets.

The end.

* * *

‘Hoho, it’s over! It should be the end….’

“So who am I?”

“Master……”

“My name! What’s my name!”

“…It’s Nineina Seia.”

I’ve heard it over and over, yet I’m still shocked each time.

I, who just transformed into Nineina, had not adapted to my frail body and fell over the bed.

“Master!”

The servant who had been cleaning the room corridors hurriedly grabbed me and looked around.

The maid and servants, who were always in my room, were nowhere to be seen.

That’s because I dismissed them all.

The servant laid me down on the bed and tried to run outside, but I was quick to grab them.

“You… Who are you?”

I had a ridiculously pale, scrawny hand.

The servant looked down at the back of my snow-white hand and answered with a nervous face.

“My name’s Mayer.”

This, too, was still hard to believe even after being repeated three times.

I was panting for breath, even at the mere emotional agitation.

This filthy body!

I hit the footboard of my bed.

“Ugh!”

“Master, Master! Are you all right?”

Mayer looked at me, holding my somewhat red hands.

Nineina originally wasn’t the type that would allow a servant’s hand to reach her.

But right now, I’d be rather happy about something like that.

“Nineina… Are you saying that I’m Nineina?”

“Yes……”

“Are you Mayer?”

“Yes, my name is Mayer.”

Lies!

The servant’s name was Meia, not Mayer.

I knew that. Why? Because I read it in the book.

And I know one more terrifying fact.

That is, Nineina will not live long and die.

I am Nineina.

“I… Am I going to die soon?”

I ended up losing my mind less than an hour after waking up.

[1] So Nineina’s grandpa is the current Duke

[2] They went to the afterlife

[3] A metaphor meaning the use of a combination of reward and punishment to induce a desire.