If It's Your Will

It hurts, I think death is a much easier choice right now. How come these things are happening to me and that curse when will it loose its effect. I want to live but why does the world just let me be happy.

I just want a simple life where I can live peacefully and happy. I don't want anymore of this pain.

It really hurts.

Does this pain want to penetrate through my soul too?

I don't know why but suddenly it became so warm and the pain somehow subsided, it feels so comfortable and it feels like I have been wanting this warmth all of my life.

I have pushed myself more inside the comfortable warmth and somehow it also envelops me. I have tried to open my eyes but my it seems like I can't but still I persevered until I have caught a glimpse of light.

When I open my eyes I found out that I'm in someone's arms and I can't get out because of the tightness of his hold.

I cannot see his face but I think he is sleeping.

I wonder if it's already evening. I can't see anything clearly but I think I'm inside of a carriage since the place is moving and I can hear the horses' hooves.

I have tried once again to move but I immediately stopped when I felt a very excruciating pain. I have to hold my clothing to prevent myself from making a sound but unknown to me the clothing that I had hold is the one that possess to person holding me.

I can feel his grunt and then suddenly I think his head looked at and it seems like he is awake.

I have gulped some saliva because of nervous since I didn't know the person.

"Wan Gouwei tell them to stop the carriage" He suddenly spoke and it almost make me have a heart attack and that is also when someone opened the door and the light from the moon penetrate inside the carriage and I found a person in white clothes and then someone holding a lamp that somehow someone I already met.

"What's the matter Wan Gouwei?" The person who holds me asked and that is when my attention came to him.

He also stared at me when I looked at him and I don't know why but I feel like I have met this person but I can't remember someone like him.

I just stared at him, and he also stared at me and when the light of the lamp completely illuminated the room that is when I see his face, and then he touched my face, and he let me see my own tears.

Huh?

How come I'm crying is it because of the pain?

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