I’m on the Road To Probation Paranoia

After watching the TV show for a while, Bai Han yawned, two physiological tears burst out from the corners of his eyes, his eyelids drooped down, his whole body was like an eggplant hit by frost, suddenly Just forget it.

Du Ruanlan peeled off two large hawthorn pills and handed them to Bai Han: "Eat it and go to bed, my stomach will feel comfortable when I wake up."

The drowsiness surged so suddenly and intensely that Bai Han couldn't turn his head, she forced her sour eyes to look at her: "What about you?"

Du Ruanlan: "Go to sleep and leave me alone."

Bai Han wandered back to the room, spread out his limbs on the bed, and fell asleep within two seconds.

Du Ruanlan followed behind her, seeing that she was sleeping in the wrong position and that the quilt was not covered, she shook her head, walked to the bed, and turned her over with Bai Han in her arms, not letting her She slept with her heart pressed, afraid of her stiff neck, and took a soft pillow and put it on the back of her head.

She didn't want to wake Bai Han, she acted gently and cautiously, greedily staring at Bai Han's slightly parted red lips, staring at the faintly visible tip of the scarlet tongue, taking a few deep breaths Unable to hold back, he kissed him restrainedly.

More delicious and softer than expected.

The faint sweetness spread on the tip of the tongue, Du Ruanlan used a lot of willpower to not go too deep, but chose to withdraw just enough.

She didn't dare to look at the attractive Bai Han again, she turned and walked to the side, raised the temperature of the room, she went to the living room, opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of ice water, Gu Dong was suffocated.

The heat in her body was suppressed as much as possible, and Du Ruanlan returned to Bai Han's side and lay down.

But she didn't fall asleep, not even sleepy at all, lying on her side facing Bai Han, staring at Bai Han's profile without blinking.

The sleeping Bai Han frowned, as if he was struggling with something.

Du Ruanlan raised her hand, pressed her eyebrows to smooth the folds, put it on Bai Han's waist through the quilt, arched her body forward, and got closer.

Bai Han snorted twice, as if he had finally relieved his mental fatigue, his brows gradually eased and calmed, his body twisted spontaneously, and he adjusted a comfortable posture in Du Ruanlan's arms , slept more deeply.

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Bai Han stretched his waist comfortably, opened his sleepy eyes, and saw a vaguely familiar face, thinking he was dreaming.

She rubbed her eyes and took a closer look, she actually saw Du Ruanlan lying beside her, and she was looking at herself with a good look.

Bai Han was startled, turned over and sat up: "Why are you here?"

Du Ruanlan also sat up, her eyes were clear and clear, not like she just woke up, but her voice was a little hoarse, it sounded very low, very sexy: "I'm sleepy after I pack my things. I didn't go back because I was afraid that you would wake up feeling uncomfortable, so I made do with you all night."

“…” It’s normal to stay overnight with friends, there are also men who sleep in the same bed with men, not to mention women who have to go to the bathroom hand in hand, Bai Han looked at Du Ruanlan With a flat expression, I feel that I have overreacted.

They worked hard to help her clean the room, and they cooked a table of good dishes in person, but she borrowed half of the bed. similar.

Bai Hansan scratched his face and said to make up for it, "It's not that I don't sleep well, I'm afraid it will disturb you and make you sleepy."

It’s not that they never shared the same bed before, this statement is obviously untenable, but fortunately Du Ruanlan didn’t think much about it and shook his head indifferently: “No, you fell asleep very well. Quiet, you don't have to turn over all night, if you still don't sleep well, then I'm afraid you won't be able to find a few good sleepers in the world."

"?" Bai Han asked, "Don't I turn over when I fall asleep? If I turn over, that means you sleep well and you don't feel it."

She fell asleep, not in a coma, so maybe there was no movement at all.

Du Ruanlan glanced at her and said, "Then you can find someone with good sleep quality in the future. Even if you don't sleep well, you won't wake her up."

Bai Han: "…"

Sharing with Du Ruanlan on the same bed, she always felt awkward, Bai Han lifted the quilt and got out of bed: "I'll take a shower first." This ended the topic directly.

Du Ruanlan stared at her back as if she was running away, her eyes swayed, her hands touched the bed that was still hot shortly after she got up, and the temperature in her palms cooled little by little Get down and get up.

After washing, Bai Han dried her hair in the bathroom, put on her pajamas neatly, turned around in front of the mirror and stared at it for ten or twenty minutes before making sure that the package was tight. It was only then that he went out.

She still felt a little uncomfortable, always felt that Du Ruanlan's eyes had been falling on her, but when she looked over, she found that the other party didn't look at her at all, Bai Han annoyed herself I think too much, and I can't help but feel that I feel right.

She sat on the sofa awkwardly, turned on the TV, turned up the volume, and pretended that she was watching TV seriously, but she didn't know what was actually playing, whether it looked good or not.

Du Ruanlan also went to take a shower, she came out with a lot of casualness, her big wavy hair was loosely pulled behind her head, and two strands of curly hair hung down on both sides of her cheeks Silk, still dripping with water, was wrapped in a white bath towel, revealing a thin and delicate collarbone that could be called a clothes rack. in the towel.

Bai Han: "!" She hurriedly turned her eyes away, staring at the TV screen, not daring to move her eyes at will.

Du Ruanlan shook her head gently, and more cold drops of water fell on Bai Han's arm and face.

Bai Han: "..." He moved to the corner without a trace.

Du Ruanlan didn't seem to notice, and chatted with her at will: "What do you want to eat in the morning?"

I ate too much yesterday afternoon, I slept and digested a little, but now I am not hungry, Bai Han shook his head: "I don't want to eat anything." But in a flash she thought of Du Ruan again Lan didn't seem to have eaten anything yesterday, and immediately said, "How about you? What do you want to eat? I'll go downstairs to buy it."

She emptied the refrigerator before she left for the mission. Yesterday, Du Ruanlan bought mostly vegetables, and there was nothing to make breakfast.

Bai Han can't wait to go on, as long as she can avoid the embarrassment of being alone with Du Ruanlan, that is, let her fly now to collect famous breakfasts in various provinces, and she will not hit a single stumble Book now.

Unfortunately—

Du Ruanlan also said not to eat: "You forget, I don't eat breakfast."

I didn't forget, I just want you to eat.

Too bad hope.

Bai Han showed a look of regret on his face, and let out a listless voice.

After a pause, she said, "It's still a little cold in the morning, why don't you..." Wear two clothes?

Du Ruanlan stood up, but instead of entering the room, she brought out a cup of hot milk from the kitchen that she did not know when it was heated and handed it to Bai Han: "If you don't want to eat, drink some milk. Pad your stomach, or you will suffer from low blood sugar."

Then he said, "Are you cold? I don't, I still feel a little hot."

Du Ruanlan asked again: "What are you going to do today?"

Bai Han said, "Don't do anything." Just stay at home and sleep.

Although I feel good when I wake up in the morning, but after sitting for a while, I feel numb again.

I am tired and want to sleep.

Du Ruanlan suggested: "If you have nothing to do, do you want to go to the company together?"

"..." Bai Han didn't expect that Du Ruanlan was still thinking about it. After drinking a big mouthful of milk, her tongue was almost scalded, and she gasped in pain.

Du Ruanlan also bluffed, took out a piece of paper to help her wipe the milk stains on the corner of her mouth, she pinched Bai Han's chin, and probed to look: "Where is the burn, are you alright? "

Bai Han turned his head and said vaguely, "No, it's fine."

She took the ice water that Du Ruanlan handed over and took a big mouthful, her cheeks bulging.

After two or three times, the tongue does not hurt as much as before.

Du Ruanlan was in a complicated mood and asked, "Just don't want to go to the company? ... Is it difficult to do?"

"Not really." Bai Han hesitated, "It's not a matter of urgency, I just came back from a business trip, I'm very tired, and I don't want to talk about work."

Du Ruanlan glanced at her, as if she wanted to persuade her again, but Bai Han had already closed his eyes, really completely rejecting this topic.

Du Ruanlan was helpless and had to add: "Whenever you want to go, just tell me, I will take you there."

"Ah? Well, okay." Bai Han agreed very carelessly, and Du Ruanlan can see now that she doesn't want to go at all, even if she wants to go, won't tell myself.

"Ding Dong—" Bai Han picked up the phone and found that it was the information that the bank card had arrived.

Although the company only said yesterday that the bonus is linked to emotional clearing, the bonus has arrived today, which is really scaring myself.

Anyway, I have to collude with the finance department to deduct the bonus for a few days. It’s so simple to send a lot of slaps in the face.

Looking at the series of zeros behind, Bai Han no longer had the shock and excitement of the previous missions, her heart was still water, and she was even a little tired.

She threw the mobile phone on the coffee table and made a "DUANG" sound.

Du Ruanlan asked, "What's the matter?"

Bai Han yawned, rubbed his eyes, and said, "The subsidy for the last business trip has come down."

Mentioned about money earlier, Bai Han always looked elated, dancing and saying that he would be able to buy a house after a few business trips, but this time...

Du Ruanlan asked: "What? The amount is not ideal?"

Ideal, why not ideal? Simply ideal! The ideal is like a fantasy.

Bai Han shook his head: "It's okay, it's more than the previous few times." But holding the money always made her a little uncomfortable.

Although the company is still a national official unit, there is an indescribable sense of insecurity.

Bai Han simply forgot about it and didn't think about it.

"It's not good if it's too high?" Du Ruanlan's voice became softer, for fear that he would accidentally say the wrong thing and provoke Bai Han, who would be upset, "You didn't want to buy a house before. It just so happens that I have a few friends who are engaged in real estate. You were on a business trip, so I asked about it first."

She glanced at Bai Han cautiously, for fear that the other party would be unhappy that she would interfere in her affairs at will.

But Bai Han's expression was indifferent, and he looked completely uninterested, let alone angry.

Du Ruanlan's eyes flashed with unease, and continued: "He took a piece of land in the city center, the community is full of single houses, although not as quiet as the suburbs, but the environment is good, privacy Also, the most important thing is that it is close to the company and the commute time is short…”

From beginning to end, Bai Han kept his eyelids drooping and drowsy.

Du Ruanlan saw this and said, "Or are you interested in other real estate? Tell me and I will analyze it for you?"

"Not really." Du Ruanlan was too warm and attentive, Bai Han didn't know how to refuse, she hesitated and said, "I don't plan to buy it in the city center."

"Suburban?" Du Ruanlan frowned slightly, seeming to disagree, but still said, "Alright, the air is good, it's suitable for adjusting your mood, and you can also retire in the future, over there in the northern suburbs..."

Bai Han interrupted: "I may have to go back to my hometown."

"Hometown?" Du Ruanlan's eyes narrowed slightly, "I didn't hear you mention it before."

Bai Han said: "Well, I just made the decision."

"Decided? That's it?" Du Ruanlan said, "You work here, settle down, why don't you buy here? Are you a little tight? I have some working capital, I can Lend it to you first, don't waste your first set of qualifications."

Bai Han also knows that young people today are doing everything possible to run away, but she does the opposite and wants to go back to her hometown. No wonder Du Ruanlan doesn't understand.

"No, I didn't buy a transition set first." Bai Han corrected, "I plan to settle in my hometown in the future."

"?!" Du Ruanlan's pupils shrank, "What do you mean?"

This time out of the mission world, Bai Han found that his mood had changed.

She used to be able to treat the mission world as a game without any hesitation, and treat the characters in it as emotionless paper people, but now, she can't.

She can't help thinking about what the world will be like after she leaves, and what will happen to the villain when she loses her love? Like ordinary people who have lost their love in real life, are they immersed in grief and unable to recover, or are they cheered up to meet a new tomorrow?

She knew that, like the protagonists in the negative cases cited by the previous company, she could not distinguish the task world from reality.

The real world is maintained with great effort, and if you want to gain the trust of the villain, you have to put your heart into it.

Once the sincerity is invested, how can Bai Han not be sincere.

She can now remind herself that those worlds are all virtual, but it is not too far from being indulged. If she thinks about withdrawing at that time, she will not be able to retreat.

It may be like the loser in the case, getting out of the nutrition cabin, climbing to the top without a stumbling, jumping off the roof, like quitting the game , fork out your life.

Although there are some rapid retreats, it is good for physical and mental health.

Bai Han turned her head and met Du Ruanlan's very incomprehensible gaze, thinking that the two of them were considered good friends, and she suddenly wanted to completely withdraw from her world, it seemed that she really needed to give come up with a reasonable explanation.

She organized the language and said: "The pace of the big city is too fast, plus this job...Although the pay is high, but there are too many business trips, I can't do it."

I don’t even dare to think about the savings, according to my consumption standards, even if I sit and eat the mountains, I will have nothing to worry about in this life, so I plan to go back, buy a few shops, open a small cake shop, and live in peace.”

Du Ruanlan obviously did not expect her to make such a decision suddenly, and was slightly stunned.

She wanted to persuade Bai Han to stay here, but she didn't know what stance and qualifications she should take, her lips moved, and in the end she didn't say anything.

The two sat down for a while, and Du Ruanlan asked: "You miss your hometown, but you can't come here again? There's nothing in this place that will make you nostalgic?"

"Huh?" Bai Han thought for a while, then said, "No, I have you here, and many other friends." In the mission world, she often hypnotizes herself not to invest too much Emotion, acting is good. This kind of psychology and thinking also affects her real world. Bai Han knows that parting should be a sad thing, but her cognition and real feelings seem to be separated, and she thinks of leaving this life. After decades of land, her emotions are also light, and she doesn't even seem to feel at all, and the cold-blooded self feels terrible.

Bai Han thought, she really can't take the task anymore. After two days of adjustment, she will go through the resignation procedures immediately.

"So I'll still come to play. When the time comes, as the host, you have to invite me to dinner." Bai Han laughed twice.

Du Ruanlan didn't say good or bad, her eyes were heavy, and she didn't know what she was thinking.

Bai Han didn't care either.

Du Ruan Lan added: "Can I ask you some personal questions?"

Bai Han smiled: "Yes, you can ask directly."

Du Ruanlan asked: "After so many years, you don't have someone you like, or someone you think is suitable and can live with you?"

"…" to live with? She does seem to have reached the age where she should be urged to marry.

But Bai Han's time is used for work, and due to her personality, she rarely goes out, does not communicate widely, and has no chance to meet new people. Where can I find someone.

She was also a little distressed: "Not yet." However, people in big cities have a fast pace of life and have ambitious goals. Bai Han felt that he could not meet the minimum standard of the other party, so he didn't want to. .

She said, "Let's talk about it when we go back." Find a person with moderate conditions, honestly treat yourself well, and live a peaceful life.

Du Ruan's blue eyes flashed: "What do you like?"

Bai Han said: "No..."

Du Ruanlan interrupted: "We can be considered friends, it's better not to say the perfunctory conditions, what do you think?"

"..." Bai Han frowned and thought, "I like mine."

Du Ruanlan was puzzled: "What do you mean?"

Bai Han said: "I'm a slow-moving person, and I'm relatively passive. It's absolutely impossible for me to actively pursue someone."

It's like she likes Du Ruanlan, but Du Ruanlan has someone she likes, and Du Ruanlan's conditions far exceed her expectations, she feels that she is not worthy of her. Of course, if it was someone else, Du Ruanlan was just secretly in love with the other person, and she still had a big chance. As long as she improved herself in all aspects, and rushed to pursue it, maybe she could achieve it.

But Bai Han couldn't do it.

Only confident people will bravely pursue the person they like, and have the confidence to make the other person like them too. But she's not, she's a coward at heart. She even had low self-esteem, she couldn't think of anything about herself worthy of being liked by such a good person.

So she gave up before she started.

But she didn't feel regret, let alone regret, Bai Han said with a smile: "I remember that there was a very popular question a few years ago, how do you say it? Oh, oh, right , you will marry whoever you like or who likes you."

She said softly: "Since then, my answer has never changed. In the future, I will definitely be with people who like me."

Because, she also wants to be a baby who is held in the palm of her hand and cared for in her heart.

Du Ruanlan nodded thoughtfully: "I probably understand."

"Then Bai Han..." Du Ruanlan stared at her eyes and asked seriously, "What do you think of me?"