Ke Ai: Growing up with Xiao Ai

Episode 8: "It turns out... The woman who claimed to be 'Shinichi's girlfriend', forcibly broke into the house of 'Shinichi's girlfriend', snatched the phone call from Shinichi, tried to forcibly open the toilet door, and kicked open the door of someone else's house, turned out to be an angel... (from episode 10 anime) "

I like Kudo-kun.

I decided to be honest about my feelings on that day when the summer vacation was coming to an end and it was still very hot...

"Ouch, Miss Mourning. "

When the Doctor suggested going out for a walk on a day of good weather, Miss Lan approached me and greeted me.

"Hello...

I nodded slightly, intending to walk away.

"Oh, wait a minute, Miss Mourning. Would you like to have a cup of tea together?"

... I can't find a reason to refuse.

"... All right. "

We came to a nearby café. Even though it was summer vacation, it was a weekday afternoon and there were few visitors.

"Didn't you go with the Junior Detectives today? I heard that Shinichi was out too, so I thought you would be together... "

Since Miss Lan understands the situation, she calls him Shinichi in front of me and Kudo-kun.

"Mimi went on a family trip, Kojima-kun and Tsuburaya-kun went to stay somewhere with a few male classmates, and Kudo-kun... You think you're going to meet a detective in Osaka?"

"Ah, by the way, what did Hattori-kun say... "

Oh, haven't you heard?"

"He went on a trip with someone three days ago... He wasn't home when he came back this morning... "

And who....

This topic stung me inside.

If I hadn't made Kudo-kun's smaller potion, would that "someone" be Kudo-kun?" "

Hey, Miss Mourning. I

looked up and suddenly noticed that Miss Lan was looking down at me with a worried expression, and I became a little dull.

"Uh, sorry, I was just thinking about something... "

Is it about Shinichi?"

"No... It's not just that...

I shyly denied it, but was amused by Miss Lan.

"Miss Lan, do you care about me... My feelings... "

Oh, do you mean, does Miss Mourning like Shinichi?"

She knows... She's the last person I should ever let know... Even though I've been trying to hide....

"I'm sorry... "

Hmm, wait, why are you apologizing?"

"Because... Because... "

I robbed her of the opportunity to "have a future with Shinichi".

I forcibly deprived her of her choice.

Because she has the right to choose, because I want to make a "choice"....

My long-suppressed emotions finally exploded.

Tears welled up in his eyes.

"Oh, Miss Mourning, what's wrong?"

"No... It's nothing... I

tried to stay calm, but Miss Lan's expression was slightly worried.

"No, Miss Mourning, if you have tears, you should confess, we are friends. "

Friends. I actually think so. I don't have this qualification....

"Even though being friends doesn't mean you have to tell each other everything, I don't want to be so lonely. Hey, try to tell my sister?"

"Sister...?

I was taken aback.

I thought that her personality and Kudo-kun were too different, but because of her bright and positive personality, I always thought that she was not my type.

However, her strong personality hides the characteristic of being easy to cry, but she is always gentle, which is also very similar to her sister. Perhaps, because of the similarity, I subconsciously disliked being close to her, because I was reluctant to associate her with my late sister.

Sister....

I realized that by the time I had an emotional outburst, I had already told a lot of things.

Something about the organization, about the drug, about my sister, about the encounter with Kudo-kun, the battle with the organization, my feelings for Kudo-kun, my feelings for Miss Lan...

At some point, the sky turned crimson, and a considerable amount of time had passed, and my story was over.

"I see...

She gazed at me with tender eyes, carefully considering her words.

After a moment of silence, she spoke again.

"Let's take a walk. "

Miss Lan took my hand and we started walking in the park.

"Miss Mourning, it seems that you have too many feelings in your heart, but it's not a good thing to hold it in your heart.

Miss Lan looked at me with a gentle expression.

"... But, you know, I'm not qualified to love Kudo-kun. "

"... Hey, Miss Wai, do you like Shinichi?"

"So, I'm not qualified... "

Do you

like it?" "Just like it?" If that's all there is to it, if there are only two choices...

"... Like, like him.

Miss Lan had a bright smile on her face.

"That's good, just like it. Like someone, you don't need any qualifications.

"But...

"So, do you want to be with Shinichi? With Shinichi, will you be happy?"

This one... "

I hesitated. That's right. I want to be with him. But....

Suddenly, Miss Lan hugged me. Even though I'm a 5th grader, she's a freehand practitioner and it's not hard for her to pick me up. But I felt a little embarrassed, and she put her face against mine and said to me in a gentle voice.

"It's okay, Miss Mourning, you can be happy. "

I stopped struggling.

"If being with Shinichi makes you happy, then always be together, always be together. A

gentle voice, without a hint of reproach. I unconsciously hugged her.

"Miss Mourning, she is always so gentle with others. But you can also be kind to yourself. "

A warm feeling....

Miss Lan took my hand as the stars dotted the sky as we headed home.

I've poured out my emotions and she's holding me tenderly, and I might feel a little ashamed.

"Goodbye, Miss Mourning. At

the doctor's door, Miss Lan was ready to leave.

"I...

I whispered, and she looked back at me. She looked straight at me, and I said that.

"I like Kudo-kun. "

"... Well.

"I don't know how Kudo-kun feels about me... Will he forgive me? "

"... Well.

Miss Lan looked at me with a gentle smile.

By expressing determination, I felt like I was taking a step forward. The person who helped me make this decision was Miss Lan, and she didn't forgive me.

No, she didn't forgive me. Miss Lan never hated me or complained about me, and that kind of negative emotion only existed in my heart, which became an excuse to escape my guilt.

But I decided to stop running away.

Miss Lan didn't forgive me, she tolerated me gently.

Someone said that one day. Miss Lan is an angel. （... Who said that, I don't want to recall...

Indeed it is. She is a true angel.

"Thank you, Miss Lan. "

Hmm...

Miss Lan tilted her head in confusion. Then, she seemed to understand something....

"Oh, Miss Wai. Can Miss Mourn also call me 'Sister Lan' like Shinichi?

""??!"

Ah... I'm sorry, but considering my sister's business, it's a bit inappropriate to call 'sister'... "

'Sister Lan' is too difficult for me. But... Thanks, Lan... I

was confused and my face turned red, but I said it anyway.

"Thank you, sister. "

Ouch, Miss Mourning... It's so cute!"

Miss Lan squatted down and hugged me tightly. My heart....

No matter how hard I try to deceive myself and close my heart, I can't really deceive myself.

It is impossible to deceive yourself.

I understand. I should stop running away.

I like Kudo-kun... No, I like Edogawa-kun.

No more lying.