Knight of the Blue Lagoon (The Past of Tao v)

6. Home (The Past of Tao i)

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"It's not just a pity for you, it's a pity for everyone. The monitor is the top three in the class and easily the top 20 in the grade. Under the leadership of the monitor, the overall strength of our class ranks first among the 18 classes in the grade. The person who feels the most pity may be the class teacher. He tried to keep the class president, but the matter has spread, and the news is getting wider and wider. The school leaders are worried about affecting the reputation of the school, so they can only persuade the class leader to resign. In fact, the class teacher has always been protective of the class monitor. In the past, when the class monitor got into fights and was reported to the Academic Affairs Office, the class teacher tried his best to avoid punishing the class monitor and did not remove him from his position as class monitor. Sometimes the class monitor and his classmates climbed over the wall and slipped out of the school, and the class teacher found out. I also turned a blind eye. There were many things like this, but this time the head teacher couldn't do anything. At that time, there were rumors among the students that the head teacher liked boys, but who could not like such a person? The class teacher and the principal were very unhappy over this matter, but the class teacher was already pretty good anyway."My mother looked helpless.

"Then what?"

"There was nothing the squad leader could do, but he had the guts to do so and left without much hesitation. Before, he could be said to have everything, wisdom, handsomeness, health, cheerfulness, pampering... At that age, people should have everything he had, and he had everything they hoped to have. God was really unfair to him. Maybe it was too smooth and God was jealous, so he suffered this. Maybe some sufferings were better experienced early than later."My mother seemed to be sighing something.

"What happens next?"Tang Jiahui wanted to know the result anxiously.

"After the vacation, I went back to school. I am in my third year of high school and have more classes."

"After the monitor leaves, what about you? No one is chasing you anymore?"Tang Jiahui

"Your mother is so beautiful, of course she is. Many boys in the class actually like me, and only then do they have a chance."My mother became relaxed again and continued:"Not long after, they began to pursue me, including the study committee member, but the one I liked the most was the monitor. You know how happy it is to have someone who you like very much and who likes you.. It's a pity that the class leader left, and later the class teacher also changed"

"Why do we need to change the head teacher? He is not wrong?"Tang Jiahui was puzzled.

"We asked the head teacher, and the explanation he gave us at that time was to adjust teaching and give young teachers opportunities."Mother

"Did he never go back to school?"Tang Jiahui

"Later I heard that the squad leader came to see the class teacher again, but he didn't see me or other students in the class. At that time, everyone in the senior high school was already nervous about studying. Maybe he didn't want to disturb our study. By chance, He Yundu, a classmate in the class, met him and expressed to the class monitor how much his classmates missed him. He said let it go as soon as it happened, cherish your senior year, and don't have trouble with the study committee in the future. Everyone knows his dad. With the power here and the relationship with the school, don't cause trouble to the class teacher. You will be the one who suffers when the time comes. He said that it was enough that we played together, ran together, studied together, and had fun together. In the last year, I hope everyone can focus entirely on their studies and get into a good university. He left first. He Yundu said that he could clearly feel the helplessness and fatigue on the monitor's face. It was much darker than the previous arrogance, but he could still feel the light in his heart. This made us classmates who cared about him feel more at ease."My mother stared at the dishes on the table, which were still steaming.

Then she added:"Life will always go on, and studying in the third year of high school will naturally be more intense. On the surface, everything is moving forward in an orderly manner, but everyone understands that it is different from the past. Same. The atmosphere in the class has completely changed. The laughter between classes turned into talking about the past with the monitor, and there is no longer the original anger."

"How is your new head teacher?"

"The new class teacher was a female teacher without much experience. I heard she was a relative of the principal. As soon as she came on, she severely criticized the original monitor in the class, and then appointed a study committee member and monitor. She is very strict and likes to preach. Whenever she gets the chance, she will nag about why there is so much competition now and what will happen if she fails to get into a key university in the exam. I heard that she just graduated from a very ordinary normal college. Tiantian emphasized that she should not fall in love now, as there would be no results if she did. She called all the male and female students who were close to her to the office to talk. She often lectured the girls. She was nervous one day, and it didn't take long for her classmates to become very annoyed with her. Especially female classmates. The new class teacher did not allow us to laugh and play during class, saying that this was undisciplined nonsense. In fact, the joy brought to everyone by the short-term laughter during class is a good adjustment. It can soothe tired nerves so that we can listen to the class better. Once she heard her classmates talking about the heroic deeds of the old squad leader. She ordered that this person should not be mentioned in the class from now on, claiming that he had led us bad, and she wanted to clean up the remaining poison, and from now on we should follow the example of the new squad leader. Study committee members always imitate the style of the old squad leader, but they do not have the charisma of the squad leader. Slowly, the class became more and more boring. There were fewer students talking during recess. Everyone was lying on the table and hiding behind books. They all seemed to like silence. We missed our original class teacher and monitor more and more. It is also rare to see a class teacher. Later, I heard that the class teacher suggested that the class leader study abroad. One of the classmates of the class teacher when he was studying at Beijing Second Foreign Language School was able to help the class leader. The class leader's English was very good. Soon after, the class leader left the city. Then we entered During the intense preparation period for the college entrance examination, our final college entrance examination results did not meet expectations."Mother.

These mother's experiences deeply attracted Tang Jiahui. They picked up their chopsticks and then stopped. The chopsticks danced with their emotions, and they seemed to be immersed in these stories. The dishes on the table slowly changed from steaming to steaming away. It slowly cooled down, then cooled down again, and the chopsticks were never moved. These dishes seemed to have become insignificant accompaniments. The sky gradually became dark and gray. In the past, the autumn in this city still had the heat of summer, which made people irritable and restless. I was bored, but now the warmth of autumn has hatched the feelings of spring, and they are slowly blooming at this moment. Tang Jiahui's emotions can't stop and keep jumping. I didn't expect that my mother had ever had such a pure first love, and it was so legendary. She couldn't help but feel envious. When Tang Jiahui returned home, the room that had always been deserted suddenly felt warm. The journey was tiring. Today, not only was the body traveling, but the mind also experienced an extraordinary journey, and the spiritual journey was more draining than the physical one. The energy and physical fatigue have long been cast aside.

Tang Jiahui walked into her room. She had been rejecting this place deep in her heart for a long time. She always felt cold. The quilt on the bed was always not tightly covered. Hot. I even hated this place at one time, but today this feeling is completely gone. Tang Jiahui walked around the room and looked carefully at everything she had used. Nothing had changed, not even a trace of dust had increased. , and suddenly her eyes were wet. Tang Jiahui sat quietly on the edge of the bed, then spread her arms and lay on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. There was a kind of freedom intertwined between familiarity and unfamiliarity, soaring freely in time and space, and subconsciously it seemed like What are you looking for, looking for the squad leader, looking for your next path?

Time is a wonderful thing, sometimes it makes people hate it, and sometimes it is so intimate.

Tang Jiahui recalled why she hated this family in the past few years, when her mother gave birth to her I was very young. I remember that there was a time when my mother loved me very much. When I got older, my mother slowly began to try a new life. My mother got married for the second time. Her stepfather was a policeman and was divorced. She had a child, a child and a house. They all belong to his ex-wife, and he seldom visits the children.

His stepfather is very good to him, and it can be seen that he is trying very hard to please him. His salary is not high, but he often buys gifts for himself, and the new family is considered harmonious. But I always feel that there is a little bit of emotional connection between each other, like a piece of scattered things put together.

I remember a holiday, when I was still in the third grade of junior high school. One day, my mother was at work, and my stepfather suddenly came back and bought another gift, which was a skirt. , the skirt is very beautiful, I like it very much, my stepfather asked me to try it, and I put it on happily. My stepfather started to help me arrange the skirt, saying that I have the charm of my mother, and my mother’s beautiful genes are gradually revealed in me, intentionally or unintentionally. He started touching her, which made people feel very uncomfortable. I didn't tell my mother at the time, and I didn't know how to say it. In fact, my stepfather didn't do anything extraordinary, but this family made me lose my sense of security, and then I calmed down for a while. It was just that the door was locked at night. Not long after, one day at noon, they woke up very late that day. They had already gone to work. They planned to go out with their classmates. When they were taking a shower, they suddenly found their stepfather peeking out of the back window. At that time, he didn’t know what to do. My clothes were in the room, my phone was also in the room, so I hid in the bathroom and didn't dare to come out. Later, I told my mother that my mother and stepfather had a big quarrel, but with my later skills, I quickly coaxed my mother away. My mother knew that she had never liked her stepfather and suspected that he was messing around, but as a mother, she still had some problems. worried. They have all had a failed marriage, and they should be able to understand marriage more rationally, cherish marriage, understand each other, and respect each other. In the end, my mother chose to compromise and sent herself to live on campus. She went directly to her grandparents' house on weekends and rarely came back here. When she came back, she was always accompanied by her mother. Later, she only occasionally ate with her stepfather. Later, they had a child, and they became more redundant, and their affairs had little to do with them. They almost never came back to live here again, and their room was always empty, but they often thought of it. Father, my father will definitely love me very much.

Not long after the child was born, the stepfather said he wanted to renovate the house for the child to play in. The mother didn't agree, so he suggested selling the house and getting a bigger one. The mother didn't agree either, so they started to quarrel, which turned out to be a breakdown of their relationship. the trigger. The stepfather began not to come home and stayed outside all day long. The mother took care of the children and had no extra energy to take care of herself. Later, the mother found out that her stepfather had a woman outside. The stepfather once again promised not to mess around again. The child was still young, so the mother compromised again for the sake of the child. My stepfather still kept urging my mother to change houses, but my mother firmly disagreed. They quarreled over the smallest things, almost every day. They were so fed up with this home. It could be said that this place was no longer my home. It was very difficult at that time. Wanting to leave the city became the motivation for high school efforts. One day a woman suddenly came to the door. The mother was taking care of the child at home, and then the stepfather was kicked out of the house. I left here after the college entrance examination.

Tang Jiahui never understood why her mother divorced her father and stayed with this man. Even if her father never came to see her, he must have his own reasonable reasons. In any case, he would be better than this man, and a hundred times better. When I saw my spotless room, these things suddenly came to light again. My mother's life had been really hard these years. I had never thought about her, only complained. After a long marriage and never being truly loved and cared for by a man, I realized how difficult it was for my mother. Now I feel that my complaints against this family are a bit too much. I have never seen my mother's relaxed expression today. Maybe the only true love she got was the brief relationship with the monitor. Tang Jiahui now hopes that there will be a trustworthy man beside her mother to love and protect her.