Morbid Addiction

The window of the room was open, and the heavy blackout curtains were not closed, but only covered with a layer of gauze. After the lights in the room were turned off, the light shone through the curtains and the outline of the canopy of trees on the roadside could be seen faintly.

The express hotel was located in the downtown area, with a street right outside the window. The buildings were not very high, and although it was late at night, you could still hear the sound of cars driving by from time to time, and even the sound of jokes and footsteps of a group of people passing by.

This gave Chen Yuncheng the illusion as if he could be heard by those people passing by downstairs if he made a little louder noise. So he would bite his lips unconsciously at that time, making only a small sound from his nostrils.

Ning Junyan was silent at this time, Chen Yuncheng could only hear the sound of breathing constantly echoing in his ears, and through the faint light, he saw that Ning Junyan’s gaze was focused and sharp, and he did not move away from his face even for a second.

Chen Yuncheng felt that he was probably not looking good at this time, his face was flushed, and his neck and forehead were covered with sweat, so he raised his hand to cover Ning Junyan’s eyes. When he was halfway up, because of Ning Junyan’s vile movements he rested it helplessly on Ning Junyan’s arm and held his arms tightly.

It was a weird feeling. It was neither bad nor uncomfortable, it was just out of control. The feeling of abandoning the shame of opening up your most private self, giving it all up to the other person’s control, and everything was out of your hands; the feelings of happiness and pain were given to you by the other party. Chen Yuncheng never liked this kind of feeling, but because it was Ning Junyan, he wanted to give him everything.

It was in this complex emotion that Chen Yuncheng’s body tensed up more and more, and he was afraid that he would not be able to control himself, so he extended his hand towards Ning Jun Yan and called out to him, “Yanyan.”

From childhood to adulthood, it was only during the four years with Ning Junyan that he briefly felt that he could rely on this person. Although he had always taken care of Ning Junyan in life, psychologically he relied on him because Ning Junyan would never hurt him.

Ning Junyan then picked him up and let him sit in his arms.

There was a wind blowing in from outside the window, the gauze curtain was blown higher and higher, and the sweat on Chen Yuncheng’s body was also dried by the wind.

But the heat remained undiminished and was penetrated even deeper as if even his thoughts and soul were imprisoned. Chen Yuncheng tensed the backs of his feet and clung to Ning Junyan’s shoulders, breathing hard.

At the last moment, Chen Yuncheng heard Ning Junyan whispering in his ear, “I love you.”

Chen Yuncheng’s mind went blank, and along with the most extreme of human senses, these three words echoed repeatedly inside his head.

He needed the feeling of being relied upon and valued so much, and he loved these words so much that for a moment he even thought that Ning Junyan was so cunning that every time he was enjoying the ultimate in pleasure in the future, he would probably think of Ning Junyan’s ‘I love you’ words for the rest of his life.

The next morning, Chen Yuncheng slept until late, when he woke up and found himself in Ning Junyan’s arms again, leaving him no room to move.

When he tried to move, Ning Junyan woke up behind him and wrapped his arms around him even tighter.

Chen Yuncheng opened his mouth to speak and found that his voice was hoarse, “What time is it?”

Ning Junyan closed his eyes, and when he spoke, his lips were pressed against his hair, softly as if kissing him, and his voice was lazy and hoarse, “I don’t know.”

The blackout curtains had been drawn, and the room was dimly lit, but there was faint white light coming in through the top of the curtains.

Chen Yuncheng said, “Don’t sleep again.” He wanted to go back to the shop in the morning to help out, there were more customers coming in over the weekend and he felt that there would be too much work left for only Guan Anlin and Wu Xiaozhu.

Ning Junyan didn’t wish to let him go, and asked vaguely, “What are you going to do? Want to do it again?”

Chen Yuncheng was instantly startled awake by him, “No more.” Last night, they had tossed and turned until midnight, and now he could still feel the pain in that place.

Ning Junyan was probably also tired, closed his eyes and said, “Then sleep with me for a while, darling.”

Chen Yuncheng got goosebumps when he heard Ning Junyan calling him that, and couldn’t help but want to throw Ning Junyan’s arm away. He said, “Can you stop calling me that?”

Ning Junyan said, “You’re not happy to be called wife either.”

Chen Yuncheng turned over and looked at him, and said, “Be normal, why don’t you just call me Chen Yuncheng?”

Ning Junyan opened his eyes.

Chen Yuncheng looked at his sleepy look and suddenly found him cute, smiling as he kissed his forehead and said, “Get up.”

Ning Junyan raised his hand to ruffle his hair, and lifted his upper body slightly with his arm supporting him, looking at him, “Continue the date?” It was the weekend, and he was not on duty.

Chen Yuncheng said, “I’m going back to work.”

Ning Junyan was expressionless.

Chen Yuncheng came closer to kiss him again.

Ning Junyan didn’t respond, and let him kiss for a while before he rolled over and pressed himself against him for a while longer.

When he came out of the hotel, Chen Yuncheng glanced at the time, it was already past ten o’clock in the morning.

When he booked the hotel, he didn’t bother to order breakfast, so he guessed that breakfast was also out at this time, so he and Ning Junyan went to a nearby breakfast restaurant.

Chen Yuncheng asked Ning Junyan to sit down, went to the order window and ordered two bowls of porridge, a basket of steamed buns, a basket of siu mai and two tea eggs, and brought them back on a plate.

Chen Yuncheng had felt thirsty since he woke up in the morning and hadn’t had any water. Now he picked up the bowl and drank several mouthfuls of porridge.

Ning Junyan took a tea egg, carefully peeled the shell, and handed it to Chen Yuncheng, “Wife, eat the egg.”

Chen Yuncheng nearly choked on a mouthful of porridge, and he glared at Ning Junyan with great dissatisfaction.

Ning Junyan was silent for a moment, stared at the tea eggs in his hand for a while, then changed his words, “Mr. Chen, eat the eggs.”

Chen Yuncheng felt so angry and amused that he could not help but kick him under the table.

Ning Junyan looked indifferent, did not look down, and asked, “So you’ve started seducing me under the table now?”

Chen Yuncheng desperately denied it, “I didn’t!”

Ning Junyan said, “It’s okay.”

Chen Yuncheng took the peeled tea egg from his hand and said with a smile, “Nonsense.”

It was quite late and there weren’t many customers in the shop at this time of day, so the two of them sat in the corner and ate their breakfast in a fairly leisurely manner.

Ning Junyan asked him, “Do you want me to help you later?”

“Help with what?” Chen Yuncheng was eating a siu mai, “Help in the store? No need.” He was in the shop almost exclusively to talk about business and goods sales, so Ning Junyan couldn’t be of much help, and it was impossible to ask Ning Junyan to do things like carrying goods and making deliveries.

Ning Junyan leaned on the back of the chair and looked at him, “So our date is over? When’s the next time?”

“Next time, eh?” Chen Yuncheng seemed to be thinking about this question very seriously.

Ning Junyan said, “Tonight?”

Chen Yuncheng felt happy about dating, not having to work and going out to dinner and a movie, and also being able to sleep with a handsome man. Who wouldn’t want to date every day? But his wallet couldn’t take it. He glanced at Ning Junyan and said, “Some other time, next week?”

Ning Junyan frowned.

Chen Yuncheng said, “I don’t have any money, I have to save up to pay you back.”

Ning Junyan said, “I can continue to lend you money.”

If the chopsticks in Chen Yuncheng’s hand hadn’t been holding siu mai, he would have thrown it in Ning Junyan’s face.

The smile in Ning Junyan’s eyes flickered away as he took out a key from his pocket, placed it on the table and pushed it in front of Chen Yuncheng.

Chen Yuncheng knew this key. It was the one he had borrowed from Ning Junyan’s house before.

Chen Yuncheng stared at the key without saying a word.

Ning Junyan said, “I took back the spare key from my mother’s place. I’m worried that I won’t have it with me one day, so can I put a spare one at your place?”

Chen Yuncheng looked up at him and put down his chopsticks.

Ning Junyan continued, “I’m not asking you to move back.”

Chen Yuncheng stretched out his hand and took the key.

Ning Junyan added, “Maybe you’re tired of getting a room in a hotel and want a change of taste.”

Chen Yuncheng laughed when he heard the words, “I’ll think about it.”

When he heard Ning Junyan mention his mother, he couldn’t help asking, “Did you tell Auntie what I told you about Yu Jie last time?”

Ning Junyan said, “I told her, but what to do with it is her business.”

Chen Yuncheng thought that there was nothing else he could do, so he nodded, “Alright.”

Notes:

Sorry for not updating for like 2 weeks? or more? Things have been kinda rough for me irl and I decided I need to step up my game and I need to focus more on my main work to recover some financial expenses(my laptop broke down *cough* because I’ve been using it to do my freelance job) and since I am not a fan to do translation or updates by phone, I just didn’t update it until I can get myself a new one… Sorry to keep you guys waiting for long

I actually want to keep the notes short, but something just caught my eye on the other series I am translating that someone commented the work I am doing is an edited MTL. I don’t know that I need to clear this up again. I am clearly an MTL. Although I am taking Chinese lessons and was born in a Chinese family, I am not on a native speaker level (English is not my first language too btw). I used a machine translation help to translate. So if it really bothered you to read the series I am translating, I cannot magically become a native speaker in a day, so you can wait until an HTL picked it up or an official publisher picked it up. Sorry for the long rant, I just want my reader to understand that I am not trying to con y’all to think this is the best version out there you can have, but I am always doing my best to translate all the work I am posting ʚ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ɞ