My name is Lu Mingfei, not Lu Mingfei!

Chapter 186 185. Death of Black Swan (5)

The iron door was rusty and had a heavy lock hanging on it, which made people feel like something like a monster was locked inside.

Renata stroked the big lock gently. She wasn't ready to open the door to see what was going on. She couldn't open it anyway. In her imagination, it was probably filled with monsters raised by nurses, because when they beat the children who made mistakes, they would often roar loudly and say, "Let the things in Room Zero come out and eat you." This way it won't cause them any more trouble. It seems that even in the eyes of the nurses, the people in room zero are monsters.

Monster... Renata stared down at her toes when she thought of this word.

She didn't tell anyone that she was actually a monster and could see things that others couldn't.

There is a big sister in Black Swan Port that only Renata can see. The first time I saw her was in the cafeteria. There were only children sitting and eating, so a big sister sitting there was very eye-catching. She has a good figure and likes to wear a light blue sweater with a sun-shaped pendant hanging around her neck. In Renata's opinion, there is no one more beautiful than this sister in the entire Black Swan Port. She is the oldest His characteristic is that he is proud, he can hold up even the thick sweater, and he always shows a kind smile when looking at Renata.

Because she kept looking at him and smiling, Renata thought that she must be a very kind person, so she sat next to her with her dinner plate and asked her why she was looking at her. She said because she thinks you are cute.

Renata thought this must be a lie, she still had so many freckles on her face that she didn't like herself even when she looked in the mirror. The cutest girl here is Khorkina, because she is the oldest and has developed very well. She is tall, thin and graceful. Every boy and girl likes to see her wearing a dance skirt and dancing ballet.

Khorkina was sitting on the other side of the long table eating. It was not invisible from the perspective of this eldest sister, but she really never looked at Khorkina twice. Whenever Renata came, she would wave. Wave and say Hi Renata with a small smile.

Of course, all this was learned later. At least on the first day they met, Renata was still wary of this eldest sister. She thought she was lying and had no intention of continuing the conversation with her.

Renata knew that she was the only one who could see this big sister. One day, when Khorkina left with the dinner plate, she curiously asked her, Renata, why do you always talk to the air? Are you living in your head? An imaginary friend? Only then did Renata realize that her eldest sister's existence was invisible to others. There were nurses supervising her while eating, but they never asked Renata about talking to the air. Here Children have been given so many drugs that it is common for them to become confused and hallucinate.

From a book in the library, Renata learned that there is a disease called multiple personality in the world. People with this disease can imagine one, two, or even more personalities. They can have different personalities. The same identity, age, and gender will only converse in the patient's sight and mind, leading to emotional and logical daily life and quarrels.

Renata felt that she might have suffered from such a disease. The big sister who always sat in the cafeteria was her imaginary personality, so she was the only one who could speak.

But she doesn't care. After living in a place like this for a long time, everything will lose its color. Even if it's a person who doesn't exist, Renata can talk to her a lot, secretly chatting about things that only each other knows. , which made her very satisfied.

Later, Renata gradually realized that something was wrong, because this big sister could tell a lot of things that Renata didn't know. For example, she claimed to be from another race, a race that was much more powerful than humans. For another example, she said that the place where Renata lives is called Siberia, which is part of the Soviet Union. If you go east, you can cross the Bering Strait to North America. If you go all the way south, you can see Mongolia and China.

Multiple personality is based on the patient's knowledge and daily impressions. It is impossible to fabricate a character out of thin air with no relevant knowledge at all. This is what the book says. Suppose a male multiple personality patient has lived on an isolated island since he was a child. He is a castaway. His mother died when giving birth to him. He has never seen a woman, and his father has never mentioned a woman. Then his imaginary personality must be There will be no opposite sex because he doesn't know.

This made Renata begin to wonder what this big sister was, a ghost that only lived in the cafeteria? Or some kind of demon trying to seduce human souls?

It seems that she noticed that Renata has been a little cold towards her recently. One day, the eldest sister told Renata her name.

She said it was called Chaochao, which means that the sea water washed up on the coast during the day and rose and fell. It was a natural phenomenon. It was called tide during the day and tidal wave at night.

Asashio told Renata not to be afraid of what she would do to her, she just wanted to chat with Renata for a while, because everyone was the same lonely and lonely person.

She didn't smile when she said this, and her eyes seemed to have lost their luster, which reminded Renata of those sled dog puppies born in Black Swan Harbor. They were obviously such mature big sisters, but they still showed little Yes, it makes people feel like their hearts are being pinched.

Renata thought that Asashio meant that she was a monster too, so everyone could get to know each other.

From then on, Renata relaxed and became friends with Asashio. Gradually, Asashio was no longer limited to appearing in the cafeteria. She could come to Renata at any time and anywhere. Sometimes she would suddenly poke her head out from under the bed to scare Renata, and sometimes she would lie on top of the nurse's head when the nurse was scolding Renata, poking the nurse's head hard, with a bad look on her face. The connection between her and Renata was one-sided, only she came to Renata, but Renata could never find her.

Therefore, Renata often wandered out in the middle of the night. In addition to patrolling the Black Swan Port, which seemed to belong to her territory, she also looked for Chao Chao to see where she would hide when she was away.

Could it be behind this iron gate?

Just as she was thinking this, the padlock popped open and fell straight down! If such a heavy padlock fell to the ground, it would definitely alert the nurses in the duty room, and Renata would be finished! She rushed over to catch the padlock.

The strange thing was that when the padlock fell into the palm of her hand, she realized that the padlock was still locked. Was it just an illusion that she had just seen it suddenly pop open?

Without the restriction of the padlock, this old rusty door slowly opened a gap, as if it was inviting someone in.

Renata boldly pushed open the door of Room Zero. The room was dark, empty, and had a slight smell of decay. The white curtains rose and fell slowly, stained with some kind of black stain. The light of the searchlight filtered through the gaps in the wooden bars. On the left hand side, there were rows of iron shelves piled with glass medicine bottles, and on the right side was a sheet of cast iron. The operating bed is covered with yellow rust spots.

This is an operating room. Renata has never been to similar facilities, but the operating rooms used by children are very clean and tidy to avoid bacterial infection to the greatest extent. But everything here is full of filth and decrepitude. If anyone dares to operate in a place like this, the surgeon probably won’t have to think about the end result and just let the patient die on the operating table. Otherwise, those injuries and infections will be taken away. killed him.

Renata suddenly heard a faint sound of breathing, accompanied by the rattling of chains, and something vaguely squirming in the dark corner where the light could not reach.

She reached out and groped on the wall and found the light switch. After turning it on, she finally saw clearly that it was a person, a girl about her age.

There was no intact skin on the girl's body. She looked like a patient with severe burns, but in fact those were scars left by surgery. It’s hard to imagine that such a big child would have so many scars on his body. Probably only the harsh punishment called death by a thousand cuts can describe this situation. The wounds ranged in size from new to old. If it were an ordinary person in such a messy place, In the environment, the wound should have festered and become infected, and she should have died. However, most of the girl's wounds were scabbing, leaving a large red scar around her, making her look like a bloody person.

But she actually has beautiful long hair that can cover her butt when she sits. It is very clean and slender, like those girls who only appear in color picture books. They are usually princesses, counts, or someone living in Moscow. A young lady.

In comparison, Renata's hair was very dry...the braids were even braided, astringent and lackluster, and Renata was envious of it.

The girl seemed to be asleep and didn't realize anyone was coming. Renata carefully bent down and reached out to gently lift her forehead.

It was an Asian face. Although it looked a bit dirty with a lot of blood on it, it still looked delicate and almost frail, as if it would fall down if it touched her. Renata feels that she is really prettier than any little girl in Black Swan Port, and Khorkina cannot compare with her. She is not yet that age, but she is already able to surpass Khorkina, and she will definitely be very beautiful in the future. A beautiful beauty, just like those fairy tale princesses in books.

In an instant, Renata suddenly felt a little sad. This simple word should not appear in her dictionary in the future. No matter she or other children in Black Swan Harbor, no one has a future to speak of. Most people will soon They were brought here when they were young and never saw their parents again. Some of them were simply born here. Black Swan Port is all we have. Siberia and distant Moscow are just words in a book. They seem to be close in front of us, but they can never be touched.

Will you die one day? Black Swan Port will not specially build a grave for anyone. Just carry it out and throw it into the snow. It won’t take long for the wind and snow to bury everything. It is simple to deal with. This may be the most important thing for Renata. Good ending.

Just when Renata was filled with sadness, the girl suddenly opened her eyes. The dazzling golden color almost blinded Renata's eyes. She covered her face and backed away in horror, feeling as if she had encountered some cold-blooded animal.

The girl was stunned for a second. She obviously didn't expect that she would make such a low-level mistake, and she smiled a little awkwardly.

"I'm sorry, Renata, I thought you wouldn't be scared." She called Renata's name accurately, but she never left the room.

"You...you know me?" Renata was taken aback. She had not recovered from the shock, but the girl calling her name gave her a sense of intimacy, maybe in a place where she was not. We all know each other when we know each other, such as in the cafeteria or the library of Wangfeng. Among the 38 children, there are still some Renata is not very familiar with so far.

"I also know a lot of things about you. You are very famous." The girl stuck out her tongue. With so many wounds, even if many of them were healing, she should still be in pain, but that face conveyed intimacy. Friendly and smart, she has a really cute smile.

But cuteness cannot be eaten in Black Swan Port. The relationship between Renata and Khorkina is not very good, because Renata knows some of Khorkina’s secrets, and those elderly nurses no longer She is young, and the ones she takes care of are mostly children, and most of the girls are quite pretty.

As the leader among them, Khorkina was particularly prominent. The nurses often found fault with her, took her out of the room in private, and abused her with various things that hurt but left very few traces. For example, if very thin but very hard fishing wire is tied and locked tightly, it will leave very fine blood-colored strangulation marks on the body. As long as it is an inconspicuous part like the thigh or shoulder that can be covered by clothes, you will not be afraid of being caught by others. Discover. Another example is a hot red needle, which is the perfect weapon to prick someone because the traces it leaves cannot even be seen with the naked eye.

Renata accidentally discovered the secret of Khorkina being abused alone while taking a bath together, and Khorkina also noticed her. Renata wanted to tell Dr. Herzog that the doctor took good care of the children and gave special orders to prohibit abuse. But Khorkina

Stops Renata and warns her not to tell anyone.

Renata asked why, and Khorkina said that you will understand in the future. This is the territory of the nurses. They will not be dismissed easily. Even if you tell the professor and get a temporary punishment, they will still be here. If you work here, there will be many opportunities to exact revenge on you in the future. What you encounter now is at least bearable, but if you piss them off, it won't be that simple.

Khorkina's example taught Renata a lot about how to behave in Black Swan Port. She gradually became a thief and behaved when she appeared in front of others. In her opinion, beauty and cuteness are a sin here, so she has never thought of wearing better clothes or learning to put on makeup. The girl now looks much worse than Khorkina, probably because she is more beautiful. Bar.