My Taoist Career

Decisions about future direction are the best way to quell existing grief.

At this moment, I still miss Master, but I know that in the future I will pursue Master. With this goal, the grief will not be so obvious, and it will allow me to survive many years.

Another example, for Ruxue, in the future we have already decided to bless each other, to love each other without regret, then the pain will gradually fade away with calmness, because we have no regrets in our hearts.

It’s also like what Uncle Hui said inadvertently when chatting with Master a long time ago: “Life is a process of living, and the end that God shows you is of course not death, but whether your state of mind can reach a certain state when you die. , to be clear, the process of life is a kind of experience.”

Therefore, whether I can find Master or see Ruxue in the end is not the key to the matter, but my life has a new direction. At the moment when I close my eyes, I have experienced it, and my heart is peaceful.

This is the real way to do one's best, let's live in peace.

I looked at Master's handwriting, and I was stunned for a while, put away my sadness, changed into calmness, and then walked towards the futon in the room. Naturally, I don't understand the meaning of Master's words, of course I understand.

Picking up the futon, tearing off the yellow cloth covering the futon, I saw that the middle was indeed hollowed out, and there was a whisk in the futon. I am familiar with this whisk. It is a magic weapon left by the master. , there is a special metal chain inlaid in the dust whisk, which is used in conjunction with the 36-style whisk. gave me.

I was calm at first, but when I saw this Fuchen, I felt sad again. Just as I thought, Master really cared about me, just like a father who is facing a persistent person who doesn’t follow his own opinion. Son, even if you are angry and helpless in your heart, you still love your son, and you will quietly stuff a wad of money into your son's long-distance luggage, expressing silently in this way, I don't approve of you, but Dad will always Support you, miss you.

Silently put away the fly whisk, I took a deep breath, the cold air I took in was just enough to soothe some emotions in my heart, at least I understood that my heart was comforted, and Master left without saying a word. My anger has been gently brushed away by this whisk.

Putting down the whisk calmly, I turned around and held Ruxue's hand, and said, "Let's go, I'll see you off."

Ruxue leaned closer to me, let me hold her hand, and hummed lightly.

Brother Cheng Xin sighed, and said nothing in silence. The tragedy or comedy of love is watched by others, and the real taste in it is like drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or not.

What you feel regretful, others may not feel regretful, what you feel happy, others may not feel happy.

Brother Cheng Xin understands this, sighing, not commenting, that is the best attitude.

The three of us walked out of this quiet room silently, and the remaining distance was only three to five meters away. I just held Ruxue's hand tighter and tighter, and she responded to me in the same way.

The truth is understandable, but it still takes some time to be sad, sensibility and rationality, no one can achieve a complete balance, as long as he (she) is emotional.

There is no longer a bright light here. In the darkness, the sound of our footsteps echoed in this corridor, and we soon came to the screen wall. We did not stop, and silently bypassed the screen wall and continued on our way.

Behind the screen wall, there is another corridor, but it is only ten meters away. There is only one long bright light on alone, making the whole corridor dim and dark, giving it an unreal psychedelic feeling.

And this bit of light no longer affects our ability to see the closed bronze door at the end of the corridor.

The insects are flying behind Ruxue, just like there is a large black cloud behind the three of us, but even if it is a real dark cloud, it turns into rain, but it can't sing with the sadness in my heart, it is indescribable, I had no choice but to hold back.

Walking down this corridor hand in hand, I tried my best to calm down and said to Ruxue: "Is this the last part of the road that you and I can walk side by side in this life?"

"Maybe, or maybe not. I didn't tell you something just now, but now I can't let it go, I still can't help but tell you again, if you really can't forget it, put it in your heart, but you can still live a peaceful, happy and safe life , this is my blessing to you." Ruxue said softly.

I held Ruxue's hand a little harder, didn't look at Ruxue, just stared at the bronze gate that was getting closer and closer, and said: "I know, I also believe in one sentence, even if the sky collapses one day The ground is sinking, and it can't change the fact that I love you, I loved you deeply, it stays in time, I don't complain, I don't hate, this is enough, I have given you for many years in my life, in my life During those years, I only had a girl named Ruxue in my heart."

"That's great." Ruxue said quietly, but in the blink of an eye we were already in front of the bronze gate.

Ruxue looked at me with a smile on the corner of her mouth, and I looked at Ruxue with the same smile, since we wanted to part, why couldn't I give the other party a smile, even a sad one.

"I'm leaving." Ruxue said to me.

"You once said what ending can we have? I said that a person's life is death from birth. If you can't die at the same time in the same year, the same month, and the same day, then the end is either life or death, so the time together is the end. Ruxue , we have an ending now, right?" I looked at Ruxue and said, even though I was smiling, my throat felt sore.

"Well, it's the end. For many years, you loved me, I loved you, and we were the only ones. The difference is that we didn't die at that time. When the world saw it, they thought it was not the end. But, what's the matter? The important thing is, for the two of us, the ending is enough, and we are very happy and have no regrets." When she said this, Ruxue's hand gently caressed my face.

Holding Ruxue's hand, I finally pulled her into my arms, hugged her tightly, and said in a low voice: "Actually, I'm always unwilling, I can't bear you."

"Do you still have to wait until you are willing?" Ruxue said in a rare 'naughty' way, quietly let me hold her, and left my embrace after a while, looked at me and said very seriously: "Chengyi, I'm leaving."

"En." Finally, tears welled up in my eyes, and so did Ruxue.

"Go back along the original path, and after climbing the stairs, you will walk out of this place. I have already received such information in the quiet room just now." Ruxue said to me softly.

I nodded, looking at the ceiling, desperately holding back tears.

"Chengyi, I have a request." Ruxue continued.

"Ok?"

"Wait a minute, after you open this door, turn around and leave without looking back."

"Why?" Even though I endured it desperately, tears still fell from my eyes. The sadness at this moment is like a sea, and I am a drowning person, I can only let it surround me overwhelmingly, and I just can sink into it.

"Before, you and Brother Cheng Xin once sang a few lyrics. You were very sad, and you didn't want to see my back. So, in the end, I didn't want to leave a back for you. You just remember the present Me." When Ruxue said this, her tears fell silently, but her voice was as calm as ever.

I didn't answer, I don't know if I can be cruel and not look back.

But Ruxue was no longer willing to wait any longer, and said softly to me: "Open the door."

After she finished speaking, she had already started to push the door, I gritted my teeth, let the tears and snot run down my face, lowered my head, and helped Ruxue push the door together with Brother Cheng Xin.

I thought the heavy door was not as heavy as we imagined, but in fact I didn't want to push it open, so I wish it could be heavier.

Opening this door is like opening a door in the life of Ruxue and I. Inside and outside the door, we can no longer be a couple who can let ourselves fall in love. We want to Each 'hit the road'.

'Boom..' After all, the bronze door was pushed open by us with a dull sound. At that moment, I smelled an indescribable smell that should belong to the vicissitudes of life. The insect cloud behind us couldn't wait to fly in.

But when I looked up, I was shocked by the back of the gate. Is that the 'universe'?Or not, because there are no stars, only thick darkness, with an inexplicable distortion and mystery, just appeared in front of my eyes, and with the light behind me, I can't see through this darkness, I don't know What kind of existence is inside, how big and how broad it is.

I can only see a shocking existence floating in it - the skeleton of a dragon!The real one, the skeleton of a dragon in Chinese mythology!

I can't describe the feeling at this moment, it's like I'm standing in nothingness, facing me is only the huge skeleton, it seems to be facing me with a huge coercion, but there is no slightest persecution My feeling is peaceful but vast!

"Chengyi, let's go." Ruxue said softly, and at the same time let go, I held her hand just now.

I'm numb, I can't move!

"Brother Chengxin." Ruxue called softly.

Brother Cheng Xin understood, he pulled me past me, and walked back. He tightly strangled my neck, pulled my head, pulled me away, and said to me: "Cheng Yi , don't look back, you listen to Ruxue, otherwise you will be sad, and she will also be sad, don't look back."

Am I not going back?Am I not going back?My tears slid down my face as if I didn't want money.

I heard footsteps behind me, my whole body and my heart seemed to be pulled farther and farther with the footsteps!

"No!" I yelled, and then punched the innocent brother Cheng Xin fiercely, broke free from him, and turned around suddenly.

Looking back, I saw her figure, which had slowly disappeared into the darkness behind the gate, and seemed to be swallowed up by the darkness. There was a person inside the bronze gate, and the two gates were slowly moving towards each other. off.

no, do not want!I suddenly felt that it was difficult to breathe, and ran towards the door like crazy, I want to pull Ruxue, or I want to be with her, I love her so much!

Brother Chengxin hugged me tightly, and a crying voice sounded from behind me: "Chengyi, don't let her feel uneasy! When she is getting heavier and heavier on my back and there is no more movement, you believe me , I am no less sad than you."

"Ru Xue!" I yelled heartbreakingly, and fell to my knees on the ground. Finally, the sea of ​​sadness had drowned me, and I no longer had the strength to hold back my crying.