My Taoist Career

At this moment, I don't want everyone to notice my abnormality, I really want to explain to the head that I'm fine...but, in the next moment, I can't sense the outside world.

It's just because what I always thought was Chen Chengyi's sleeping will suddenly rebounded violently at this moment, slowly suppressing my will, and his will can't gain the upper hand for a while.

Therefore, the two of us can no longer perceive the outside world very clearly, but confront each other in the world of thinking... and gradually I have lost control of this body and soul, and who am I?I am Chen Chengyi...

I thought I would just fall asleep like this...In the silence and darkness, if you don't maintain a firm and constant sliver of clarity, it's actually not that scary, just like if you don't have any feeling, you will still feel scratches on your body Is your knife scary?There is no pain at all, so there is no need to be afraid.

However, I can't forget Master's words... He made me not give up, he made me regard all this as just climbing a mountain... So, when Dao Tongzi's will is overwhelming, every time I am about to During the assimilation of 'swallowing', I was always in the dark and refused to give up my sliver of clarity.

I am Chengyi, I am Chen Chengyi!

This is my last sliver of clarity... This kind of clarity makes me very painful, because I am surrounded by a dark and silent world, because the will of Dao Boy is completely suppressed passively, and I can't perceive any external situation at all. ...For people, the most terrifying thing is not any kind of torture, but letting you stay in silence like this in the dark and lonely.

Therefore, maintaining this trace of clarity is the most painful experience in my life experience, and it is also the most painful tempering... The only thing I dare not give up is hope.

I can feel that everything about me is silently merging with Dao Tongzi, except my will... because I know clearly that in the end, this is what will be truly suppressed and dissipated... and the essence of will is In any case, something that can't be explained clearly, no one can specifically say what it is?

Just like the soul can sometimes be interpreted as an energy, a magnetic field, but what about will?

I once asked Master this question about the core of the soul, and Master pondered for a long time before answering me: "This may be a heart, this may be a person's thoughts, and this is the most intangible thing."

Regardless of whether it is a heart or a fluctuating thought, the greatest nutrient is hope. I am glad that I never gave up.

From the boundless darkness at the beginning, to later, with Dao Tongzi and my soul, everything in me merged more and more... His will was no longer so strong, and occasionally when his mood fluctuated, I I can also slowly perceive some of the outside world, and gradually regain some clarity.

As for why the always indifferent Dao boy has such mood swings... It's hard for me to explain, but I remember that Master once mentioned the words of an eminent monk as an explanation of the soul.

He said that the eminent monk once said that jumping out of the river of fate... Getting rid of the painful cycle of reincarnation is not something that ordinary people cannot try, but there is no perfect will (which can also be interpreted as a perfect heart) that has been tempered. It is unbearable to bear the memory of life after life.

Because if you don’t look at yourself with a detached heart, you will eventually be assimilated and fall into complete confusion.

The meaning of this passage seems vague and profound, but it is actually not difficult to understand. Every tempering of the way of heaven for people is kind and fair...that is, at the beginning of human beings, they all have a heart that is not stained with dust. , let people start again... In the process of tempering, if it is not thorough, the mistakes of the previous life will still be wrong, and the mistakes will be even deeper...and some impurities have been tempered out.

In a certain life, you will be close to the perfect heart of the Dao rule, and only such a mind will see your own memories of each life as the way of heaven sees the world, and each life hidden behind the barrier of fate Only the will will be accepted, or in other words, the mistakes will be completely discarded and the correct will will be returned.

This is the last mental catastrophe before attaining the Tao... After that, a complete return to consummation.

Ordinary people can naturally make such an attempt, but without such a heart, how can they not be affected by the memories of each life?In the end, don't talk about refining the will, the whole person will be completely confused in the memory of reincarnation.

So, the final test is to integrate the big reincarnation into quick small reincarnations. If the state of mind is complete, what about the reincarnations of all generations?

If we must explain the boy's mood swings, it can only be said that his will can't even bear my memory in this life... In the process of suppressing and assimilating my will, he was first disturbed by my memory upset.

I feel more and more that his indifference is just a disguise, and his way of cognition should be to look at everything in the world indifferently, fairly and without emotion.

He tried his best to imitate it, but he didn't know...it's just the shape, without the heart, how can it be real?And the more this is the case, the weaker he becomes. Dao boy is severely affected by memory... and his paranoia becomes more prominent at a certain moment...

When it comes to Yang Sheng's matter, the doubts in his heart fully reflect this kind of paranoia... The paranoia towards Dao is not like Yang Sheng's paranoia towards science.

I heard the elder's words, Tiandao had given the answer long ago, it was to stop all of this, using lifespan as the price is the warning of Tiandao... It's like, there is no matching soul, but there is mismatching power , the last thing it brings to people is self-destruction.

This has nothing to do with the morality and the bottom line of the orthodox practitioners. It is just that the orthodox practitioners have seen this danger...and human beings have been caught in endless internal struggles. Isn't that the essence?

When the mind is not perfect, but when the strength is inflated, it always wants to get more... This kind of selfish greed is the original sin, and it has set off a series of wars. From another perspective, even if Yang Sheng succeeded in everything without sequelae, Is it necessarily good to put it on humans?What are the consequences for the world?

No matter under what circumstances, it is not a good thing to get a powerful power that does not suit you, it is dangerous... What's more, Yang Sheng can't achieve success without sequelae, but is full of endless troubles. These experimental products are Example... They have become less human, is it really not painful to live like this?

I sighed, it's hard to imagine the consequences of a child holding a knife... Life is a long evolution, how can it really be counterproductive?Although this seems unconvincing, in fact, it is really terrible...

Dao Tongzi and I really met for the first time when we were facing each other and had no perception of the outside world. We met in the world we perceive...

He stood in front of me, just like in his memory, wearing a green robe... His expression was calm, the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, but his eyes looked at me with some curiosity.

"Chen Chengyi, ever since I regained my clarity on you, I have been in various doubts, even the things I thought were inevitable, like why your will that should disappear is so clear. ? You tell me, I was wrong..." Dao Tongzi was the first to speak, and he said this to me.

"I can't answer you, but now I feel that all of this is just like what Master said, what is wrong is wrong, what is right is right, what is wrong cannot cover up what is right, this is the way of heaven, this may be why I will not disappear The reason." I said to Dao Tongzi.

Before, in my consciousness, Dao boy was tenacious and invincible, but later, I realized that the deeper I understood, the more it was not the case.

It seems that the fear of human beings comes from the unknown, and this sentence is really true.

"You said I was wrong, did you mean Yang Sheng's matter? What was wrong was that Yang Sheng violated the way of heaven, so the way of heaven took the life of the person being tested as a warning. When I agreed with Yang Sheng, Are you violating the way of heaven?" Dao boy looked at me, asking sincerely.

"No, your mistake is that you didn't see clearly why Tiandao gave such a warning. You have always been wrong in only looking at the surface of the rules, as if the rules tell you that it is one, and you just do this one mechanically. You never delve into one. What is behind it? Just like you think that the rules of heaven are fair and ruthless, but you don’t know that behind the rules of every day is great love... I want to thank you for letting me fall into darkness, which makes me more profound I have to think about where I failed in my previous life, so I have to practice this kind of tempering in this life." I said with a sigh.

At this moment, I really have a feeling of enlightenment, as if everything has been completely displayed in front of my eyes.

"What do you see clearly? Why is the way of heaven such great love?" Dao boy was still puzzled.

"See clearly, I experienced Wei Chaoyu's catastrophe in my previous life. It may not be a bad thing. If I hadn't encountered such a catastrophe, I would have fallen into the evil way. The Venerable Master unfolded the dream and returned to the great formation...just to make you realize that you have gone astray. , but in the end, you did not see this danger clearly. As for why the way of heaven is great love and love, you only need to see what the mainstream direction of the rules of the way of heaven is, and you will understand...it is righteous, this is the greatest kindness , just like the rising and setting of the sun, reincarnation, this is kindness to life... Do you understand? If you don't experience all kinds of troubles in the world, how can you see through this in the end? What you see is only the rules It's just fair and ruthless." I said with a soft sigh.

I finally understand.