The medical journey is long, it is too difficult for my concubine

Dianqiu and the surrounding guards could only watch the confrontation between He Xuqing and Li Qingyan nervously. Dianqiu knew exactly what He Xuqing was angry about, so she never dared to say anything, and the guards around who didn't know could only tense Tightening his nerves, he carefully observed the scene in front of him, and silently recited the order Li Qingyan gave just now in his heart: "No matter what happens, He Xuqing must not be allowed to leave this yard, and she must not be allowed to suffer. A little hurt."

"Your judgment is not without loopholes. It's not that you haven't thought about what happened today. I said earlier that even if it's cooperation, I have a bottom line that I won't allow." Li Qingyan's voice was a little more serious.

He Xuqing laughed back angrily: "So you watched me collect all the medicinal materials like a clown, and then you took them all away gently and skillfully, leaving only a sentence of 'I already said it'?"

She felt that something was wrong just now, and when she entered the medicine room, she suddenly realized that the extra medicinal materials she had obtained through Chen Chuyang were once again scoured by Li Qingyan, not even a single medicinal whisker was left for her, how could this make her not angry.

"Now I'm getting more and more confused about how sincere your 'cooperation' is." He Xuqing snorted coldly.

"You know my sincerity best, don't you? If I really didn't want you to recover your memory, I wouldn't have told you so much from the beginning. Do you think you still have a chance to get in touch with everything in this yard?" Li Qingyan frowned slightly, He could bear He Xuqing's losing his temper at him, but he couldn't bear He Xuqing's repeated doubts about him - this was the second time she mentioned doubts about his purpose.

He Xuqing was still aggressive at first, but after hearing these words, he suddenly felt as if a basin of cold water had been poured on his head.

"I said that I just don't want you to get hotheaded and experiment with such dangerous things easily. Even if you use drugs to restore memory, you have to be careful. Did you ever think that there would be such a result when you drank that drug last time?" ——Aren't you also full of confidence and think that you will succeed? Don't always think of yourself as perfect." Li Qingyan reprimanded coldly.

He Xuqing gritted her teeth and said nothing, Chongshuang slowly closed her wings and landed on the branch, still looking at He Xuqing vigilantly.Li Qingyan continued: "I won't say much else, there are already enough things you can touch in this medicine room. What you need to do now is to improve your medical skills, instead of rushing for success and thinking about unrealistic things. Knowing that the things you have used casually in the past few months are not necessarily accessible to others in a lifetime, you should be content."

He Xuqing's gaze moved upwards, and when she met Li Qingyan's deep gaze, she felt the coolness seep from her feet to her heart.

Chongshuang was still looking at her warily.Not only Chongshuang, but also Dianqiu, Liu Shen, and the guards all over the garden were staring at her vigilantly, with unfamiliar and guarded eyes, ready to step forward to restrain her dissatisfied and weird temper at any time.

The originally monstrous anger in He Xuqing's chest seemed to be extinguished in an instant, and Li Qingyan's lips opened and closed, as if they were saying the same sentence: You have no right to be angry at all.

He Xuqing was forced to shiver by the coolness in her heart, her hands and feet couldn't help trembling.The brain just felt blank for a moment, not knowing where I was, nor what I was going to do next.

With such a bewildered expression, she suddenly put away all her edges and corners, turned around sluggishly, walked towards the medicine room without saying a word.

He Xuqing's sudden reaction caught Li Qingyan by surprise. He quickly walked two steps and stopped in front of He Xuqing. He opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say.He Xuqing was stopped by him, and she didn't look up, she just replied in a daze: "Don't worry, I will remember."

He Xuqing's nonsensical words made Li Qingyan more difficult to resist than directly yelling and losing his temper.

"You...what are you going to do?" He Xuqing's "obedient" response made Li Qingyan a little overwhelmed, and he held back for a long time before asking this question.

"Go back and rest." He Xuqing whispered, she walked around Li Qingyan's side, and slowly walked back to the medicine room, calmly as if nothing had happened.Li Qingyan frowned and looked at her receding back, always feeling something strange.

What did He Xuqing's expression just now mean?He was even prepared for the scene where He Xuqing threatened him with his life, but he didn't expect He Xuqing to give up his persistence so easily?

Her reaction just now... didn't look like she was angry, nor did she seem to be intentionally disturbing.Such an expression—"disappointed" and "confused" are the two words that best describe it.

But what should He Xuqing be confused about?The uneasiness in Li Qingyan's heart became more and more intense. He walked a few steps quickly and appeared at the window of the medicine room without any concealment. He saw He Xuqing sitting on the low couch with his back to the window, motionless, thinking of something.

The guards all over the yard didn't expect that the things they had been vigilant about would end in such an inexplicable scene, so they couldn't help but look at each other.Li Qingyan stood at the window for a long time, but did not see He Xuqing move at all. She seemed to be in a trance, looking down at something, and her whole body was firmly surrounded by gloomy emotions.

Li Qingyan's guess was right. The only emotions that He Xuqing could feel now were disappointment and confusion.

She was sitting in the medicine room, surrounded by things she was most familiar with, but at this moment, they all exuded an extremely strange aura.As Li Qingyan said just now, the things in this room may be out of reach for others in a lifetime, but now she is allowed to use them as she pleases, why is she not satisfied?

What surprised her was that she suddenly realized the real reason for her anger.

It wasn't because Li Qingyan didn't provide her with medicinal materials, or because Li Qingyan repeatedly confiscated her medicinal materials, but because Li Qingyan didn't believe in her ability, didn't tell her honestly what his purpose was, and couldn't respect her opinion.

But Li Qingyan's sentence "You should be content" also confused her: Li Qingyan was right, the two of them used each other from the beginning, why did she so strongly hope that Li Qingyan would trust her, respect her, and be honest with her? , To be her reliance?

She is not qualified to ask for this, that is to say, she has no right to be angry at all.Li Qingyan has done his best to provide her with so many things, and has not asked her for any return or substantive thanks so far. Except for this matter, Li Qingyan is almost obedient to her.

What else is she not satisfied with?Why is she not satisfied?

Li Qingyan's appetite has been getting bigger and bigger, and she habitually keeps asking for it. Once her requirements are not met, she will feel such strong loss and anger, and even lose control of her emotions.

This is not a normal phenomenon - subconsciously, she has regarded Li Qingyan as the pillar she relies on, and regards him as the person standing by her side.

This realization made her feel a little panicked.Li Qingyan once told her that Xian Yu Zijun first appeared in front of her as "Master" in order to create an illusion that she would relax her vigilance.Now, did Li Qingyan use another method to achieve this goal?

In other words, she lost her judgment and fell into such a situation by mistake?

She hated being out of control and hated being kept in the dark.So far Li Qingyan is indeed the person she contacts the most, but this person is too dangerous and complicated, she is not sure that she can see every aspect of this person clearly, nor is she confident that she can protect herself from this person's mercy.Under such circumstances, she couldn't let herself subconsciously slowly regard him as her so-called pillar.

She can only rely on her own strength - instead of asking Li Qingyan angrily why he didn't provide her with all the things, but restraining her inner thoughts and using her own methods to achieve her goals calmly, this can be regarded as a good thing. Sophisticated thoughts.

She couldn't let herself depend on anyone, so she had no reason to blame Li Qingyan for anything.Li Qingyan trapped her and put her under house arrest, all by his own strength.If she is dissatisfied, the only way is to make herself stronger.

He Xuqing, who finally realized this soberly, also clearly felt the pain that suddenly rose in her heart: she is only one person, and losing the past is equivalent to losing all support, and she cannot easily let go of her guard against anyone. , nor can you easily show your emotions in front of others.

The more she reveals, the more likely someone else will catch her weakness.

He Xuqing grabbed her arm fiercely, using the pain in her body to relieve the heaviness in her heart, her fingernails were stuck in flesh and blood, almost oozing blood.

"What are you doing?" Li Qingyan's voice came suddenly, with strong reprimand.