Jiangshan Ji

Yu Wenchang was busy cleaning up the remnants of the chaotic party in the court, so he didn't come to persuade me to return to the palace.Empress Chen, on the other hand, has been here several times, and each time she advised me to return to the palace as soon as possible.

Every time this happened, I always ignored it. After a long time, she felt powerless and said to me: "Why are you bothering?"

I remained silent, and only prayed for Zhao'er and chanted scriptures wholeheartedly.

In this life, I have nothing to do with this child. I hope that the Buddha will be merciful and allow us, mother and child, to continue our predestined relationship in the next life.

One day, when I was finishing copying a volume of scriptures, Qinghe came to report, and Shen Yanzhi asked to see me.

After the Quang Binh wedding banquet that night, I did not speak to him.

Sometimes met in the palace, he kept his duty, knelt down to salute from a distance, and never made any act of arrogance.

But even so, I still don't want to meet him here and now.

I just want to pray for my Zhaoer wholeheartedly.I hope that he will reach bliss early and be reborn as a human being.

Qinghe conveyed my meaning to Shen Yanzhi, he didn't bother too much, just stood outside the temple for a while, then left on his own.

Thinking of his inappropriate attempts that night, I always felt a little uneasy, and asked Qinghe: "He really only stopped outside the temple for a moment and then left?"

Qing He nodded, "That's right, Mr. Shen left only one portrait and left."

"portrait?"

Qinghe handed me a scroll, opened it, and there was a picture of a young girl in the painting standing with her head bowed, graceful and graceful.Staring shyly into the distance.

This woman's appearance is similar to mine, but between the corners of her eyes and the tip of her eyebrows, she is quite different from me.

is her.

Madam Luyao, the concubine of Emperor Damin Yu Wenjian, is also the childhood sweetheart of my husband, His Royal Highness King Jin.

In the upper right corner of the painting, there is a poem inscribed: The king is like clearing road dust, and the concubine is like muddy cement; ups and downs have different potentials, when will they meet and be harmonious.May it be the southwest wind, and die forever in your arms.Jun Huailiang is not open, what should a concubine be.

It's a woman's handwriting.

I put away the painting and said to Qinghe: "Master Shen will come to see you some other day, just let him in."

I vaguely hoped that Shen Yanzhi would come again and explain to me clearly the matter between Yu Wenchang and Mrs. Luyao.Unexpectedly, he never came again after that, leaving only a mystery, which made me sleepless every day.

When the first snow fell in Yecheng, Yu Wenjian was buried and left an edict on his deathbed, ordering the second prince Yu Wenchang to succeed him to the throne.

When I return to the palace to guard the spirit, and when I meet Yu Wenchang again, I already need to treat him with the courtesy of meeting an emperor.

After shouting "Long live" three times, Yu Wenchang helped me up, "The queen doesn't need to be too polite, you and I, husband and wife, love one body, so don't be so unfamiliar."

In fact, although I am the concubine of King Jin in name, I have not accepted the canonization at this time, so in terms of etiquette, I am still not the legitimate mother of the Great Min Kingdom.

Slightly avoiding Yu Wenchang's scorching eyes, I took a step back, "If Your Majesty has no other orders, Huai Jin will leave first."

He looked straight at me with deep eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.

After a long time, he sighed and lightly touched my shoulder, "You just returned to the palace, I think you are a little tired, I ordered someone to send you to rest, and I will see you later."

Back in the Hakka province where I lived earlier, the palace people were moving things in and out.

I stopped a busy palace man and asked, "Where are these things going?"

The palace man replied: "I want to report to the Queen, Your Majesty has an order. The Queen Mother has moved out of the Daye Hall, and the Empress will move in soon. The servants are now moving the personal items that the Empress used to use to there according to His Majesty's instructions."

Daye Palace, that is the palace where only the master of the first palace can live, symbolizing the supreme identity and status.

I don't understand why Yu Wenchang was so impatient and ordered Empress Dowager Chen to move out of Daye Hall?After all, the Supreme Emperor had just passed away, and it was a moment of great grief for her.Forcing her to move out of the Daye Palace at this time, I'm afraid it will hurt her heart.Furthermore, I did not perform the canonization ceremony, but openly entered the Lord's Daye Palace, I am afraid that there will be endless rumors.

I asked the palace people, where did the Empress Dowager move to?They were only busy moving things, and no one answered me.

The hall was full of voices.It was a mess, like entering a busy city.

I stroked my sore eyebrows, I just felt that I couldn't stay here for a moment, so I went back to the mourning hall.

Unexpectedly, in the mourning hall, there was someone who was more sincere than my daughter-in-law, and was standing in front of Yu Wenjian's coffin early, crying unceasingly.

I'm a little curious, who is this person?

The moment our eyes met, she and I were taken aback, and we both gasped.

"Madame Luyao?"

"Princess Jin?"

We both spoke almost simultaneously.

She wiped her tears, stood up, and squeezed a wry smile on her face, "You really look like me. No wonder Ah Yong?"

The rest of the words did not go on, but I already understood what she meant.

In Daye Hall, I felt like I had occupied the position of Empress Dowager Chen, and I couldn't live there with peace of mind.Here, it feels like I have robbed Mrs. Luyao of something that originally belonged to Mrs. Luyao, but I can't say what it is, I just feel a little bit at a loss when I stay here, like a child who made a mistake and was arrested. Neither is sitting.

In such a huge Daxing Palace, there seems to be no place for me, which is really sad.

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I can't feel the pain anymore.The body does not seem to be his own, and he can only open his eyes blankly, staring at the cloud pattern on the top of the red silk tent.

It took him a long time to feel satisfied and get off me.

I maintained the action just now, dumbfounded, like a fool.

Perhaps it was this half-dead look that frightened him.Yu Wenchang dressed me and put me in his arms, "Huaijin, I'm sorry, I shouldn't treat you like this, I'm so angry, please forgive me, okay?"

I was speechless, my eyes were looking in the direction of the palace gate, weeping silently.

He apologized to me: "I was wrong, I will never treat you like this again, don't be angry, you hit me, hit me?"

His hand held mine, and he kept slapping and punching his face and body.

After such torture, I just felt tired, I gently withdrew my hand, and my body slipped out of his arms, "I'm tired, please leave, Your Majesty."

He flipped me over vigorously, forcing me to face him, looking like he was about to explode again.But I don’t know why, but in the end there was no attack. I just lay down next to me and said: “This year, you have been so indifferent to me. Whenever I want to talk to you, you are always impatient. Sometimes, I think When I get close to you, you always find excuses to evade, like rejecting me thousands of miles away. Do you know that you are my princess and my wife, and you treat me coldly like this repeatedly, what makes me feel Think? I know. You blame me for Zhao'er's death, right? But if you weren't angry with me, why would I refuse to go back to the palace, and I didn't even see Zhao'er for the last time?"

Hearing him mention Zhao'er, the pain of losing a son that he had finally calmed down surged into his heart again, and the tears couldn't stop flowing down again.

He went on to say: "You didn't discuss with me, and went to Huguo Temple alone. You know how scared I was when I came back from court that day, and I couldn't find you anywhere in the palace? The queen mother said that you didn't care about my face, so I blamed me. Discipline you well, and reprimanded me countless times for this matter. I know you are angry with me, and you don’t want to see me, so you can only beg her to go to Huguo Temple and persuade you to return to the palace. You are so cruel, the queen mother begged You have been there so many times, but you still don't want to come back. I haven't seen you for three whole months, you know. Then how do I spend every day and night?"

His voice was a little choked: "I tried my best to sit on the throne that everyone wants to sit on. I only want you to come back sooner and share this joy with me. I can't wait to put one person under ten thousand on top You offered me the throne of empress with both hands, but you dismissed it, and you didn't even want to say a nice word to me. What on earth do you want me to do to forgive me? Say it, say it!"

I didn't answer, he shook my shoulder vigorously and growled in my ear: "Zhang Huaijin, I'm talking to you, did you hear me? Did you hear me!"

The palace guard on duty at night heard voices in the hall and asked, "Your Majesty is going to get up? Do you need servants to come in and serve you?"

"roll!"

Yu Wenchang threw a green-glazed porcelain bottle out with his bare hands, hit the palace door, broke into several pieces, and made a clear sound.

The palace man who spoke just now didn't dare to speak.

The ashes-like silence returned to the hall, I forced myself to close my eyes, and fell asleep.

When he woke up, Yu Wenchang was no longer by his side.

The hall was completely reorganized, and it was completely different from the chaos of last night.

As soon as I got up, Qinghe had already come in with a water basin, her eyes were a little red and swollen, seeing me staring at her, she forced out a smile, and said with a grin, "Your Majesty, do you want to wash?"

She helped me get dressed, and when she saw my body was bruised and purple, she couldn't help it and almost cried.After all, because I was concerned about my emotions, I didn't dare to cry, and I only covered it up with a wry smile.

Seeing her like this, I suddenly felt a little sad.

When she bent down to tie my clothes, I looked at the top of her hair and said, "Cry if you want to, don't hold back."

She couldn't bear it anymore, and finally shed tears.

For more than a month, Yu Wenchang and I had the same way of getting along.He treated me the same as that night, he coaxed me first, and then found that I was indifferent, then vented his anger on my body, tortured me by all means, and forced me to submit.Sometimes I went too far, and I apologized carefully afterwards, begging my forgiveness.

I turned a blind eye to all of this.After a long time, he knew that I would not accept hard and soft, and he was also a little frustrated. He no longer tortured me in different ways. He would often hold my hand and walk around the palace after going down to court.

I never saw Mrs. Luyao again, it is said that she was sent to Ganye Temple.There, it is the place where the concubine loses her hair and cultivates herself.Although it is necessary to have the ancient Buddha of Qingdeng to accompany him for a lifetime in the future, it is good to think that he does not need to be involved in the battle of the palace.

The last time I saw Shen Yanzhi was another winter day.At that time, a full year had passed since he asked to see me at Huguo Temple.

He had lost a lot of weight, his cheeks were deeply sunken, and he looked haggard.