Jiangshan Ji

When Zitan told me about this matter, I was punished by him for copying "The Precepts for Women" because I stole Yu Wenchang's boots.

Listening to Zitan's vivid voice, I put down my pen and asked: "What happened later, what did your Majesty say?"

Zitan was a little complacent, glanced at me, and replied: "Your Majesty lost his temper, split the imperial case in front of him into two pieces on the spot, and said, 'I am not good at verbal disputes. who, like this case.'"

Following Yu Wenchang's example, she made a gesture of splitting the imperial case with her bare hands, and asked me cheerfully, "Look. Do I look like a learner?"

I smiled and didn't answer her.

She withdrew her hand and said enviously: "Your Majesty treats your majesty very well. From now on, your majesty, don't be angry with your majesty. Every time you get into trouble with your majesty, your majesty will be unhappy for several days. Finally, rushing over, Apologize to the empress. The servants are watching and feel pitiful."

I teased her: "Are you envious? Then I will tell His Majesty to accept you as a concubine, okay?"

She blushed.He lowered his head and didn't speak for a long time, then raised his head and said coquettishly, "Your Majesty will make fun of slaves!"

I laughed so hard, seeing that her face was really red, I stopped laughing, took a sip of tea, got up, and stretched myself: "After copying for a day, my hands are sore, go out for a stroll."

With an "ah", she counted the volumes of "The Precepts for Women" I copied back and forth several times, and said, "Your Majesty punished you for copying a hundred times, you are still far behind!"

I ignored her, got up and walked out of the hall: "I don't want to copy, can he cut me in half too?"

Later, of course, Yu Wenchang didn't really cut me in half, but he also punished me twice in other places.

In the morning, Zitan served me to wash and wash. Seeing the marks on my body, she laughed at me and said, "Look, it's your mother who suffered the loss. Since when did your Majesty ever make a loss-making business?"

I knocked her hard on the forehead: "Okay, you red sandalwood, how dare you make fun of me, let's see how I can treat you!"

Reaching out to grab her, she smiled and dodged away.

At the time of Jing'er and Zhou Kui, Yu Wenchang pardoned the world and held a banquet in the palace to celebrate.

Civil and military officials of the third rank and above were invited to attend, and the grand occasion was even more grand than when Mrs. Li Hua was conferred the title of imperial concubine.

Before the Zhou Sui banquet began, Concubine Li greeted me as usual.

Since she entered the palace.We don't see each other much.After I got sick, I didn't like to be noisy. Yu Wenchang made the decision to save Concubine Li from the daily morning and evening meditation, and I ended up quiet.Concubine Li was also spared the trouble.

In my impression, this is the third time I have met her. It has been almost two years since I saw her from a distance on the city wall.

I watched her sit down, and said with a heavy tone: "You are still as beautiful as when we first met, but I am already old."

Seeing me praise her, she felt a little embarrassed, and sat there fiddling with the handkerchief in her hand for a long time.Cai answered carefully: "Your Majesty is unparalleled in style and beauty, how can a vulgar fan like a courtier and concubine be able to match her?"

I smiled and showed Jinger to her: "Look, isn't Jinger cute?"

Originally I wanted her to give her a hug, but she didn't dare to reach out to pick her up. She stood there with a stiff body and said, "The little princess is so cute. No wonder Your Majesty loves her so much." After finishing speaking, she lowered her voice Go away and explain to me the reason why you don't want to hold Jing'er: "The concubine is an ominous person, and I dare not bring bad luck to the little princess."

She looks a little sad.And a little pitiful.

I think, maybe I am the only person in this world who can understand her mood.

Once upon a time, I was also an ominous person in the people's mouth, the prophecy of "the beauty is in trouble, the country is destroyed and the palace is toppled".Like a heavy boulder, pressing on my heart, I was about to suffocate.

Now, the woman in front of me, because she was once the favorite concubine of the subjugated king, is also called an ominous person, which is really pitiful.

Thinking again that I was dissatisfied with Yu Wenchang because she favored her in Hanyuan Palace, I couldn't help but feel a little guilty.

In fact, like me, she is just a poor person who can't help herself. What position do I have to criticize her?

I ordered people to carry Jing'er down, and I walked to the center of the main hall, listening to the faint sound of joy coming from the main hall, I said: "Grand Concubine Li, let's rest in the side hall first, I'm afraid your Majesty will be greedy tonight, and someone needs to be in the hall by then." serve."

She was a little puzzled: "Your Majesty has not summoned his concubines for a long time, what does your empress mean?"

I sneered, and replied: "You just stay, I have my own arrangements."

She said yes.I dare not comment.

That night, Yu Wenchang came back to Daye Hall drunk, saw me sitting in front of the mirror, pulling my hair, sat down and asked, "Why did the Queen come back so early? Where is Jinger, have you gone to bed yet?"

I smiled and stood up, shunned the palace servants, poured him a cup of tea, saw that he drank it all, and then said: "There are so many people tonight, Jing'er is afraid of life, so I have no choice but to bring her back early."

He hugged me on his lap, buried his head deeply in my arms, and acted like a child: "After drinking for three rounds, you disappeared. I thought..."

"Why?"

He shook his head and sighed: "It's nothing, I was thinking too much."

I helped him to lie down on the bed, but he refused to rest, grabbed my hand and asked, "Where is the queen going?"

I stood in front of the collapse, looked at him, and replied coldly: "Doesn't Your Majesty know where I am going?"

Seeing my unusual expression, he was taken aback, wanted to get up, but couldn't use the strength.

Hitting his forehead with both hands, he asked tremblingly, "What did you drink for me?"

I looked at the teacup he had just used, and told him the answer: "It's just a little powder containing safflower, Your Majesty will not be in danger of life."

I didn't lie to him.

Containing safflower will not hurt people's lives, but will make people lose consciousness for a short time and have the effect of paralyzing nerves.

The effect of the medicine gradually took effect, and he was a little unable to hold on, his consciousness began to blur, and he began to sweat intermittently.

I took off his dragon robe and put on a night clothes for him. He was completely unable to move or speak, so he could only be manipulated by me.

Everything went according to plan, and I took one last look at him.

He was also looking at me, with tears in his eyes, without blinking, just looking straight at me like that.In those eyes, there seemed to be lamentation, bewilderment, and begging.

My heart felt sour, I was afraid that I would not be able to leave after one more look, so I forced myself to turn around and stop looking at him again.

The heavy palace door closed behind me with a bang, and I closed my eyes, crying silently.

Goodbye, Min Palace.

Goodbye, the one I loved so much.

Many years later, Master asked me: "You used to be Queen Damin, who was well-clothed and well-fed, but now you can only live a poor life incognito. Don't you regret it?"

At that time, Master's hair was already whirling white, and I had mottled fine lines faintly visible on my temples.

I shook my head, carefully sifted through the herbs in the dustpan, and replied, "The stable life I have now is the life I should live."

Everything in Damin Palace many years ago has become farther and farther away from me.

Sometimes, he would also appear in my dreams, still the youthful appearance when I first saw him, with such a clean and beautiful face that people will never forget.

It's just that dreams are always dreams. For the rest of my life, I just want to spend the rest of my life in the plain reality of coarse cloth and plain clothes. Everything in the dream and the person who gave me everything, let them stay in the dream forever.

The white clouds are as light as flocs, and life is like a dream and as light as clouds.Love the world of mortals and never regret it, the past is a dream without trace.

So good.