Gentleman Mengze

He froze for a moment and remained in this position motionless.The air exhaled from the nose and lips fluttered over my neck, and suddenly I felt a burst of burning fire from the place where he bit me to the root of my ear, burning my cheek.I subconsciously shrank away from his lips and teeth. I couldn't tell what was going on in my heart, but I kept shaking so badly that I couldn't hold it back.

He seems to have finally realized what I said just now, and he raised his arms to keep a distance from me, but he still didn't intend to move away, so he surrounded me in his arms like this, and when he lowered his head and spoke, he changed the subject: "Su Shu Shenzun, you asked me why I chased me out last night."

"...Hmm." I turned my head sideways, not daring to look at him.

He hesitated for a while, put his finger into the hair behind my ear, put his palm on my cheek, and turned my face so that I had to look at him, his purple eyes fixed on mine.It was in this way that the four eyes met, he heard him say in a low voice: "If I say... I am willing?"

"Huh?" I was stunned, feeling that his words didn't make sense, "What do you want?"

He also froze and stared at me.

"What... what's wrong?"

He frowned, with anger floating on his face: "Didn't you forget?"

The deity was at a loss, and said woodenly: "What did I forget..."

His finger behind my ear tightened suddenly, and he turned my face away again. My cheek was only pressed against the mattress, and my neck was exposed again because of this movement. Before I could react, I saw him suddenly lower his head and look at me He took another hard bite at the flesh just above his neck.

I couldn't hold it back, and with a "hiss", I gritted my teeth and took a deep breath.This deity couldn't figure out his brain circuit at all: "I said Meng Ze...why did you bite me?"

"Does it hurt?"

I struggled to escape, and felt that he was very dazed today: "Why don't I try to bite you?"

He exerted more force with his fingertips, and clasped my neck again. When he raised his head, he smiled sadly and helplessly: "Shenzun Sushu, you really were talking nonsense to deceive me last night."

"I've been talking a lot of nonsense recently, can you explain which sentence it is..."

He looked at me with a cold expression, "Last night you asked me if I wanted to marry you, and you said that if I wanted to marry you, you would marry me."

I was startled, "Huh?"

"I chased you out last night because I wanted to ask you, what if I said I would." As he spoke, his eyes dimmed, "But now it seems that what you said last night was really a joke."

"Do you think I'm joking? Did you think I was joking last night?" I finally came to my senses, and said with a deep grunt, "You think I'm not serious and lying to you, so you said no last night?"

"Yeah." He nodded and asked again, "If I want to do it now, does what you said last night still count?"

My brain twitched: "Are you confessing your love to the deity now?"

The fairy leaned over to look at me with his arms propped up, and said softly, "Yes."

If it was left last night, seeing his serious appearance now, I agreed with a hot brain, and I hit it off with him and maybe we could get married the next day.But now, when he said he was confessing his love to me, I suddenly remembered a big event, which was both for me and him, and that was Liangyu and Nie Su.

I know how much Nie Su holds in my heart, and I'm afraid I won't be able to forget him in my life.But I clearly know that I can't take him as my own in this life. The fairy who attached to Uncle Yin Baihuang in the mortal world once told me: "The illusory things that emerge in my heart, although they are mirror images of water and moon, cannot shape, but birth and death are in the heart. If you think that the person you put in your heart is still there, then he can still be with you for three lifetimes.”

But what I have always thought is that I don't want Nie Su who will live in my heart forever, what I want is a living him.

And I know it's impossible.

As I thought last night, I will never forget Nie Su, and I have never been sorry for Nie Su.But I hope that there is a fairy who can be my company, someone to accompany me when I drink, and someone to comfort me when I am sad.

That's why I added a sentence last night that "emotions and the like can be deepened in the future".

This is what I think about Nie Su and Meng Ze.

But I don't know what kind of feelings Meng Ze has for me, and I don't know where he puts Liangyu in his heart.

We have all had a sweetheart in our hearts, so some things must be pointed out in advance, so that we can live together in the future so as not to fall into each other's troubles.

Seeing that I didn't answer for a long time, he lowered his voice and said, "What are you thinking?"

After a little deliberation, I asked directly, "You once loved Liangyu, and you haven't forgotten her for decades after her death, right?" Seeing that his expression changed slightly, I said again, "A few days ago, we Jian Muhua drank on the roof, and then you got drunk and walked to Caixing Pavilion unintentionally, you said you would never forgive yourself, do you remember?"

Behind the ear, his fingers buried in my hair suddenly trembled, which made me feel it clearly.

I got out from between his arms, and was about to stand up, but saw him hastily grabbed my wrist again, and said in a low voice, "Don't go."

I touched the neck, smiled and said: "I don't want to leave, I'm just afraid that if I continue to maintain this posture, if you don't understand what I say, you will come and bite me again." But he still didn't let go.

I had no choice but to sit on the edge of the bed, and when I stood upright, I felt the pain on my body be very clear. I looked up at him, and I never thought of covering up the matter of Nie Su, "Meng Ze, if you don't know how to answer Liangyu Then the deity will first talk about what he has experienced." Seeing him standing all the time, he said, "Sit down first, looking down at me like this makes me a little nervous."

He let go, leaned over and lit the candle in the white jade lampshade next to him, sat back on the chair next to the bed, and said calmly, "Say it."

The light from the candle flames warmed half of the wall in a trance, and it also made my voice a little swaying. After 14 years, I returned to this world of gods. This is the first time I have a full talk with a god. My feelings for Nie Su: "As you know, I have been in a deep sleep for 14 years, and it has been less than half a year since I woke up. This dream is too long, too long. Coming back, it is no longer a simple sentence 'things are different and people are different' can be described 14 years ago, I also had a fairy that I liked, I don’t know if you have heard of it, this fairy is the god who is personally conferred by the great-grandfather of today’s emperor—Master Nie Su.”

He shook his head, unable to see other emotions, he just responded lightly: "I really don't know."

"Well, I was only [-] years old when he passed away, and you were not born yet." I lowered my head and picked my fingers, and continued, "Actually, I was raised by him. Before [-] years old, I was not a god." Zun, I have been with him all the time. So probably because of this reason, after I consciously and thoughtfully, I like him very much."

"He...does he like you?"

I shook my head and said with a smile: "Even I don't know about this issue, maybe I like it or I don't like it. He didn't tell me clearly when he was dying. This is my regret to this day."

I thought it would take a long time to talk about the matter between me and Nie Su, but now that I have settled down to "this is my regret so far", I feel that it is already the end.The past really cannot be recalled. Those entanglements that were once thought to be difficult to describe in a thousand words are finally attributed to regret, and the rest will be sealed in the bottom of my heart forever and cannot be said again.

He looked at me with a slight smile, probably sympathetic or distressed, "Is the Sushu God finished?"

I was in a daze for a while, and felt that when he called out the Su Shu god, there was always something different, not because he deliberately kept a distance at that time, but because he respected me after hearing this story of my past.

"Finish, there may be one more thing, if you mind, I will mention it." I said, "Although Nie Su and I have lived together for 3 years, he and I have never crossed over..."

He interrupted me with a serious look: "You don't need to mention it. I will never mind the past." He lowered his eyes and said, "I am not a good god either. You probably already know that I once I have married many wives." Speaking of this, he smiled, "You didn't know that I was Meng Ze, do you still remember that you often called me an asshole? I was probably curious at the time, thinking that calling someone an asshole Things should be done behind the scenes, why do you always make it clear to me on purpose."

I raised my hand to cover my face, but I couldn't stop the embarrassment, "This matter... just forget about it."

He took my hand off my face, moved closer, and stared into my eyes again, forcing me to look at him.It seems that only in this way can the words be taken seriously, "Shenzun Sushu, next, I will tell you about Ayu."

"You said."

"Maybe you know something from Changjue or Jingchen." He leaned towards me a little, and stroked the hair hanging from his forehead for me, "But I also hope you can listen to me once. I like her very much, and I was almost able to marry her back. But it was then that I knew that she had put all her affection on Chang Jue. The me at that time, and even the me in the tens of thousands of years after that, was A cruel and violent god, I harmed her. But I also know that she doesn't care about me, and I also know that I can't take good care of her compared to Changjue. If you want to ask me, what is my feeling for Ayu now? Yes, she has a place in my heart, and the guilt towards her made me dare not like her again."

"Well, I know, I also have a place for Nie Su in my heart. You and I may be similar in many ways." I said.

"As for the other wives, I did things absurdly at that time. I sent them away later. If you mind, I would like to mention one thing. That is, I once kissed Wen'er, but I never Not to Ayu, or other wives..."

"You don't need to mention it," I felt relieved, and couldn't help laughing out loud, "No wonder I didn't find the twenty or thirty wives that Yun Yan mentioned when I first came to Xuan Po Palace. It turned out that you were sent away. But It's a pity."

He leaned over again, his face stopped less than an inch away from me, his fingers inserted into the hair behind my ears, and gently clasped his neck, his voice was so low that only he and I could hear: " There is one more thing that I want to mention. What kind of emotion does Su Shu God have towards me?"

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