I was reborn by the emperor

"Second question, why do you want to block me?"

The light after noon was really bright, the bright sunlight illuminated the Buddha statues in the hall, and at first glance, it seemed to be emitting benevolent light.

Xu Lianlang squinted his eyes to look at this Buddha statue. The Buddha statues are all similar, they are merciful and compassionate to all beings. Compared with the one in her dream and the one in the towering cloud pavilion, what is missing is the little doll in the lotus petals beside the Buddha statue's legs.

"My son likes you so much. At that time, he just got engaged and his future is bright. I can't let him ruin himself because of you."

Concubine Rong felt cold at the tip of her hand. At that time, she had just been picked up by the emperor from the Tower of Clouds, and the arrow feathers roared towards her. She didn't want to die. Looking at Xu Lianlang in front of her, this was the only thought left in her mind.

To her, Xu Lianlang was like a carriage derailed, trusting the horse to rein, but stumbling over her son's legs, Lu Jieming finally got to this point, Prince Rong's assistance is so necessary, his son is going to If you don't want to go, you can only do it with her.

She will never forget how much Lu Jie's distraught appearance standing in front of her room when she was young next year made her shudder. How could her son be so humble and beggarly?

He is a prince and grandson, a nobleman in the sky, and he doesn't have a back that has been bent under the situation of the towering cloud pavilion, so why should he bend down for a woman.

Xu Lianlang moved his eyes away from the Buddha statue, and when he heard her words, he felt a twinge in his heart. She muttered to herself, as if asking and answering herself, "Did his liking be so obvious back then?"

Concubine Rong knelt down on the futon again, folded her hands together, and bowed to the memorial tablet again, "He is like his father, so nostalgic," she paused, then smiled as if thinking of something, " Otherwise, he wouldn't have brought me back from the Tower of Clouds at that time, and I knew that His Majesty still loves me, he just couldn't get over that hurdle."

Xu Lianlang read the words she used, "Nostalgia...?"

Concubine Rong nodded, and responded, "A person who misses the past too much, that's it. He has stuck with you for six years, and what he misses is the kindness and love from the beginning."

Concubine Rong turned the beads in her hand and said silently, "Amitabha."

If the Buddha blamed her for lying, then so be it, she can't let Lu Jieming get involved with this woman anymore.

Xu Lianlang lowered his eyes halfway. If he just "reminisces about the old days", it means that the love he had at the beginning has disappeared. He is being kind to himself at this time, because he is nostalgic. He is thinking about his youthful love in the past. He is thinking about himself back then, not Her at this time?

There were bursts of suffocation in her chest. With such a poor health, she shouldn't have come to see Concubine Rong again, but she was always unwilling to see her.

She tried her best to ignore the impatience in her heart, and wanted to end this unpleasant meeting as soon as possible.

Pin Rong turned her head to look at her, the corners of her mouth curled up in a particularly compassionate arc, "Lian Lang, if you let him go, let yourself go too."

She grabbed Xu Lianlang's hand and spoke eagerly, "Think, if it wasn't for being by his side, you wouldn't have suffered such an innocent disaster. You've come back to life, go live your own life, don't stay here, it's not here. suits you."

She became emotional, her knees fell on the futon, and her body turned towards Xu Lianlang, as if she was kneeling on Xu Lianlang.

Xu Lianlang remained silent for a long time.

Concubine Rong was even more impatient, "You love him so much, just give him a way out."

At the end, there was even a sobbing sound in the words, "I beg you, just take pity on me as a mother, you will kill him in the end."

She is an extremely selfish person, but it doesn't mean that she can really watch her only son die before her eyes, how sad it is for a white-haired person to send a black-haired person.

So, she thought of begging Xu Lianlang, the only way to cut off the entanglement between them was for Xu Lianlang to take the initiative to say it over.

"Give him a way out?" Xu Lianlang smiled suddenly, "Why do you always think I'm hurting him, why do you always judge me with the greatest malice? When he likes me, when he gets close to me, you say I'm messing around Lun, I am sorry for the trust of your mother and son, and tried to get involved with the prince. It is the same now, I am the one who died, and you still want me to give him a way out."

Xu Lianlang's eyes were gradually stained red, and the tip of his nose was sour. She had known Concubine Rong for a long time, and she didn't want to argue with her, but her words today made her feel extremely wronged.

"I didn't do anything, why did it become my fault instead. Who is going to let who live?"

She couldn't help but cried out.

She left her hometown, devoted her best youthful years in Suoyun Pavilion, and returned to Beijing with him, even losing her life.Now... Now he is like an outsider again, stuck between Lu Jieming and her wife and children.

In her relationship with Lu Jieming, she was pushed away.

She is willing to pay for Lu Jieming, but it doesn't mean that anyone else can pour dirty water on her.

She took Rong Pin's hands off her body, and wiped her face with her cuffs, "It seems that the empress is not going to cooperate today, so forget it, and I won't ask the last question."

"As for Li Gong..." She took a deep breath and said angrily, "You think I don't want to, but Lu Jieming is pestering me, begging me...to let me stay, he is the one who provoked me first."

"It was he who provoked me first, and then let go of my hand on his own initiative. Now his love won't last for six years, and I won't want it either."

She was really pissed off, and all she said were offensive and angry words, how could she feel better about Lu Jieming like this.

She thought of those two marriages, she thought of the boy's vague and shy confession, and also thought of him pinching his middle finger nostalgicly and not hesitating to let go.

Is it really my fault?

The boy's confession was not taken seriously by him, which made him completely lose love for him during those six years, leaving only the family affection that Rong Bin said.

There may still be residual poison of hallucinogenic drugs in her body, several thoughts mixed together, and she fell into chaos again, this feeling is exactly the same as when Dou Xi returned to the mansion back then.

She really shouldn't have come out today, the lingering poison is still unclear, her thoughts are completely disordered, and she will get angry when she is agitated.

But how much of this kind of anger is the grievance of recent days, she can't find her best value at all, she sleeps peacefully in Qianqing Palace every day, and is with Lu Jieming every day, what is the reason for this? What about identity?

She has her own pride and her own bottom line, she is not willing to stay by Lu Jieming's side so vaguely.

She gasped for breath, and after a while, she managed to regain her composure.

She doesn't want to stay here anymore, just like Eunuch Li Ri said, she should have been open and honest with Lu Jieming long ago, guessing and guessing about his friendship is too exhausting.

The wind in spring is really unpredictable. It may be mild and drizzly one second, and the next second it will be violent, blowing with the vigor that can hang dead trees upside down.

As soon as Xu Lianlang pushed open the door, his hair was lifted by a strong wind, and then he heard the sound of a heavy object falling.

Concubine Rong's voice was shrill, and when Xu Lianlang turned around again, he saw that the tablet engraved with the name and taboo of the first emperor fell from the high place enshrined by the shining candlelight, and was cut off from the middle, directly rotten in two.

Concubine Rong knelt on the ground, looking at the broken tablet, all the sobs were suppressed in her throat, as if she had been hit on the mute point, she could no longer utter the slightest sound.

Xu Lianlang looked at her, on such a calm face, there seemed to be a big hole in the invisible mask.

Perhaps this is the real sadness that belongs to Rong Pin. She has been acting in front of people for too long, talking nonsense when she sees people, talking nonsense when she sees people, when the real sadness comes, there is such a silence, and the sadness splits from her body.

"Your Majesty, are you angry again? Did the concubine do something wrong again?"

The voice was extremely faint, under the howling wind, if Xu Lianlang didn't listen carefully, he wouldn't be able to hear clearly at all.

As if someone was really talking to her, she slowly responded in a low voice, "But if you don't do this, Jieming can't stop thinking about her. A blunt knife grinds flesh, but it hurts Your Majesty too much. Jieming has been grinding for six years." years."

If it is said that she was born as a human being, she was not worthy of being a human being, and was born as a mother, but she was not worthy of being a mother, then the six years of meditation before the Buddha and reading Buddhist scriptures still aroused her conscience and motherhood.

She was talking to herself, she didn't know who to talk to, the flow of time slowed down, and the movement of light became very subtle.

Finally, she bowed, picked up the tablet with both hands, and hugged it in her arms, "I can save it, Your Majesty."

Her back was still facing Xu Lianlang, but when she spoke, her voice sounded like a dilapidated and restored ruined temple, ventilated everywhere, but she also pretended to be a bit solemn.

"Please, give me some more time, and let me tell you everything slowly. Don't take offense, I'm a liar by nature, and I lied to you again just now."

"In the first year after you left, Jieming did not know where to find a Master Qingyuan. I found out after asking about it. It was just a rumor from Wang Xixuan of Qin Tianjian. For this rumor, he went to Qingyuan alone. , when I came back, I was only half breathed, but I managed to save your body."

"Oh, I forgot to say, Jieming also wanted to kill me at the beginning. I didn't know that the son I gave birth to was so terrifying to kill. He aimed his sword at me. If it wasn't for that time The late emperor is still alive, so I'm afraid he died for you, of course, I don't blame him, he went mad because of your death, what's more, I'm still unscathed, but the late emperor had his arm disabled."

"I don't know if you have noticed that there is a scar on his left wrist, which is deep enough to show the bone. In the fourth year after you left, he did something to himself."

"Six years ago, I thought you left him for his future. Six years later, I thought you left him for his life."

"I know he can't leave you, and I know he values ​​you more than his own life, but I think there is always a chance, as long as you say no, he will give up. I would rather he live like a walking dead, I don't want him to die because of being entangled with you."

"For a king, there is no room for weakness. He is a king, an emperor. Your existence makes him more dangerous, makes him confused, and makes him use his life to resist for you."

Her fingertips stroked the deep incisions on the tablet over and over again, and then she felt that it was not enough, so she stuck her face on it together, "I have been here for a long time, and I can always feel the existence of the Buddha's voice. Jie Ming has seen it too. Your Majesty is blaming me, that’s all, maybe it’s better to die with you than to live like that, which will make him happier.”