The Academy’s Health Teacher Wants to Take a Break

Episode 47. I’m sure everything will be fine.

On a night when the full moon rises, everything in the health room is lit up brightly just by pulling the curtains.

To the extent that it is possible to brew tea just by using that light as a light source.

“It’s hot, so drink with care.”

I boiled the water like that, poured it into the cocoa cup, and presented it to the boy in front of me.

The boy still had his head down.

To the extent that I miss his unique bright smile.

“…You’d better drink it after it cools down a bit.”

Still, it wouldn’t be good to encourage it. Dale took a sip of cocoa as if he couldn’t stand the long silence.

The warmth that still remains must have highlighted the sweetness.

Nevertheless, the melancholy painted on Dale’s face did not think to be erased.

As if it taught me that what happened then became a wound.

“…I’m sorry.”

A word of apology came back after such silence.

The boy still looked down at the cup of cocoa that had been placed in front of him, holding his hand tightly against his lap.

“Sorry, because of me…”

“Talk about it.”

I also took my eyes off Dale for that moment.

To look back at the envelope Dale gave me, placed in front of me.

“Can I tell you a story?”

Letter of resignation.

It hasn’t been repaired yet, and it’s not under my jurisdiction in the first place, so receiving this doesn’t make this child drop out.

But if this child wants it, I have to turn it over to the relevant department.

I am a teacher, not a parent.

Since she came to this school without her parents, she will have to decide whether she goes to school or not.

“Talk, yo?”

“Just, you can do whatever you want to say.”

Yes, I can persuade you, but I cannot force you.

So, at least she hopes that this child will relieve her lingering attachment to this school and go, at least a little.

“Anything, does it matter?”

“Yeah, it doesn’t matter.”

It’s something I don’t want, but…

If this child really wants that.

“Just do whatever you want to say.”

“…….”

Dale is silent on my words.

When I opened my mouth again, it was around the time I felt the moon outside the window leaning slightly.

When even the warmth of the cocoa in front of it cooled down.

“Sensei, do you know about my hometown?”

If it is your hometown, is it Leninsliv?

Anyway, if you don’t know where to start, telling the story from the beginning is probably the best way.

“… I’ve only heard of her once.”

She didn’t go that far, but that was enough to get a sense of what the place was like.

And anyone who knows that will be curious.

How can such a gentle child exist in a place where the human waste of the continent gathers in one place.

“The person who took me in always said this. Originally, they were going to sell me, but since I’m surprisingly good at my job, they just kept me by their side.”

“Did he make you work?”

“Yes, I learned to work at a tavern. Clearing tables, serving, washing dishes… …. The reason I learned to read was to receive orders.”

Serving, you did a pretty frugal job for being lawless.

Hey, it’s also a place where people live, so you’ll need someone to do the chores.

“Did anything dangerous happen?”

Still, isn’t it a place where people who live without the law gather?

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Even though it’s a bar, it’s not like they only served alcohol.

“There was nothing in particular.”

“… Didn’t you?”

“Because where I was, nobody fought.”

You didn’t fight. There’s no way that would be possible in a lawless zone…….

No, it’s not very impossible.

No matter how much human scum you are, you know that my life is precious.

“… After all, the people there also need a place to rest.”

If there is a chance, they will do it right away, but in a place where there are people who only see opportunities like that, you will have to be careful about harming each other.

It is the same reason that military contractors who do rough and dirty work are infinitely honest and kind to customers who buy weapons.

In a stable zone where such vigilance and interests were intertwined, albeit unstable, this child miraculously got a chance to grow to the point of having an ego.

In a place where even the so-called trash can’t carry through their evil.

In an environment where those who are more closely related to evil than anyone else can learn evil.

“While living there, the people I met always taught me a lot.”

“What did you teach me?”

“Things not to do.”

“… What should I not do?”

“If you don’t have the strength or qualifications, you shouldn’t recklessly covet other people’s property, and you shouldn’t recklessly harm or condescend…” …. Even so, if you have to do something like that, you always have to be prepared. It’s not the law or people who are responsible for what you’ve done until the very end, but yourself.”

Speak their teachings in a low voice.

However, Dale explains in detail one by one.

“I didn’t understand it at the time… So, I just decided not to do that. In reality, what they explained was bad, even in the book.”

I did not learn the good side from the good people, but I learned the bad side from the bad people.

Even so, their malice didn’t spread, so this boy was able to grow up with goodness in a lawless zone.

I have learned what not to do before, so I have no hesitation in learning, but I can’t take the lead because I haven’t learned what to do…

The consideration that comes from such caution.

“And, everyone did. They are forced to be here.”

And no matter how crippled the trash, there is a plausible story.

Those who have been pushed to the bottom must have had lingering feelings and aspirations, and such hearts must have been buried in the teachings to boys.

“He always told me stories about the ground while drinking alcohol. And he emphasized it. There is a difference between the stories in books and what you actually see. If you actually see it with your own eyes, it will be different from what you see in books.”

A boy who has lived his whole life in a well.

The moment when you gradually develop a longing through things that have fallen from the ground.

“How was your first time on the ground?”

“…… I saw the light.”

“Light?”

“For the first time, I saw something called the sun.”

The boy’s face reminds me of that time.

A faint smile began to appear on that gloomy face.

“Because there was no light in the book. So when I first saw the sun, it was just so pretty and warm… I remember staring at it for a while.”

After that, Dale told me a lot.

I looked at the sunlight for a while and it was night before I knew it.

In the meantime, the moon and starlight spread out in the sky were so beautiful that a whole day went by just looking at the lake that reflected the light, and I stayed up all night…….

To the boy who thought that the underground garbage dump was all he needed, the world illuminated by light seemed infinitely more beautiful.

“The school life from the book… I thought it would be as bright as the sunlight I saw then.”

The fact that even that light can exist in countless forms, not just one, must have broadened the scope of the world.

Without knowing how much disappointment the expectations raised from him would turn out to be.

“So are you leaving?”

It is different from what I saw in the book.

Because I realized that there are not always positive things.

“This isn’t as good a place as you thought…….”

“No.”

At my words, the boy immediately expressed his denial.

With a trembling voice, he tried to tell his true feelings.

“Maris, I think it’s a good place.”

Though countless people criticize themselves, and they are not welcomed anywhere.

The boy showed no resentment towards any of them.

“It’s incredibly large, and there are a lot of different people. The classes are fun, and there are many places I haven’t been to yet, but looking around my house, I was able to see many things I couldn’t see in my hometown. I was able to experience many things…….”

For a boy who has always developed a longing for the world.

Because the world should always be beautiful.

“… But, I don’t think I fit into such a great place.”

So it’s not the environment that’s out of sync, it’s yourself…

She realized that even her own birth was a standard for someone to judge.

“Just… …. If I were there, it would happen again.”

“…… Dale.”

“If I were there, I thought there would be another fight in a good place like this.”

Disputes can start from differences.

Because I learned it.

Because he was a boy who understood the world through what someone called a sin like before, he is also trying to step back thinking that he has done something he shouldn’t have done.

“It was only when I came here that I realized that liking someone can hurt someone.”

A child who loves people very much.

The moment I came to regard even liking people as a sin.

“… Because of me, the teacher might be in danger again.”

And the most ironic thing was the fact that it was none other than me who had driven a wedge into it.

Because I became the reason.

That’s why she couldn’t blindly reach out to Ai like she did when they first met.

Because I know that even coercion while ignoring the sincerity can hurt people.

“…… What are you going to do when you go back?”

“I don’t know.”

Of course, for other children, there is something that can replace school, such as a family or family to take care of such wounds.

But nothing exists for this child.

The reason this boy was able to grow underground was because of the miraculously created safety zone.

A peace treaty between armed forces cannot last forever, so one day unfounded malice might strike this boy again.

What will happen to this child when that time comes?

“Still, I don’t think I should be here… ….”

If expectations are betrayed and even impermanent peace is shattered……. Can this child see this world as beautiful as ever?

Can it be said that it is right to send back this child who has such a future ahead of him?

“…… Dale.”

Unfortunately, I was in a position that I could not force.

I am this child’s teacher, not his parent.

It is up to this child’s own choice to decide whether or not to remain in school, as he cannot depend on anyone.

Still, I can’t.

If only I could give this child a chance.

“…Does she know that she is going to the health room?”

She sees even the malice of the world.

If only I could give myself time to realize that this is just one side of this vast world, not the whole.

“…Yes?”

“It is a system in which students do not enter the classroom, but only attend while going to and from school at the health room.”

Actually, not all students were able to adapt to school even in their previous lives.

Stress about schoolwork, bullying by a group, innate depression or emotional instability, etc…….

There were cases where children who could not adapt for various reasons were temporarily protected in places such as the teacher’s office, student guidance room, or health room.

Of course, Maris doesn’t have such a system, but wouldn’t it be a problem to create one if it doesn’t exist?

“It’s only a matter of completing the number of days of attendance, but as long as you don’t fail in regular classes, there won’t be any problems until you graduate.”

Of course, choosing this means not belonging to any class.

Since I can’t even take classes, it will be difficult for me to approach not only the students, but also other teachers.

As I also have work, I can’t take care of this child alone.

I can answer the question, but I won’t be able to go to the level of ‘education’ that other teachers do.

In fact, the life at this school from now on is that this child will have to endure everything alone.

If grades are not guaranteed, there is no scholarship, so this boy who has nothing could be expelled from school for non-payment of school fees.

“Even so…”

Still, I said these words out of hope.

“If you could remain in this school without meeting other people, what would you do?”

If you accept my words now.

Because I, who suggested it, has a reason to take responsibility for this child.

Because even so, you will be able to reach out to this child.

“…… Why.”

At the end of the silence, the boy asked back as if he couldn’t understand my words.

“Why are you suggesting that?”

A neck tied to a trembling body.

Your wet eyes, ready to burst into tears, begin to reflect the moonlight.

“Everybody hates me. They say they came from a dangerous place, that they have strange powers…….”

He squeezed her chest, which still hurt.

“Sensei, too, was in danger because of me…”

Reciting the most painful facts.

The person who said it asks why he hasn’t expressed a grudge against him.

“If it stays like this, something like that might happen again, but the teacher said that I… ….”

“Dale.”

The reason is simple.

A teacher’s main job is to guide students.

“The teacher is doing this not because you are special.”

If you came to this school to learn and wore your school uniform.

After all, whoever he is is just one student.

“Whoever you are. No matter what environment you live in, no matter what power you have……. That doesn’t matter to me.”

Wasn’t what this child did even voluntarily?

“Dale.”

You just need to learn that if you do something wrong, you just have to apologize.

If even that fault came from ignorance, then you just have to learn not to use the word sin in your mouth.

This kid deserved it.

Even in the face of the world’s malice, this child doesn’t hate anyone until this moment.

“Do you think it is wrong for a teacher to care for his students?”

So if she has this child, she really wants to stay in this school.

I will be obligated to pick up this child.

‘I don’t want to die.’

That’s to remember what you’ve seen from a bygone era.

It was also a struggle stemming from a simple wish that something like this would never happen again.

“…Really.”

On the one hand, the reason can be said to be selfish.

“Can I stay at school?”

That’s why the boy, who couldn’t show his stubbornness in the end, cautiously asked the proposal, which was accompanied by even desperation.

Just in case, what I am saying right now.

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Ask if you can redo what you wanted to give up.

“Can I still stay here?”

That in itself will teach you that your attitude up until now was inevitable.

Because they don’t know anything, they just accept the group’s malice more transparently.

Of course, malicious intent may come as much as they don’t want.

I might not be able to withstand such malice and break it.

“If you really want to stay at this school, the teacher will help you.”

But that time hasn’t come yet, so I want to stop it.

Until now, I couldn’t help it, but now.

From now on, I can’t do that.

“Ugh… ….”

A faint whimper returned to those words.

It seemed that the emotions he had been suppressing all along were welling up, but in the end it didn’t lead to sad crying.

“You can cry if you want to cry.”

“Don’t cry…”

As if suppressing even the sadness to the point of choking.

“I don’t cry. I’m a man.”

“… Whoops, yes You were a man too.”

Are you a man despite being so small?

hahahahaha, kids this age grow up quickly.

As much as you grow up quickly, the beginning must be small.

“Certainly, men shouldn’t cry out loud.”

And one day, really, the day will come when you won’t be able to easily shed tears in front of others.

So let’s lend your arms when you’re small enough to be held in this arms.

Thought that, I quietly hugged the boy’s body under the moonlit night.

“It’s okay, Dale.”

I wonder if I can hear the sobs somewhere deep in my heart.

Even the hand that tried to resist the power was covered with an arm, hiding the wet eyes from the moonlight.

“Because you did nothing wrong. It’s just that you’re confused because you don’t know, so you just have to take your time and know it slowly.”

He comforted me by rubbing my back like that.

There is no evidence at all, but I hope that at least this will alleviate even a little bit of sadness.

Unlike other children, this child who has not been affected by the cruel times hopes that she will adapt to the changing world.

“So let’s wait with the teacher, everything will be fine.”

I hope this child whom I took with my selfishness.

Unlike me, who is tired of the filth of the world, with a desire to grow into a more proper adult.