The Blue Whisper

Chapter 63 is enough
Ji Yunhe was brought back to the courtyard in the middle of the lake.

He was locked up again, this time, the restriction was so strict that he couldn't even stretch out his hand.

The so-called "killing one's death is one's real death" was vividly reflected in her body.

But Ji Yunhe didn't regret it.

She always remembered the moment when she stepped out of the window that night, and also remembered the joyful running that night, and the comfort and joy of lying on the ice after exhaustion—the cold wind is sweet, the night sky is bright, and everything is beautiful. So wonderful and delightful.

That was what she always wanted, the taste of freedom.

And after this night, Ji Yunhe seemed to have a lot less regrets. Looking at the heavy restrictions, she suddenly thought one day that even if she died right now, it would be no big deal.

Once this thought comes together, it will be difficult to suppress it.

As for the imprint that Changyi left on her ears, Ji Yunhe studied it for two days, but he really couldn't find out its use, so he didn't study it anymore.

She has been a demon master for many years, and she knows that some monsters will put various marks on the "prey" they capture to show that it belongs to them.Maybe Changyi just wanted to tell her through this thing that she was no longer an independent person, but a property attached to him.

Although, in everyone's eyes, it is currently the case.But Ji Yunhe didn't recognize it.

Just like in the past, Princess Shunde believed that the long-term intention belonged to her, but Ji Yunhe would never admit it.

Even now, Ji Yunhe doesn't think she is a carefree person.

She belongs to herself, when she was in Yuyaogu Valley, when she was in the National Teacher's Mansion, and now, in the attic of the small courtyard on Huxin Island.

In her life, she has done many involuntary things, and she was forced to make many choices, either sad or painful, and she has come to the present with hardship and endurance, being pulled, manipulated, and swayed by fate.

But fate never made her truly surrender.

Lin Canglan used poison to control her, so she has been planning to get the antidote.Princess Shunde humiliated her with torture, and she never gave in.

She has been competing with fate for the dominance of her life. She has won and lost, but she has not given up.

has been fighting until now.

Ji Yunhe looked at herself in the mirror, with a thin face, sunken eye sockets, and pale complexion. She has fought with fate until now, which can be described as extremely tragic.In the past, she was fighting for "life", but now, she wants to change the game with fate.

She wants to fight for "death".

She wants to decide when, where, and in what way she will go to the end of her life.

End this journey proudly, with dignity, without fear or panic.

Today's Ji Yunhe has no chores to be busy with, so she spends all her time thinking about this matter, designing, planning, thinking, and then making choices and decisions.Just like she used to try every means to protect herself and her companions in the Valley of Demon Control.

The attic restriction on the island in the middle of the lake cannot be broken by the current Ji Yunhe, so the only place where she can die is in the attic.But it doesn't matter, in planning, one has to be willing and rewarding. Her ultimate goal is death, and the time, place, and method can all be compromised. The most important thing is to achieve the ultimate goal.

And her current goal, as long as she looks ahead and doesn't need to look back, is very simple and direct. After all... dealing with the aftermath is a matter for living people.

The only thing she needs to think about is how to achieve this goal.This matter is a bit difficult, because she conflicts with Changyi's purpose - Changyi will not let her die.

When Ji Yunhe was alone, he searched the attic and found no weapons.

Suicide is not enough, jumping off the building can't get out, I want to starve myself to death, and the three meals that are delivered every day have to be watched and eaten into my mouth.

Is it possible to hold your breath and suffocate yourself?

She tried it. When she was sleeping at sunrise, she put the quilt on her head and covered it tightly. After a while, she felt stuffy, but after the stuffy, her hands lost strength, and it was like this Lie under the quilt and sleep for a whole day.

When I woke up, I had no other discomfort except my nose was a little uncomfortable.

Ji Yunhe also set his sights on the beam, thinking of twisting a rope with a bed sheet and hanging it on the beam, it would be fine to hang himself.

Ji Yunhe felt that this method was feasible, but after looking around, he couldn't find the scissors.

Only then did she realize that it was the last time she picked up the bed curtain with scissors, made it into a cloak and escaped, and Changyi confiscated her scissors as well.Unable to remove the mattress, she pulled off the bed sheets.But when the bed sheet shook and the fabric fell, a black-faced evil spirit suddenly appeared behind him.

Chang Yi stood in front of Ji Yunhe with his hands behind his back with an unhappy expression.

The sheets were hanging limply to the floor.

Ji Yunhe stared blankly at the sudden appearance of Changyi, and for a moment thought that the bed sheet was some kind of prop, but suddenly a big change came to life.

"When... did you come here?" Ji Yunhe looked at the door of his room, "Isn't the meal delivered yet..."

Chang Yi's face was dark, as if he didn't hear her question, he just said: "What are you going to do again?"

"I..." Ji Yunhe shook the bed sheet twice again, "I think the bed sheet is a bit dirty, shaking it."

"Finished shaking?"

"Ah."

"Store back."

With hands behind his back, Chang Yi stared at Ji Yunhe and put the bed sheet back down neatly, then walked away with an unhappy expression on his face.Just like when I came, without a trace.

Ji Yunhe sat down on the bed, feeling that he was at a disadvantage.But through this incident, she also understood that this mermaid, for some reason, seems to be able to quickly perceive her every move.Luckily this time, he didn't leak any clues about suicide, otherwise things would be even more troublesome later on.

Looks like...the slow method of suicide is no longer possible.

Ji Yunhe rubbed his chin and let out a long sigh of worry.

She looked at the charcoal fire in the house, and this method of burning the house with charcoal might not work.Maybe before the fire ignited, the big iceberg rushed over in an instant...

But... Ji Yunhe looked at the silently burning charcoal fire in the house, and suddenly remembered the book that the Great Master had read to her when she was locked in the dungeon of the National Master's Mansion. The person the Great Master once liked traveled the world and wrote Several travel notes, in addition to some astronomy, geography, mountains and lakes records, there are also some idle anecdotes.

She vaguely remembered that there was a chapter in which it was written that a charcoal called "Hong Luo Tan" was used to keep warm in the home of a nobleman in the north. This kind of charcoal was made of precious hardwood. Also extremely long and very warm.However, the youngest sons of noble families often die early, the female family members do not live long, and the men often suffer from diseases. Even in one night, the head of the family and his wife all died.

After the death of the head of the house and his wife, it is said that their faces were peaceful, as if they were still in a dream, and there was no ferocious appearance. The local people thought that the house's feng shui was not good, and there were monsters making trouble, and both the head of the house and his wife were absorbed by the monsters.

However, after inquiring, the author of the book found that the tragedy was caused by the charcoal they used and the lack of ventilation in the house. The author called it "charcoal poisoning".

The reason why Ji Yunhe remembers this matter so clearly is because she discussed it with the Great Master after reading this article.

Ji Yunhe said that many people in the world classify things they don't understand as monsters causing trouble, so they feel disgusted with monsters. In the end no one saw...

Upon hearing the words, the Great Master only said: "She is serious."

At the beginning, Ji Yunhe only felt that the Great Master was a deeply affectionate person, and it was a pity for the woman he liked.

But now, when Ji Yunhe thought of this incident, he felt so happy that he wanted to jump.

The windows in her house were always closed even though she wanted to open them, but no one would open them for her.And she is weak, so she can claim that she is afraid of the cold and ask the servants to bring more pots of charcoal fire, or even order the precious red charcoal. Even if the servants are strange, they will only think that she is hypocritical.And Changyi knows it and won't be suspicious.

Burn a few more pots of charcoal, hold him back for a whole day, and pass away quietly the next day, with a peaceful face, as if in a dream... No one would think that she died strangely, because she was already weak, and everyone It just feels like she is dying in a dream.

This is the best way to die.

Ji Yunhe was delighted with his memory.

She sat down on the edge of the table expectantly, and when the servant brought the food, Ji Yunhe stopped her and did not let her go. When Changyi came, she made a wish for Changyi: "My room is too cold. The pot of charcoal fire still makes my hands and feet cold, later, bring me some more pots of charcoal fire."

Chang Yi was not suspicious, and gave a faint "hmm".

The maid took orders and was about to leave when Ji Yunhe called out, "Is there any red charcoal in the courtyard? I heard before that that kind of charcoal fire is the best."

The maid replied respectfully: "Yes."

Ji Yunhe nodded: "Bring more pots over here. It's getting colder these days."

The maid didn't answer until Changyi nodded.She left respectfully.

Ji Yunhe picked up the bowl contentedly, and she glanced at Chang Yi who was sitting across the table. Chang Yi seemed to be busy with affairs today, and was frowning while holding a long document in his hand.

Sensing Ji Yunhe's gaze, Chang Yi missed the document and looked at Ji Yunhe.But Ji Yunhe saw a faint smile on his face.She smiled gently and calmly, Chang Yiben's irritability due to the document eased slightly, his brows eased, and he put down the document.

"What's wrong?" He still asked coldly.

"It's nothing." Ji Yunhe said, "I just feel that you are more majestic now. Compared with before, this change can be described as earth-shaking."

Whenever Ji Yunhe mentioned the word "before", Changyi would not be in a good mood.With a cold snort, he picked up the document again: "Thank you."

Ji Yunhe smiled, took a bite of his meal obediently, as if chatting about family affairs, and said: "But your face is still as good-looking as ever. It's even more mature than before."

The focus of the eyes changed from the text to Ji Yunhe's face.

Ji Yunhe was very well-behaved today, he took a bite of rice and vegetables, chewed slowly, and didn't need to be urged at all.He had some strange feelings in his heart, but he couldn't tell how strange it was.

Until Ji Yunhe finished the rice and vegetables in the bowl, Changyi also closed the paperwork.He got up to leave, usually at this time, Ji Yunhe would urge him to leave.His gaze was like surveillance to her.

The long-term intention is clear in my heart.

But today, Ji Yunhe suddenly opened his mouth:

"Long meaning."

She kept his footsteps.

Chang Yi turned her head back, but saw Ji Yunhe's eyebrows were crooked, and her pale face turned a little rosy with a smile. In a trance, Chang Yi seemed to see again in the Ten Square Formation, on the edge of the abyss, the one pulling him hands, the woman who jumped into the darkness with a smile, she is so tough, beautiful and full of temptation.

The same smile, the same one can't guess the mood behind her smile.

"Changyi, you are the most beautiful and best person I have ever seen..."

Her words made Chang Yi clenched the document tightly in his sleeve.

She went on to say: "He is also the gentlest and kindest person. Six years ago, if it wasn't for that scene, I might have liked you very much." She pretended to be relaxed and smiled, "Maybe, I would still like you." I want to be the twins of you sharks who are twins for the rest of your life."

Chang Yi looked at her, not shy away from her eyes, four eyes met, neither lingering nor fighting, this moment of silence was like an undercurrent in the deep sea, swallowing the emotions of both of them away, flowing into the endless abyss .

Amidst the dappled candlelight, Chang Yi vaguely felt that there seemed to be tears in Ji Yunhe's eyes.

In the blink of an eye, her black pupils were clearly visible again.

Chang Yi was silent for a moment, and had no choice but to look at her in his spare time: "Now that things have come to an end, what do you want to say again?" The tone was hard, like a rock.

"I just wanted to tell you."

"okay, I get it."

No more entanglements, Chang Yi turned and left.

The room fell into a dead silence again.

Ji Yunhe sat on a chair, quietly waiting for two or three maids to bring up the red charcoal she wanted.

She sat there for a long time, until the maid came, put down the charcoal, tidied it up again, and asked her, "Girl, is there enough charcoal fire?"

Ji Yunhe looked at the charcoal basin in the room, the bright red charcoal fire was as charming as a girl's cheek, it was still cold winter, but Ji Yunhe seemed to have come to a sea of ​​flowers gradually blooming in March.

With a caress of the spring breeze, bringing spring flowers and warm sun, it softens the eyebrows, eyes and cheeks, and makes the ice-hard backbone melt into water and soften.

Looking at the bright red, Ji Yunhe burst out laughing.

Enough is enough, everything I want to say has been said.

"enough……"

(End of this chapter)