The Fiancee Who Betrayed Me Is Obsessed With Me

91 – Mistake(2)

“… Let’s go back first. great job.”

“… yes.”

I looked in vain at the spot where Yuna had disappeared, but she had already disappeared.

The unbearable anger did not boil over. I didn’t even regret not being able to cut her down.

It was an incomprehensible phenomenon. I spent all my time trying to destroy her, her and Helya, and I can’t believe I’m not boiling with anger at losing her.

Even when he tried to cut her, he hesitated. In a way, the reason I lost her was because I hesitated.

“The war ended safely and victoriously.”

“High elves… “What happens?”

“The main people who created this situation will be purged, and the rest will be imprisoned for now. “The plan after that is after we modify Elia to suit us.”

“… okay.”

Fortunately, it seemed like the Dark Elves had safely achieved victory.

It’s a revenge he’s been preparing for much longer than me, so he must have it all planned out.

There was no hesitation in Arion’s steps.

“… Arion.”

“I guess I saw something. From the Great Forest.”

“How did you know?”

“Because I have been watching you and that person’s situation from afar. “What did you see?”

Arion answered my question as if he knew it.

As always, he looked back at me with an expression without the slightest agitation or empathy.

Strangely enough, those hard eyes always gave me great strength.

“that… It was a pure white video. It’s as if it’s showing Yuna’s past… But I don’t know if it’s her past or a fantasy… ”

“It will be in the past. For sure.”

“… “You are sure.”

“Mothers do not create lies. That would destroy the balance, and there is no reason to do so. To my mother, everything that happens in this world, even the long lives of the elves, is just a moment.”

“So that means that was really Yuna’s past.”

“I don’t know what it says, but I guess so.”

After answering, Arion walked back toward the center of the city.

I also silently followed behind him.

Those videos were all from Yuna’s past. That was the truth. Because dark elves don’t lie.

But rather, that fact confused me even more.

It’s true that she didn’t know anything, and that she suffered from losing me for the past time.

The reason she was so broken was not because of her nature, but because of the pain of losing me.

She really hadn’t forgotten me yet, and she had been loving me since then.

The fact that she suffered as much as I suffered, and that I lived my life resenting her for that.

‘For what… ‘

For what reason have I been sharpening my sword for revenge?

I ran with anger as fuel, but in the end, the only people I hurt were the people who were precious to me, and Helia, who truly deserved punishment, still remained unharmed.

The nobles of Ceramide and Regius, who had betrayed us so horribly, were still enjoying power, and none of the former kings and royal families of Helia were punished.

There was a war, but no one won, and no one was defeated.

It was simply a war for destruction.

-Waaa!

The cries of the dark elves can be heard.

They have succeeded in getting their revenge and will carry out the rest of their plan flawlessly.

Their purpose was clear, and the high elves would be punished. According to the established cause and effect.

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Maybe it’s to the point where I think it’s balanced.

But I was the exact opposite of them. It was stupid.

Nothing was accomplished properly. I was just consumed by anger and was struggling with my surroundings and myself.

Of course, there were inevitable misunderstandings in the process, and I had no choice.

However, the fact that the path I had walked so far was nothing but a bloody thorny path, and that there was no true salvation at the end of it, made me hate myself even more.

Sigh-

The heads of the high elves, presumed to be elders, were cut off one by one.

The high elf elders waiting in line for their next turn were trembling with their hands and feet tied.

It would have been a cruel sight for someone who didn’t know them, but the dark elves didn’t show them any sympathy.

Because they knew the mistakes of the high elves.

Suddenly-

That would be the same for me too.

I was just blankly watching the high elves’ heads being cut off.

***

It’s been quite some time since the Dark Elves won.

I couldn’t tell exactly how much time had passed.

In a forest completely cut off from the outside world, my sense of time was strangely relaxed.

“… Ben. “Were you here again?”

I always spent my time lying blankly in the empty lot near Elia.

There was a small sapling planted in the middle of the clearing, but it was an alien entity in a large forest where all other plants boasted enormous sizes.

“It’s nice here because the sun shines well. There is plenty of space to swing the sword. And it’s fun to see this guy grow every day.”

“In a great forest, all living things grow quickly. “Maybe within a few months, it will cover the sky like those trees.”

“… Is that so. “Something is disappointing.”

Arion lay down next to me.

The recent hectic events seemed to be gradually getting sorted out.

The disposition of the remaining elves was also decided, and Elia was also changed to suit the tastes of the dark elves.

However, the Dark Elves also did not want to destroy the forest excessively, so it is unlikely that they will develop it on a massive scale like Diria.

“Have you decided what to do next?”

“… I do not know. “I want to destroy Helia, but there is no way now.”

There must be a way. If you look for it.

But is it because I am exhausted? I didn’t want to spend too much time planning revenge that could take years, or even decades.

The hatred for Helia still remained. But right now, the feeling of desperation and helplessness was greater.

“… is it.”

The wind passes by my cheek. The wind in the forest always felt good.

Green plants, mountain birds and animals crossing between them. There was nothing that was leisurely.

This atmosphere helped me clear my thoughts for a moment.

“I felt empty. “After everything is over.”

“… Is that so?”

“I have a lot more years left to live, but I feel like I’ve lost some purpose. “But it seemed really stubborn before.”

“The elf says that too.”

“… okay. That’s what elves are like. Maybe the years of stubbornly holding on for revenge were a history that did not fit us. “It is our destiny to live in such leisure.”

It was an enviable story. No, maybe it’s a bit of a sad story.

It must have been difficult for humans to have to live in a great forest for an unimaginable amount of time.

“You know what, Ben? In fact, elves also love.”

“… Aren’t elves born in the World Tree?”

“that’s right. High elves are born from their mother’s leaves, and dark elves are born from their mother’s roots.”

“Then the love of the elves must really be a love made only with the heart.”

“But that’s not true. “Just because you don’t have children doesn’t mean you don’t have a penis.”

“… Yes.”

Well, stories like that told out of admiration for elves are common among humans.

Of course, men like any beautiful woman.

“It was before we were driven out of the forest. When there was still peace. “I also had someone I loved.”

“That’s the first time I’ve heard of that.”

“yes. Because there was no reason to say it. “I shouldn’t have said it.”

“The moment I left the great forest… Did you even lose it? By the high elves.”

“… no. She was fine. Even back then. Because she was a high elf.”

“… !”

It was really my first time hearing this story.

The being Arion loved was a high elf. Maybe he too was betrayed?

“Of course she wasn’t deeply involved in it. Because it was the elders who led the betrayal. But even though I knew that, I couldn’t shake off my resentment toward her. “Even though she actually had nothing to do with the betrayal.”

“… okay.”

“And she’s incarcerated now. With other high elves. Just because she was the person I loved, I couldn’t let her go emotionally. Of course, it’s not that I didn’t think about it.”

“Elves are the same.”

“… okay. Same. “We are just creatures.”

Arion looked up at the sky and smiled.

It was his smile that was rarely seen.

“It was a really strange feeling. It’s been a long time since we last met, but the feelings from that day still remain. And I had no choice but to admit it. This won’t be erased. “That’s it.”

“It can’t be erased even after such a long period of time.”

“That’s what emotions are like. It’s not erased, we just keep it and live with it. However, since we live for a long time and retain many emotions, we may become a little dull. But isn’t it different for short-lived species like humans? “As their lives are short, their emotions also burn hotly.”

It really seemed that way. Not something to be erased, but something to keep.

If I could erase it, there would be no reason to be like this.

“Revenge and love. I thought you couldn’t have opposing emotions at once. But it was possible. I couldn’t delete either of them. “I succeeded in getting revenge, but love still remains.”

“… “It really is.”

“What should I do in such a case? “You can’t satisfy both, right?”

“One… You have to choose. Or give up both.”

“okay… I guess so… “

It was exactly as it was said.

The hesitation that prevented him from cutting Yuna. Perhaps it was because those feelings still remained and had not gone away.

I guess I couldn’t choose between the two because both my desire for revenge and love remained.

“but… Then how on earth… “

But then what should I do?

I couldn’t waste time like this foolishly, even for the sake of my family and Gerg who died instead of me.

And I don’t want to do that. The hatred towards Helia still remains.

“In the end, it can’t be perfect, right? Anything. “There are some things that cannot be resolved no matter how much I pour out.”

“well… “I don’t know.”

If you have to choose between the two, which should you choose?

Of course it’s revenge. My heart is like that too.

But the pain of the wrong things I had done also remained.

Wouldn’t it be correct to say that it’s broken? And it can’t be fixed.

I feel like I just want to break down and be done with it.

“Well, we’ll find a balance somehow. “Mom will find it.”

“What a convenient idea.”

“If I didn’t think like this, I couldn’t survive those long years. “It’s too long to live worrying about every single thing.”

I guess it’s the elves’ way. I understand.

Are you saying we should live with the flow?

“Huh… Cha… So, how long do you plan on staying here? “I don’t know how long my mother will allow humans.”

“I will leave soon. Just explore the continent as an adventurer. “Just go with the flow.”

“is it. Do it. “After all, all roads lead to one place.”

A few days later, I decided to leave the forest and set off.

Still nothing has been decided about the future.

I’ve been running for revenge, and I thought I had done it, but I actually achieved nothing.

He only left scars on the people he loved and was unable to get any revenge on those he truly needed revenge on.

The more I thought about it, the more I took a step outside the forest, the more my head hurt.

I had the urge to rip my brain out.

I thought things got better while I was in the forest, but it seems that wasn’t the case.

Because it was already completely ruined.

“Ugh… ?”

And by the time you see the light shining from outside the forest,

The sight before my eyes turned completely white, as if I had seen Yuna’s past.

And the Great Forest began to show me something else.