065 Illusion is free

****[Oscar, the main character] ****

After receiving the news that my father was coming, I went straight to my mother.

Until now, I rarely talked about my father in front of my mother.

It was because she thought that it would be painful for her mother to think of her father, who had already left the family home and lived with another woman.

But at least once in a while, we have to talk about mother and father.

What mother wants to do, whether there is still lingering attachment to father in a corner of her heart, whether father will accept it if he says he will come back, what kind of sincerity lies deep inside.

If my father happened to be on his way alone, this would be his chance.

Mother called the head maid to talk.

“…Yes, is that a good thing for a young woman? It seems too flashy to me.”

“I see it that way, my godfather. I really don’t know what kids like these days.”

“Really… I feel like we’ve grown old at times like this. There’s nothing we can do about it. Then this time, we’ll choose a few more types so that the younger ones…”

The servants of the mansion were provided with fabric once in spring and fall.

The clothes of the people who worked in the mansion were at their own expense, but the duke’s family provided the formally hired servants with fabric every year.

Of course, it was an additional payment regardless of the salary, and it was a privilege only for the duchy.

Even if temporary employees are excluded, the number is staggering because it includes not only the head family, but also employees in the royal capital and other areas.

The store, which is in charge of supplying fabrics on a regular basis, spent enough money to live on our duke family alone.

As such, it was difficult for other families other than the duchy to imitate.

Since I got married this time, the fabric is paid once more in the name of that.

The conversation between the two stopped quickly when I entered the room, but judging from what I heard at the end, it was about that.

He seemed to have listened to the wishes of the maids as to what kind of fabric they wanted.

“Oscar.”

Seeing me, my mother got up and smiled.

The head maid lowered her head with a soft expression.

“Thank you, Duke. Both the fabric and everyone are happy that your wife is here.”

I heard that the elderly head maid had been there since her mother came to this family.

It wasn’t the head maid at that time, but first, as the head maid got older and withdrew, her mother raised her to her current position.

If Benno was a teacher to his mother, the head maid is a kind of comrade-in-arms.

Will Catherine find such a maid here in the future?

For some reason, I felt strange.

The head maid immediately left the room, and my mother looked at me strangely.

“What’s wrong with you visiting me at this hour? Is something bad happening?”

It seems that my expression hardened a little.

Mother asked with a worried face.

I led my mother to the sofa.

After sitting face to face, he opened his mouth.

“Mother, Father is coming here. He will arrive in a few days.”

“… what happened? Bianca with you?”

The mother’s eyebrows furrowed slightly.

“I don’t know what happened yet, but my father says he’s alone. There was a report that he left the mansion alone at night. It’s been a while since he came out, so I told him to bring him here.”

“ha.”

My mother sighed in displeasure and changed her expression to look at me.

“Seeing that you’ve come to see me like this, you must have something to say to me. Oscar, tell me.”

I held my mother’s hand and looked into her eyes.

“Mother, do you still love your father? If he ever said he wanted to be with you… would you?”

“…”

My mother looked at me for a moment and then asked.

“First… let me ask you, Oscar. Do you, as head of the family, want to accept your father?”

“…”

From the point of view of the head of the family, there is nothing too bad about accepting the father.

If Dangjoo’s parents appear to be harmonious and without any problems on the outside, it’s okay as a duke.

However, if you do so, the father will enter the social world with the mother.

Now that I am married, I will be accompanied by Catherine, and in the end, my mother’s partner will be none other than my father.

Then there was a chance that my father would wander around and cause trouble.

From my point of view, the latter is a bigger problem, but in an aristocratic society, face is important.

If you look at the duke’s family, the former or the latter would be similar.

It becomes plus or minus zero, neither great nor great.

When I didn’t answer, my mother asked again.

“Then what about your son?”

“I don’t like it. I don’t consider him my father.”

The answer came right away.

As if my mother was looking for sincerity, I looked at my face still.

Then he smiled and held my hand tightly.

“You seem serious. I’ve been worried about that all along, Oscar. Rather than what I want to do…”

The mother’s eyebrows, which had been frowning, returned to normal before she knew it.

“People change, Oscar. It must have been love at first, but now I sometimes wonder if it was really love. I can’t even remember why I liked that person in the past.”

“…”

“Even so, the reason I continued to hate him and suffer was because of you, Oscar. I know that you missed your father when you were little. Because the image of you, who cried quietly alone, is still in my heart.”

Mother smiled a little sadly.

“I can’t forget that figure. Because he’s my father by blood, so I wondered if this boy misses his father, never being able to get away from such a man for the rest of his life. The love he doesn’t give to you is only given to Bianca’s child, so that’s how I feel.” It makes the child sad. That’s why I hated him even more.”

“mother.”

“But Oscar, I don’t care if you don’t cry anymore.”

“Are you seriously okay?”

“Of course. Maybe because I’m older, sometimes I feel sorry for that person. He was forcibly torn from the girl he liked and forced to marry me. Well, it’s natural for a nobleman, but he’s a fool who can’t do that.”

Now that I’m living alone with Bianca, it would be nice, but my mother laughs, saying that I don’t know why she keeps sending me letters.

“Are they all acting childishly with their old wives?”

“Your mother is still younger than the girl who made her debut. She is still beautiful. Stop talking like an old woman and find a new love.”

“what….”

My mother opened her eyes wide and started laughing.

“Oscar, you don’t even play girl and sometimes you say really flirty things.”

“I’m serious, mother.”

I looked at my mother’s face and quietly opened my mouth.

“As the head of the family, I have decided to divorce my father and mother. If my mother had even the slightest hesitation, I would reconsider.

“Oscar.”

“I will give my mother the barony that I own.”

“What? But in this country, women don’t have titles…”

“It’s not unheard of. There was a case like that a long time ago. At that time, it was a special case where there were no male heirs or males who could take charge among relatives, but there were definitely barons.”

“…”

“I’ve been discussing with the royal family for several years already. I’ve been going through difficulties, but it was decided when I went to the royal capital this time.”

Mother’s eyes were literally as wide as a lamp.

“Am I going to be a baroness?”

“However, when a mother marries, the status passes to her husband. It is the same when a son is born. When a child comes of age, the title must be handed over. And one more thing, although she is a baronet, she must have an official patron. It is a request of the royal family. .I decided to leave that role to Benno.”

“…”

When a woman has a title, more men are aiming for it.

The duke’s mother and baroness.

Of course, there will be many men who will come after her mother.

Benno will become a shepherd who keeps sheep.

If you stay idle, the sheep will be taken by the wolves, Benno.

I laughed softly.

“It’s going to be a bit difficult in the future. My mother has to keep playing the role of hostess here. The same goes for the acting lord. You’ve become so busy that even ten bodies aren’t enough.”

My mother was blank for a while, then suddenly saw me.

“Oscar, when did you start thinking like that?”

“A long time ago.”

“…”

As time passes, the mother, not the duchess, stays in a world of quiet silence.

If you let go of the duties of the duke’s mistress one by one, in the end, even if you live, you will live quietly as if you were dead.

Still alive, such a young and beautiful mother becomes a withered flower.

That kind of thing can’t be allowed.

“I want my mother to be happy. I want my divorce from my father to be a fresh start, not a quiet grave for life.”

Being bitten by a suitor, screaming and screaming, sometimes thrilled by love and laughing, sometimes angry and crying and angry with the world, struggling to make ends meet, she wanted to live a lively life like that.

There was a slight dampness in her mother’s eyes.

“My son, who was always worried about me, suddenly became worried about me… Whoops. I’m no longer the age my mother should protect.”

My mother hugged me and said softly.

“Thank you, my son.”

A soft air drifted between mother and me.

Then, all of a sudden, my mother muttered.

“Catherine has to work really hard. I thought I’d take care of her for ten or twenty years, but when this happens, she’ll have to hurry up.”

I didn’t think of that.

I thought of her face, trembling in front of me, but often clenching her fists tightly and resolving something to herself, and I smiled lightly.

Catherine, work hard with the power of love.

****[Bernt, father]****

Bianca was my first love.

She is also the woman who brought him first.

Although I have been by your side for a long time, you were always pretty like a colorful flower.

I dug into his heart and gave him only pleasant things like fantasy.

Being by her side made me feel cozy, cozy, and like a man.

A shabby and insignificant bastard in front of his father becomes a strong and proud man in front of her.

When she looked down on her poor face and shed tears, he felt like he had become that way, and when he saw Bianca tremble in front of his wife, he looked like he was being beaten by his father.

I strongly thought that I should protect this woman, that I should love her.

She looked like a slender, splendid fairy who neither pooped nor peeed nor farted.

‘But why…’

Complaining every day

Although pushed to the outskirts, the life his son provided was decent.

Even if you couldn’t use too much money, all the things in the mansion were of the highest quality, and the servants moved like tongues in their mouths.

I don’t know if it was Benno’s concern or his son’s order, but as the duke’s father, it was enough of a treat.

Even if there were no fancy social gatherings in the royal capital, a small theater company called for him often performed within the territory, and an orchestra was also invited to give a concert.

Even if he couldn’t gift expensive jewelry like he used to, he could buy Bianca a decent pair of earrings or accessories if he saved a little money that his son had set aside for him.

If you compare him with the cold reaction of his son when he kicked him out, you can see that he treats him as a father in his own way.

I thought that this was fine, but I thought that Bianca would be happy without having to tremble in front of his wife from now on, but Bianca, who was like a fairy, slowly changed.

He casts an accusatory glance at him as an incompetent man.

She complains about being shabby because she can’t buy new clothes, but what she’s wearing is new clothes she made a few days ago.

He complained every day that people looked down on the duke’s woman if she was too shabby.

But she is not a duke’s woman.

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Just a simple man’s lover.

I ate too much food and my back got thicker.

Not too long ago, I lowered my head and saw that my chin doubled.

‘You burped in front of me yesterday.’

The smell was disgusting.

I was ashamed after doing it, but the memory and smell did not erase.

Gradually Bianca’s bad side came into view.

It was evident that he regarded himself only as money.

Dennis, who used to stare brightly at his father when he was young, has also changed.

He complained that he couldn’t become a duke because of his father.

For some reason, Dennis seems to think he has been taken over by Oscar.

But originally, that child couldn’t become a duke.

It wasn’t like that.

It was just that if his wife Annette had no children, he was thinking of taking the form of adopting her and his own children.

Looking back now, I know I was stupid back then.

There was no way his father would allow him to be adopted, but even if it was possible, it would have been raised by the vassal family.

Of course, Annette’s parents would have demanded compensation, saying that it was different from the marriage contract.

‘What the hell was I thinking back then?’

I am regretting it.

At first, she couldn’t stand Bianca’s back pain, so she sent a letter to her son saying she wanted to go to Eldoni, where her family is located.

But now he had no intention of taking Bianca with him.

He understands that Oscar will not allow that, and he has no desire to be with her any longer.

However, he regretted the past, and sent letters to his son several times, saying that he wanted to go back alone without Bianca and Dennis, but there was no good answer.

Oscar refused and sent only courtesy words.

Maybe my son isn’t even writing it himself.

It may be that the civil servant writes it and the son only signs it.

I sent a letter to my wife, Annette, but she only said that this could not be done without the permission of the head of the family.

At least Annette wrote the reply herself, so she was on the better side.

‘perhaps….’

To say that it is impossible without the permission of the head of the family means that it is possible only with the permission.

‘Does she still love me?’

Looking back at herself, Bernd was a poor husband.

Still, he doesn’t know if his wife is still waiting for him.

I hate you, maybe because I still have love left.

‘Poor woman.’

he was really stupid

It’s an idiot that can’t be touched.

If Annette is still waiting for her.

When I thought that, my heart brightened a little.

‘Yes, she will be waiting.’

she is a decent woman

Even if Bernd didn’t look back, there were no male shadows around her.

It could have been, but she waited only for Bernd.

‘Annette.’

he was a fool

I won’t do such stupid things anymore.

Bernd clicked his tongue and urged his words.

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