The Words of the Number One

Sure enough, the officers and soldiers surrounded the small hill tightly, but they couldn't get in anyway. They even tried to set fire to the mountain, but the fire couldn't get in. Ji Yu and I stood on the mountain and looked at the helpless and furious officers and soldiers at the foot of the mountain. It was very safe for a while.

"When do you think they can withdraw?" Ji Yu asked lazily.

"Look at the time, let's pass ten days, there should be some movement in both the Song and Zhao countries." I replied.

We found a cave sheltered from the wind. It was already cold in the winter night. Ji Yu found a lot of firewood and piled it up to light it. .

When Ji Yu was doing these things, I sat cross-legged in the cave and looked at him with my head propped up. With his sleeves tied up, his hands are clean and neat, obviously he looks like a young man raised from a noble family in spring water, he is so proficient in how to do these things.

"What was it like when you were a child?" I couldn't help asking.

"Hmph, are you asking A Yao?" Ji Yu replied in a bad tone. He threw the freshly split firewood into the fire with a clatter, turned around and sat down next to me. Received his eyes indicating that I would lean into his arms obediently, Ji Yu raised the corners of her lips in satisfaction and continued.

"Playing the piano, dancing the sword, escaping from the palace, being caught back, and then running out again. The time I met you was the first time I ran so far. Afterwards, Gu Ling stared at me every day and never managed to escape from Luoyi." Ji Yu The left leg was supported by the right leg, and the left arm was resting on the knee, and he said with a leisurely smile: "The days at that time were really happy. Except that everyone believed that my father was a good man, there was nothing else to worry about. .”

"My mother gave birth to me in her thirties, so she loves me very much. My elder brother is a straightforward and gentle person. Whenever my father punishes me, he will always intercede. Every time I am punished, my sister will secretly visit me and bring me a Pile up medicines. Although they always say that this is not an example, they will continue to help me next time. Once the emperor sent Gu Qi to arrest me and come back. Gu Qi found me early in the morning but silently protected me all the way. Show up and arrest me. In fact, they all yearn for freedom, so they can't bear to restrain me if they want it."

Yingying fire reflected in Ji Yu's eyes, and there was a warm smile in his tone.

"I had the best relatives in the world. I used to think that no one in this world was happier than me, but I couldn't protect anyone."

I hugged his waist and said softly, "That's not your fault."

"Sometimes I feel that the Son of Heaven is very pitiful. He has acted all his life and harmed all those who love him. He has sacrificed countless times but has never been able to achieve his goal. In the end, the country will be ruined by the prince he himself promoted. His reputation He was also ruined by this prince. Do you think his whole life is a joke?" Ji Yu laughed lightly.

I was silent, thinking of the old man I saw in the moist mist of Jiyuan Temple. He has a kind face and elegant demeanor, and he can't see such a deep scheming at all. This person has lived his whole life wearing a mask, but has he ever truly loved anyone?

Maybe I also felt pain when I sacrificed my lover for the first time, so I told myself it was worth it. As time went by, he sacrificed more and more, and became more and more obsessed, refusing to admit that he had done something wrong. That day I heard that the Son of Heaven found many reasons to prove the justice of what he did, which is not a kind of self-persuasion.

If you find too many excuses, you will take the excuses as the truth.

"If he stops and admits his mistakes and regrets, all the previous sacrifices will be meaningless. I don't think he can bear it. Once some roads go up, they can't stop." I sighed softly. .

Ji Yu nodded, then looked down at me for a long time, with a layer of deep tenderness and sadness in her eyes.

"What are you looking at?" I asked him.

"Look at you," he replied.

For a moment, I thought of a moment when the fireworks were grand, the steaming table, and his smiling eyes like sugar in the sun.

I laughed, and he laughed too, and he and I clasped our hands together and fell asleep hugging each other.

We stayed on the mountain like this for three or four days, picking fruit, spearing fish and hunting wild rabbits every day—mostly Ji Yulai did it. I was in charge of going up the mountain to look far away, to see if the soldiers surrounding the mountain had any intention of retreating.

On the third day, the soldiers outside the mountain were dispatched, and on the fourth day, there were fewer soldiers. We're cut off from communication here and don't know what's going on, but it looks like we're not far from breaking the deadlock.

I let out a long sigh of relief and told Ji Yu about it, and Ji Yu didn't say anything but nodded with a smile. After dinner that day, he took me to chat as usual. I lay on his lap a little tiredly, and he slowly stroked my hair.

After chatting about all kinds of interesting things encountered during hunting today, the topic came to an end. I lay on his lap and looked at the fire light quietly, but I heard him say slowly as he brushed my hair: "How long are you going to lie to me?"

I was startled, and when I tried to stand up, I found myself completely powerless. I turned my head to look at him, and saw him lower his eyes and smile softly: "You didn't have time to take the antidote, did you? You're going to be poisoned in three days. Are you planning to die in front of me?"

"How do you..."

"I'm not that easy to cheat."

I tried to hold myself up and failed again, he... drugged me at dinner? Could it be that he wants... to go out and surrender himself?

"What are you going to do? Ji Yu...don't be impulsive." I could only stare into his eyes and warn him with as serious a voice as possible.

Ji Yu laughed noncommittally, the light from the firewood made his face warm and yellow, but his eyes were cold. So far, although he has often lost his temper, he has never shown such an expression. At this moment, I realize that he is really angry.

"I have been waiting for you to tell me these days, but you have no intention of saying it. I was wondering why? Probably...you still don't trust me, just like when you asked me to choose revenge or Like you, you always feel that I will sacrifice you, so you would rather not say it?" He looked at me in a low voice, with a trace of sadness mixed with anger.

I was a little flustered, and blurted out: "No! I was afraid that you would be worried...I was afraid that you would go out early and be caught."

"I won't necessarily die if I get caught, but you will definitely die if you stay here, and you will die because of the poison I poisoned. If you really think about me, you shouldn't make such a cruel choice. Believe it or not, if you If I die in front of me, I will sacrifice myself and those officers and soldiers to die together?"

"You're crazy, you..."

"If you are dead, why would I need reason!" Ji Yu raised her voice angrily.

I stared blankly at him, looking at his trembling eyes and red eye circles, I said incoherently: "They are leaving soon... They are already leaving today... Wait a little longer... I still have three days... "

I reached out and shook his arm, begging silently as I do every time he loses his temper. But this time it didn't work, Ji Yu's hand covered mine, and slowly pulled my hand away.

"Three days? By then it's too late, you're not my bet. I always feel...you never seem to realize how much I like you."

Ji Yu smiled slightly, and stroked my cheek with his fingers, his voice became much calmer: "After they caught me, the siege should be lifted soon, this formation restricts entry but not exit, you go out early and go to the pharmacy to get medicine. Ah …and I have been thinking about the question you asked earlier these days, when I said I didn’t know, but now I do.”

"I choose you, Jiujiu."

Ji Yu lowered her head and planted a kiss on my forehead, raised her eyes and looked at me with a smile. It is my favorite kind of sincere, gentle and helpless smile.

Then he gently laid me flat on the ground, took off his coat and put it on me. I stared at him blankly, my mind was full of chaos and I could only grab the hem of his clothes feebly, and said, "You will be fine...you can survive, right?"

I looked into his eyes eagerly, he was silent for a while and laughed, didn't give me the answer I wanted, just kissed my lips.

"I will work hard."

I grabbed the corner of his clothes tightly and said in a trembling voice: "You promised me, you will live for me."

Ji Yu thought about it, and he gently touched my head like when my mother comforted me when I was a child, avoiding my topic and said: "I love you, Jiujiu. There will be many people who love you in this world in the future, you Trust them as much as you try to trust me."

"Although I know you probably won't, I still want to say, don't die for me and don't avenge me if I don't come back."

"I am leaving."

He finally hugged me tightly and then let go, smiled and turned to leave. My body was as heavy as if it wasn't my own, and I couldn't catch anything except a faint scent of cypress wood. His eyelids became heavier and heavier, and he disappeared into the dark winter night with a determined back.

But I couldn't say a word.

—I always feel like you never realize how much I like you.

Ji Yu's words sounded in my mind, and I was startled. Suddenly I started to cry, and I cried while laughing, not knowing whether it was sadness or joy in my heart.

It turned out that he was right, I never believed that he would love me like I loved him, so I always felt that it would be far better for him to lose me than for me to lose him. I self-righteously sacrifice, I silently worry about gains and losses.

I didn't believe until this moment that he loved me no less than I loved him.

Until the moment of losing him.

For a long time, we loved each other like old enemies with helmets and swords in hand. But if the other party is in trouble, you must go all out to protect the other party.

When I woke up the next day, the sun was already high in the sky. I stared blankly at the dark cave roof for a while, the fire around me had been extinguished, and I was covered with Ji Yu’s purple coat.

I immediately got up and ran all the way out. Looking down from the mountainside, the officers and soldiers had already withdrawn, and the foot of the mountain was quiet as if nothing had happened.

They've got Ji-yuk already...

I took out the jade pendant from my arms, smashed it, took out the note, and ran down the mountain quickly, as if I would not feel tired, and ran to the outside of the mountain as hard as I could. Sure enough, the formation restricted entry and exit without restricting me. I ran straight to the pharmacy in the town to get the medicine according to the prescription. The doctor seemed to think that I had some kind of sudden illness, so he rushed to help me make the medicine.

I stood at the counter and waited, probably because I was running too fast and suddenly my eyes darkened and I passed out.

When I opened my eyes again, I was lying on the bed covered with a quilt, and a man was sitting on a chair inside the house. My heart beat out of control for a moment, and I asked, "Who are you?"

The man turned his head, and the familiar boy's brows were no longer clear, but more calm and indifferent.

"I've let you down, it's not Ji Yu."

The man is quite young.

It was Zi Chen.

I haven't heard any news about him since he escaped from Xiang Shaoya's residence. I sat up from the bed in surprise and looked at him. After a while, I realized something and said, "You reported it to the government?"

"Yeah, when I saw you here, I thought, Ji Yu must be by your side. Now he is the sweet potato that all countries compete for." Zichen looked me up and down for a while, and said, "You slept for two days, but The medicine you prescribed has already been poured down for you."

I was a little confused: "Why did you save me?"

"I reported you and Ji Yu because you lied to me before. I saved you because you also saved me. So far, both grievances and grievances have been settled." Zi Chen patted his clothes and stood up, as if preparing to leave.

This boy used to like to be bright and straightforward in white clothes, but now he is dressed in calm black clothes, and his smile is deep.

"Are you going to find Xiang Shaoya?" I asked.

Zi Chen's footsteps stopped.

Not long ago, I heard the news that Xiang Shaoya was assassinated on the front line and was seriously injured and sent back to Fandu for treatment. His condition is very bad and his life may be in danger.

He smiled in a low voice, then turned to look at me: "Miss Azhi is still so sharp."

"You forgive him?"

"No, even thinking about it, he didn't forgive me. It's just... If he is really going to die, I still want to see him again." After Zi Chen said, he smiled lightly and said to me: "Do you understand?"

I nod.

"I understand."

At that time, I didn't understand why you can love someone passionately, but I understand now.

You are going to say goodbye to Xiang Shaoya, and I am going to save my lover.

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The next chapter is a side story from Ji Yu's perspective. Some friends thought that Ji Yu loved Jiujiu not as much as Jiujiu loved Jiyu. In the next chapter, you can know Ji Yu's mental journey all the time.