To My Dear Mr. Huo

Shi Mengwan never knew that one day she would be in such a situation.

She once imagined that if one day, she met her big brother and got him back, what would she do?

From the time she separated from her eldest brother at the age of thirteen until now, she often thinks about it. Sometimes my heart hurts just thinking about it. When I can't find my big brother, I just feel lost and confused. But now that I have found someone, I feel even more uncomfortable.

I feel bad that her elder brother has forgotten her, and I feel bad that he has such an attitude towards her now.

But what she hated more was herself, for the little thought she had before. Put yourself in such an embarrassing situation.

When his eyes fell on Zhan Haoze's face, he realized that he had closed his eyes and opened them. Seeing her staring at him, he stretched out his hand and pulled her waist into his arms.

The two people's bodies were close to each other again, and Shi Mengwan was not used to this kind of intimacy.

"Don't move." Zhan Haoze's hand clasped her waist to prevent her from making a sound: "It seems you don't want to sleep? In this case-"

His hand slowly moved down on her lower back. Shi Mengwan was startled and quickly grabbed his hand: "Don't mess around."

These words made her feel weak. If he wanted to mess up, he would have already done it. Why do you care about this?

She lowered her head and saw Zhan Haoze's chest. She turned away slightly uncomfortable.

"I'm sleepy. I want to sleep."

She tried to turn her back to him, but he wouldn't give her the chance.

Bringing her body into his arms again, he lowered his head and looked at the resistance flashing in her eyes.

"Just sleep like this."

Shi Mengwan became more and more uncomfortable. How could she sleep like this?

"If you don't want to sleep, I will continue." He gestured and put his hand on her waist again.

Zhan Haoze threatened again. Shi Mengwan seemed to be frightened and quickly closed her eyes.

Her eyes were closed tightly, and her long and thick eyelashes were trembling slightly.

Zhan Haoze's eyes dimmed, and the hand that was not on Shi Mengwan's waist trembled slightly. He raised it as if to touch her face, but put it down again.

He closed his eyes and didn't look at her again.

Shi Mengwan couldn't sleep, her mind was in chaos. She rarely felt so confused.

Zhan Haoze's chest was hot and his hands on his waist were strong and strong. She couldn't get away, and she was afraid that he would really do it again.

She closed her eyes and tried not to look at Zhan Haoze. She thought she would still be unable to sleep, but she fell asleep again in a daze.

The dream struck without warning, and Shi Mengwan saw herself again when she was twelve years old.

She has been with Qiao Ze for more than a month. Over the past month or so, she had become somewhat familiar with the surrounding environment.

She would sometimes go out during the day and look around, but she wouldn't go too far and would come back again.

She found a very old bookstore at the entrance of the alley. Then she had something to do again.

Qiao Ze's residence does not have a TV or other electronic products. At that time, mobile phones were already available.

But it is impossible for people like Qiao Ze and her to afford mobile phones and communication products.

Shi Mengwan had nothing to do, so she went to the bookstore to borrow books every day. There weren't many books in the bookstore, but she liked going there, at least to pass the time.

Qiao Ze goes out every day, and he seems to be very busy. Especially after the injury on his hand healed, he went out early and came back late every day.

Sometimes when I come back to eat, I run out again after eating.

She asked him what he was doing, but he told her to leave it alone. As time passed, she stopped asking.

Like Qiao Ze's sister, she cleans the house, cooks and washes clothes for him every day.

But after she stayed at Qiao Ze's place for more than a month, the weather in Lin City entered late autumn.

Lin City is located in the south and has extreme weather. In this season, the temperature difference is huge. It was okay during the day, she only wore long sleeves and didn't feel cold.

But at night, a blanket couldn't really keep her warm. She felt cold.

When it got cold on the first day, she could bear it. The next day it started to rain.

She was so cold that she huddled on the sofa and looked at Qiao Ze's room with a confused expression.

She had lived in Qiao Ze's place for more than a month, so she naturally knew that the boy's house only had a quilt and nothing else.

The boy didn't know where the money came from during this period. Anyway, he had enough to eat and buy clothes for her. But when buying a quilt, she wasn't sure whether her elder brother would agree.

She was so cold that she couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning on the sofa for a long time.

"What are you doing?"

She made so much noise that even Qiao Ze inside was disturbed by her. He got up and came out, looking at Shi Mengwan sleeping on the sofa, his face full of displeasure.

Shi Mengwan stood up, wrapped herself tightly in the quilt, and looked at the young man timidly.

"I am cold."

She was embarrassed to say any more. She originally wanted to take care of Qiao Ze until his hand was healed, and then go home. She thought about her quarrel with her grandma and what happened at home. If she goes back and her parents still have to send her sister away without changing their mind, she would rather not go back.

But after staying there for more than a month, although Qiao Ze sometimes looked fierce, he was kind to her.

Qiao Ze was nice to her, but she was a little embarrassed.

He saved her from being bullied. She stayed to repay him for saving her life.

But now she wants him to support her, and now she wants him to buy her a quilt.

A twelve-year-old girl is very thin-skinned. If it wasn't really cold, she would be embarrassed to say anything.

Qiao Ze glanced at her and then at the sofa.

"You go to bed and sleep."

"how about you?"

Shi Mengwan bit her lip and glanced at the sofa. He is much taller than me. How can he sleep on such a sofa?

Qiao Ze said nothing and motioned for her to get up. He pulled the blanket and lay down on the sofa.

When he really fell asleep, Shi Mengwan realized that Qiao Ze really couldn't sleep.

He is already over 1.7 meters tall. He can't put his feet up even when sleeping on the sofa. Not to mention that the small blanket couldn't cover him.

"Big brother……"

"Go to sleep." Qiao Ze closed his eyes, as if he planned to sleep like this.

Shi Mengwan bit her lip. She did not enter the room. She looked at Qiao Ze and then at the bed.

Finally, her hands clenched tightly into fists.

"Big brother. How about you go to bed and sleep too?"

The weather was getting colder and colder, and she couldn't let Qiao Ze sleep on the sofa outside all the time. If this happens again, you will definitely catch a cold.

Hearing this, Qiao Ze opened his eyes and looked at her: "You want to sleep with me?"

"..." Shi Mengwan was a little embarrassed. In the end, he nodded: "Brother, I believe in you."

Qiao Ze stared at her face and finally sat up.

Shi Mengwan entered the room, and Qiao Ze followed her in.

He lay down directly on the bed. Shi Mengwan stood there, feeling a little embarrassed.

Qiao Ze fell asleep, directly pulled the quilt over him, closed his eyes and slept. After waiting for a while, he didn't see Shi Mengwan coming up to sleep, so he opened his eyes again.

He looked at Shi Mengwan and found that she was standing there quite helplessly, motionless.

"you are not tired?"

I'm sleepy, how can I not be sleepy? But no matter how trapped she is, she is still a girl.

It was just a momentary impulse. I was afraid that my elder brother would be uncomfortable sleeping and catch a cold, so I asked him to sleep on the bed.

Now that she calmed down, Shi Mengwan felt embarrassed.

"Go to sleep quickly."

Qiao Ze now runs outside every day during the day, and he exercises a lot every day. I'm already sleepy now and it's time to go to sleep.

Before closing his eyes, he glanced at Shi Mengwan again.

"Don't worry, with your wizened figure, I'm not interested."

Shi Mengwan was still a little girl. How had she heard such words before? My face was burning badly, I was blushing, and I was embarrassed.

But what Qiao Ze said was true.

She is only twelve years old, not yet developed, just a little girl.

She got into bed, slept an arm's length away from Qiao Ze, and covered her body with the quilt. Covering yourself with a quilt is completely different from covering you with a blanket.

She finally felt like she wasn't cold anymore. Because she was no longer cold, her complexion also improved a lot.

There was someone sleeping next to her, and she thought she wouldn't be able to sleep. But she was really sleepy. Slowly, I fell asleep.

When Shi Mengwan woke up in the morning, she found that she and Qiao Ze were sleeping together.

The boy's sleeping posture was quite casual, with one foot outside the quilt and the other foot still inside the quilt.

His still somewhat slender arms were just resting on her shoulders.

Shi Mengwan looked at the hand and then at the boy's sleeping face to confirm that the boy did it unintentionally.

She stepped back uncomfortably, trying to avoid the boy's hand. But the bed was only that big, so where could she avoid it?

She had no choice but to take the boy's hand away, but at this moment the boy opened his eyes.

Her hand was still holding his, and when she unexpectedly met the young man's dark and deep gaze, Shi Mengwan was startled and let go of her hand.

Qiao Ze's hand dropped again and hit her shoulder.

She was in pain and her face suddenly changed color.

"What are you doing?" The young man stood up. His duck voice sounded a little hoarse this morning, and it was even worse.

"...It's nothing." Shi Mengwan stood up quickly: "I, I just wanted to ask you what you had for breakfast."

"Whatever." There is no need to ask about this kind of thing. Shi Mengwan has always made her own decisions.

Shi Mengwan has grown up and has never lived with her parents since she was sensible. She was not close to her cousins ​​because her parents gave birth to girls.

This was the first time she slept in the same bed with a boy, a boy she had known for a short time.

The young man only thought she was weird, how could he think of her girlish thoughts?

Shi Mengwan didn't realize that there was no difference between men and women in the boy's heart until she had lived with him for several days.

He should sleep every day and do what he should. He still takes good care of Shi Mengwan. But she slowly came back to her senses. Maybe the boy at that time just regarded her as a younger brother or younger sister.

He was busy, and she wasn't even sure why.

What she was sure of was that the boy was definitely not studying. She knew that other people's children should be in school at the age of fifteen, either in the first or second year of high school.

But the boy was not in school. She asked several times, but Qiao Ze said no. She stopped asking.

Her relationship with the boy has always been like this. She regarded the boy as a big brother, and the boy regarded her as a little sister.

If the boy hadn't bought the wrong portion of glutinous rice balls that day and took the fermented rice balls home as glutinous rice balls, their relationship might have always been that of a big brother and a little sister, right?

Shi Mengwan woke up from her sleep and found that she had slept until noon again.

She blinked and seemed to take some time to realize where she was and what had happened.

I glanced at the other side of the bed, but it was empty. Zhan Haoze has already left. She sat up and the quilt slipped off.

The traces all over his body can no longer be covered up.

Shi Mengwan's lips pursed into a straight line. She bit her lip and thought of Zhan Haoze's frivolity last night and her obedience without resistance.

Suddenly, I felt as uncomfortable as a thorn in my heart.

She curled up her body, pulled up the quilt to cover her, looked at an unknown point, and her mood became gloomier little by little.

………………

Today is Su Qingsang's birthday. Su Qingsang's birthday is also very interesting. It is the day after Christmas.

In previous years, Su Qingsang and Shi Mengwan were together, and the two sisters would have dinner together on Su Qingsang's birthday. Celebrate birthdays together.

Su Qingsang is an illegitimate daughter. In the past, no one in the Su family would remember her birthday, and no one would specially celebrate her birthday.

Every year, she would ask Su Qingsang to come to her apartment and cook her a bowl of longevity noodles.

This year is different. Su Qingsang got married, and Shi Mengwan believed that Huo Jinyao would be prepared.

Shi Mengwan spent Christmas Day with the studio employees. The end of the year is here, and although there are many things to do, she is not an unkind boss.

I invited the employees to have a meal together, and also had the rare opportunity of accompanying them to karaoke. After fussing all night, I remembered the next day that I had appointments with two clients today.

Shi Mengwan ordered someone to order a cake early, but that customer was particularly difficult to deal with.

After Shi Mengwan sent the client away, got the cake and rushed to the place where Su Qingsang celebrated her birthday, she realized that something was wrong.

Su Qingsang recognized her mother, and Xiang Caiping also came. But this time she celebrated her birthday with not only Xiang Caiping, but also Su Chenghui.

Shi Mengwan looked at Su Qingsang and then at Su Chenghui. The calmest person here is Huo Jinyao, as if nothing is wrong.

After watching it for a few minutes, Shi Mengwan came to her senses. Xiang Caiping didn't want to see Su Chenghui, and Su Chenghui was probably feeling guilty towards Xiang Caiping.

She always felt weird looking at Su Chenghui.

It has to be said that women’s intuition is quite accurate.

In Shi Mengwan's heart, Su Chenghui is the representative of a scumbag. I have a wife, but I also have an old lover. Not to mention the old lover, but also an illegitimate daughter?

For so many years, I ignored this illegitimate daughter and ignored her. Waiting for his old lover to come back, he starts to fall in love with this illegitimate daughter again?

She looks so weird. I felt like something was wrong, but I couldn't explain why.

Seeing that Caiping was unhappy, she used her usual skills and laughed and joked in front of her. Finally, a smile appeared on Xiang Caiping's face.

After the party ended, Shi Mengwan was a little worried about Su Qingsang. But seeing Huo Jinyao's protective look on his face, she felt relieved again.

A touch of envy welled up in my heart.

No matter how uncomfortable Su Qingsang's past twenty years were, at least she was happy now. After all, Huo Jinyao was really kind to her.

After Shi Mengwan said goodbye to Su Qingsang, she was in no hurry to go home.

It has been more than a week since Zhan Haoze last appeared and left.

These days, she couldn't help but think of Zhan Haoze. Occasionally she asked herself in her heart, why can't she let go?

She kept convincing herself to forget about Zhan Haoze, a man who came and left whenever he wanted, but she found that she couldn't do it.

Stopping the car in front of the river embankment, she got out of the car and walked along the river embankment.

Lin City has entered winter and the weather is very cold. There were not many people on the embankment. Shi Mengwan tightened her coat, walked to a bench and sat down.

Lin City has developed well in recent years. There are many high-rise buildings on the other side of the river embankment. Various advertisements are scrolling on the LED wall outside the building.

The New Year is coming, and advertisements are very festive and all red. But Shi Mengwan couldn't feel the atmosphere of the upcoming New Year.

I took out my mobile phone and took a picture of the scenery across the river bank. I wanted to post it to my friends circle, but in the end I deleted it.

This world is like this. Happy things can be shared, but when you are lonely, you don’t know who you can share them with.

She put her phone away and was a little bit chilled by the cold wind, so she planned to go home. But at this moment, another person sat down next to the bench.

Shi Mengwan was stunned for a moment, then turned her face. The light from the river embankment shone on the face of the visitor. She looked at Zhan Haoze and was stunned for a moment.

She was looking at him and he was looking at her.

She couldn't help but look behind her again. There was no one else but him. I don’t know when he came or how long he has been here?

"exhibition--"

Before the next words were spoken, Zhan Haoze stretched out his hand and hugged her tightly.

Shi Mengwan's body froze and she didn't know what to say. Something seems wrong with Zhan Haoze today.

His hands held her tightly in his arms, and Shi Mengwan should feel cold when the night wind blew. Now being held by him, she didn't feel the coldness.

For a moment, time seemed to stand still. She didn't move, and neither did he.

Until she seemed to hear someone approaching and footsteps walking this way.

She tried to retreat from Zhan Haoze's arms, but he held her tightly. She had no choice but to bury her face in his chest when someone approached.

Inexplicably, she didn't want people to see her with Zhan Haoze.

The footsteps were approaching, and the visitor might have just passed by here at night, and soon disappeared again.

She could hear the footsteps approaching, and seemed to pause for a moment.

She didn't know that two girls were passing by. When she saw Zhan Haoze's appearance, even if she didn't see it clearly, she was still amazed by Zhan Haoze.

One of the two girls even wanted to secretly take out her cell phone to take a photo of Zhan Haoze, but was defeated by Zhan Haoze's gloomy gaze.

As he walked away, Zhan Haoze's hand relaxed a little. Shi Mengwan looked up from his arms and met his deep eyes.

Those eyes contained a lot of emotions, and Shi Mengwan couldn't see clearly for a while. She wanted to see clearly, but found that Zhan Haoze's gaze made her indulge in it.

Their eyes met, and her eyes were full of his shadow. Zhan Haoze narrowed his eyes slightly. He suddenly approached her, put a hand on the back of her head, and kissed her lips hard.

His lips were cold, and so was hers. In this weather, the body temperature will not be too high.

But after the cool lips met, she began to feel warm. She blinked her eyes, and the face of Zhan Haoze in front of her made her a little intoxicated.

She couldn't help but reach out and hold his face, as if to see his face more clearly.

There were two more hands on her eyes, Zhan Haoze covered her eyes, and he deepened the kiss.

His embrace slowly warmed her. Shi Mengwan, who had felt lonely before, decided not to think about anything for a moment, just to be held and kissed by him.

She couldn't see his face, and the feeling in the darkness was particularly clear.

His kiss was so domineering, all her feelings were concentrated in that one place.

She even responded to him unconsciously. And that response made his kiss go deeper and deeper.

Shi Mengwan was stunned for a moment. She realized what she had done, and pulled Zhang Haoze's hand again. But at this moment, he let go of her and hugged her tightly instead.

Her face was on his shoulder and she couldn't see his expression. Her hands fell to her sides. For a moment, she wanted to hug him back, but forced herself to put it down.

He stood up suddenly, and before she could react, he took her outside the river embankment.

Shi Mengwan could only follow his footsteps and then arrived at the place where she parked her car.

Only then did she realize that Zhan Haoze might have been following her just now.

Before getting in the car, Shi Mengwan bit her lip and stood in front of the car looking at him: "Zhan Haoze, what do you want to do?"

She didn't call him Mr. Zhan again. At this time, that title was really too pretentious.

Zhan Haoze stood in front of the car and said nothing. Shi Mengwan took a deep breath and told Zuo not to be angry or angry.

"Zhan Haoze, can you tell me what you really want?"

She didn't want to do this anymore: "It's not just once. You can come when you want and leave when you want. You can even go up when you want."

Her words were a bit vulgar, but they were the truest thoughts in her heart at this time.

"I'm not a skilled woman. Zhan Haoze."

She is a woman, an ordinary, ordinary woman.

She longs for love, provided that the person who gives her love is her elder brother.

She is a person who accepts death. Now that I have identified myself as the big brother, I will never change again.

"Me, if you are not my big brother. Please stay away from me. Okay?"

She couldn't play his game, and there was no way she could disappear like him after having sex with her. Not even a single word was left behind.

But he could still take advantage of her by pretending that nothing had happened.

"Zhan Haoze. Please stay away from me." Her tone was serious and sincere.

She had discovered a long time ago that she was always weak in front of Zhan Haoze.

She doesn't like being disadvantaged like this, and she wants to change that.

"goodbye."

Throwing these two words away, she took out the car keys from her coat.

When she wanted to get in the car, Zhan Haoze took her car keys and got into the cab.

"Zhan Haoze, you..."

What does he mean?

"boarding."

Zhan Haoze's voice was faint. Shi Mengwan gritted her teeth and stood motionless at the door of the car.

"Get out of the car."

"boarding."

Inside and outside the car, the atmosphere was tense for a moment.

One update, six thousand words. I'm going to write the second update. I've had a headache today, and I'm late in updating again. Excuse me. I would like to trouble you again to list. Thanks.