Why Ignorant Harems Are Dangerous

12 – #03. Definition of Happiness (3)

She smiled and gestured.

At her request to show her face, she thought about it for a while, but the atmosphere was so unusual that she finally showed her face, which she hadn’t wanted to reveal.

“As expected, it’s cool that you didn’t cover it up.”

“Because I can’t do that.”

Neira had no intention of revealing this face to anyone else, no matter how fascinated she was.

Perhaps if it hadn’t been for the strange atmosphere and her sorrowful attitude, she wouldn’t have taken off this mask.

“Please come this way.”

She thought about that for a while, but she said that Meah, who stopped Neira not too long ago, could go, so she nodded her head and sat down next to her.

Small fields all around.

Up there, cherry blossoms were spreading in profusion and scattering little by little.

We looked at each other with the place in the background.

“A harsh person. Did you really think we would forget you if you left like that?”

“…… I wanted you to forget.”

Because that feeling is something that shouldn’t exist.

It’s just my feelings that have been twisted by my strange ability. It’s all about pouring affection on a man who couldn’t have loved in the first place, and becoming obsessed with a mediocre man.

I was afraid of that.

I still had that vague feeling inside of me like a lump.

I felt a little bit uncomfortable seeing the women being ridiculed for their untrue emotions, and it was a set of negative emotions that explosively amplified along with the suicide of a woman.

“Really, he is a fool.”

She smiled and turned her head to look at the cherry blossoms in the distance.

“It is beautiful.”

“Yes.”

“It seems that the moonlight shatters into each cherry blossom petal and illuminates the surroundings brightly.”

Has there ever been a place like this?

To be honest, I didn’t even know there was a place like this around my house because I always went back and forth between the cooperative and the hut.

Come to think of it, I’ve been living a very carefree life.

The gentle breeze carried the scent of grass.

Slightly bitter but refreshing scent.

She reached out her hand and gently caught my hand in hers.

“…… You, your hand.”

It took a while to question the cold hand.

She smiled and kissed me.

Her lips were also cold, but instead they were softly pressed against my lips.

She opened her eyes wide for a moment at her quiet sensation, and realized that she shouldn’t be like this, so I tried to push her away.

But she seemed satisfied with a light kiss. Before I could push her away, she parted her lips first.

“It’s been a while.”

“Nera. It shouldn’t be like this. I said…….”

“All fake?”

She nodded her head at that.

“Fake. I see. Maybe. I fell in love with you as soon as I saw you, and sometimes I wonder why, but I don’t know what to do with myself being attracted to you like this.”

Every word of her words reached the bone.

My heart is pounding and my breathing is getting rougher.

Her words squeezed my heart, and I felt as if the sin I had been avoiding was revealed little by little.

But you have to accept it.

At that thought, she suddenly laughed.

“Still, I was happy.”

“That itself….”

“Are you trying to deny the happiness I felt? That’s a bit troublesome. No matter how much you are, I can’t forgive you for cutting yourself like that.”

I kept my mouth shut at those words that were so resolute.

I wanted to say no, but she probably won’t let me. Even though all of that happiness may be fake, she gets angry and tells him not to deny it.

There was silence for a while.

In an instant, she pointed somewhere as she tugged at the collar of her arm.

“Oh, look at that. The squirrel is looking this way.”

A squirrel pricks its ears through the weeds.

Our place was a small clearing in the woods.

Although there were flowers growing here and there, the weeds were overgrown and the area was poorly maintained, so it was difficult to call it a romantic place even empty words.

The scene where the cherry blossoms scattered and reflected in the moonlight was certainly beautiful, but we just sat shoulder to shoulder on a small stone.

“Isn’t it cute?”

“It’s pretty cute.”

“I liked this casual time.”

Close your eyes and hum.

I was familiar with Neira’s appearance before, but since she had been away for a long time, she came to me a little fresh.

She whispered that she loved me and then came to me so kindly, innocently and innocently that I didn’t know she was the true vampire.

But even she wasn’t like this from the start.

Even after she was first summoned to the system, she often sucked human blood, and there were times when she acted naturally, asking why she was sad about the deaths of people who had nothing to do with us.

Since we talked a few times, I haven’t seen him like that in front of me, but what about now?

She raised her head with that thought.

The full moon lit up the ground brightly and the wind blew coolly and tickled her hair. Looking at the cherry blossom petals flying in the wind, I relaxed from her body.

She turned her head slightly, feeling a strange sense of exhaustion.

She asks her questions that she hadn’t bothered to ask before, but that she should have heard someday.

“Are you still thinking of killing me?”

She did not answer for a moment.

Just keep on humming her song.

After a while, Neira finally opened her mouth.

“…… I was going to.”

Her hand, which covered the back of my hand, became stronger.

It doesn’t hurt, as if you’re just holding onto it. As if a child were holding her parent’s hand, her hand, which held my hand, was particularly cold.

“Because you seemed to want to die.”

I wanted to die.

Her words pierced me to the core.

All I can say is that I saw it right away, and I tried to die alone several times after that. Because the responsibility that weighs down the body is too heavy.

That’s why I didn’t want to live.

Nevertheless, I survived and am here.

I did not want my life to be scattered pointlessly. I couldn’t admit to myself a death that was not atoned for by anyone, and that I could only escape by myself.

“…… Okay.”

“But, I don’t think so.”

Neira shook her head slightly.

“I can’t kill you either. Lovely you, you whom I love more than anyone else. If you want to kill someone like that, it probably won’t work for a weak being like me.”

“You are not weak.”

“…… Weak. She was a very, very weak woman.”

I had the illusion that the voice was getting weaker and weaker.

Her hands are cold as they touch, and Mea’s strange reaction is the same. I feel like I need to ask you something, but I couldn’t get my mouth to come out.

Even though it seems like there’s something I should know.

“Is it okay if I lean on your shoulder for a while?”

“Any amount.”

Her head felt light on her shoulders, but she didn’t feel her body heat.

She was a vampire, so she didn’t have a body temperature, and at least I remembered that her body temperature was quite hot, so I was a bit suspicious.

“I like the moonlight, and there are people I love… ….”

Little by little, the voice became quieter.

She turned her head slightly, but she just closed her eyes and leaned against my shoulder, breathing lightly. For some reason, it felt a little fleeting.

As if if you take your eyes off her, she will disappear at any moment.

“Why is that? What’s going on?”

“Seo Seo. I adore you very much.”

Her chest tingled.

Her confession of love, which in the past was just nice to hear, now sounded so heartbreaking. Because I know that this is all a lie brought on by my fascination.

“I really love you.”

She gently lifted her arm and stroked my cheek with her gentle touch.

“I know how much this can break your heart. You said all of this is a lie, and every word I say will leave a scar.”

Because I know it’s all my fault.

It was an immature mistake of endlessly longing for meaningless love.

The mistake of an idiot who wasted every day just being satisfied with the affection and luxury he was given without thinking about it for some reason.

“But you know what?”

She smiled at me like that.

It was a pitiful, heartfelt, and somehow ephemeral smile.

“I was happy.”

Looking at me with a soft eye smile.

“It made me happy that you said it was a lie.”

He continued to caress my cheeks with his delicate hands.

“To the extent that I have never felt so fulfilled in my life. It was probably the best moment of her life. I have never been so happy.”

…… To confess her honest feelings, I also remembered being happy at that time.

It was strange that I wasn’t happy with making a miniature garden like that, but maybe I should have realized something was wrong already then.

There is a person who blamed me and died.

But the person who couldn’t help but love me.

A person who died confessing his love until the moment he died.

I couldn’t get out of it.

The weight of responsibility and guilt.

The price of thoroughly torturing a human remains as a shackle that does not disappear.

“I will still tell you that you do not deserve to be loved.”

The wind blew with the fresh scent of flowers.

I heard the sound of nearby vegetation shaking and breaking.

“I really love you.”

That was something I couldn’t answer.

Her confession of love. No, I couldn’t answer anyone’s confession of love. I’ve come too far now, and in the process, this damn fascination has blurred the line between truth and lies.

“Meeting you was fate, and my love is eternal.”

I dared not judge her feelings, but nevertheless it felt inside me that it was an illusion and a lie born of my fascination.

Is this still correct?

Can we dismiss all of her heartfelt confession of love as an illusion?

No, this was just my complacency.

Just in case, I want her to tell me from the bottom of my heart. It was my disgusting abomination, not because of her ability to charm, but because I just wanted her pure heart to come from her heart.

“…… As expected, you have a sad face.”

Neira scanned my eyes sadly.

Unbeknownst to me, a tear fell down my cheek.

“A weak person.”

My throat is blocked.

Even though I knew I shouldn’t cry, there was no way to control this sadness.

Her words about being weak weren’t so wrong, she just tried to hold back the urge to get down on her knees right now and cry sadly.

“How did such a weak person leave us to live alone? If you keep crying, this sister might eat you?”

She smiled mischievously.

She then puts on a sad expression for some reason.

“Still, it’s a little regretful.”

“…… What?”

“Someone has to protect someone who is so weak, but I don’t think I can take on that role. It’s so sad, and terribly sad.”

What does that mean?

Before I could even ask what it meant, she turned around and hugged me from the front.

“I probably won’t be able to be with you in the future.”

Something is strange.

I felt that way because her heartbeat felt strangely weak.

As she hugged me, even though our bodies overlapped each other, the barely perceptible beat felt like a small candle that was about to go out.

“It was suddenly, no, wait a minute.”

“But you will surely find many good people by your side.”

“Why is that? What are you talking about? Put this aside for a second…….”

She tried to untie her arms, but she shook her head with her chin resting on my shoulder.

Her golden hair tickled my cheek.

“So don’t dwell on the past and move forward. Even if you have regrets, never think about stopping there, just look to the future and run.”

“Wait, Neira! What are you…….”

“If it’s you, you can definitely be happy.”

I couldn’t feel the strength in Neira’s body.

I could barely hold onto what was about to flow because I couldn’t fix it while holding me, and she, who had put her chin on my shoulder, now buries her head in my arms and shows her face. Did not

“Because you are also a beautiful person.”

“Wait, Nera? Show me your face what’s the matter. Do not be like this. I’m sorry, because I was wrong.”

The feeling of insecurity does not go away.

Why are you suddenly making such a final remark?

I like to think of it as a terrible joke.

Unbelievable anxiety crossed my mind, but I remembered that true ancestors aren’t that fragile. So I wanted to believe that this must be revenge to make me anxious.

“You hate yourself terribly, but you say all my love is a lie, but I wanted to let you know that there are people who have found happiness in such lies.”

“Don’t do it. Something like this, I really…….”

“There are different forms of love. Whatever the encounter, if I felt happy there, I would like to call it the truth.”

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Don’t.

Please.

I’m weak against things like this.

“I know my words hurt you, but I still wanted to affirm you.”

Why do you speak in such a thin voice?

I can’t hear you talking so small.

I want you to speak a little more in that soft voice.

“I love you. Enough to die, maybe even die.”

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Don’t do that.

Please don’t make me burden you anymore.

“I will affirm you. Even if you hate and deny yourself.”

I knew instinctively.

That her life is gradually dying out. She wriggled in my arms, squeezed out her little life until the end, and continued her words.

“So do not be sad, my eternity.”

It’s just a fleeting farewell.

Her words ended like that, and the arms that were wrapped around my body flowed little by little.

The wind blows.

The wind that was warm a little while ago, and now the cold wind.

After that, Neira never responded to my words.