With one year left to live, my five sisters cried heartbrokenly for me

Half a month later, a high-rise building somewhere in San Francisco.

Someone sat on the terrace and looked up and down, and the whole person exuded melancholy.

"Chen He!" a

female voice behind her called out worriedly.

It turned out that this person was Chen He, who had been abroad for almost a week.

After a week of jet lag, I was finally able to keep my head awake during the day.

The person who called his name was Song Xiangsi.

She took a long leave to stay with him.

The Chen family was already difficult, and only Chen Yueyan was able to accompany Chen He out to see a doctor.

However, the two children are still so young that they can't be separated from people.

Chen He also once said that he could do it alone.

Song Xiangsi was still not very relieved, so she simply took a month-long vacation, which happened to be about to take winter vacation.

Adding up to almost three months, she can accompany Chen He wholeheartedly.

Originally, before coming out, I heard the Bai family say that the technology of a hospital here is not bad, which can give them hope.

However, it wasn't until they actually got here that they found out.

It doesn't seem that simple.

The project is still in the research and development stage, and they have been tossing around in the hospital for almost a week, and they have paid a lot of money.

But Chen He's illness still hasn't made much progress.

The hospital informed them that Chen He would go for a drug resistance test this afternoon.

Chen He was tormented by pain, physically and mentally exhausted, and seemed to be in a very low mood.

Moreover, since the onset of his illness, it has only been a short month, and Chen He has lost a lot of weight, and his cheeks are also a little sunken.

If it weren't for the fact that there was a pair of eyes that were bright and clear, it would almost make people think that Chen He was going to give up hope.

Seeing him sitting on the edge of the terrace at this time, Song Xiangsi was still a little worried.

Chen He showed a smile, and his pale face still revealed tenacious vitality.

"I'm fine, don't worry. He

was comforting Song Xiangsi.

"Then sit on the chair, it's a little cold on the ground.

Song Xiangsi pointed to the chair, wanting him to change his position.

Chen He shook his head and refused.

"I sit here and feel the thrill of being on the verge of death.

"I can also find inspiration.

He turned around and looked into the distance, and he could see the bustling metropolis below.

The buildings made of steel are like giant beasts with open mouths, waiting for people to fall down and devour them cleanly.

Perhaps it was the body's fear of heights that made the body desperate to end this fear, and his brain unconsciously had the idea of jumping.

This is what people call fear of heights.

Chen He only knew that he was afraid of snakes before, but he didn't expect that as the illness worsened, the things he was afraid of increased little by little.

Standing in a tall building will be afraid of heights, and when you sleep alone at night, you are afraid of the dark, and you have to turn on a small light to fall asleep.

Even, when there is no one around, he will be afraid of the closed room, as if the room can eat people.

Speaking of which, it's actually a fear of death.

Chen He smiled bitterly and calmly faced his fears.

So he sat here.

Song Xiangsi sighed, cleaned up her skirt, and sat on the terrace with him.

Chen He hurriedly stopped her.

"It's dangerous here, don't sit here.

"What about you, why are you still sitting here knowing the danger? Do you think your life is not important?"

Under Song Xiangsi's sincere and gentle gaze, Chen He's remaining words couldn't say a word.

Song Xiangsi reached out to hold Chen He's arm and leaned her head on his shoulder, her voice still gentle.

"Chen He, I can't empathize with your pain, even if I'm by your side every day.

"But I still want to be selfish to make you strong, and I will always be there for you no matter what the outcome may be. The

girl's long hair slipped into Chen He's neck, slippery and itchy, making his originally erratic heart settle down again.

Chen He reached out and hugged Song Xiangsi and held her in his arms.

"The doctor said that you will be ready for amputation in two days, are you afraid?"

Chen He's voice was as good as ever, it was a young voice with a sense of strength in the magnetism.

Song Xiangsi felt a little funny and asked, "You are the one who performed the operation, why do you ask me if

I am afraid?" "I'm afraid that I won't be able to stand up in the future, and I can't give you a princess to hug, and I can't accompany you to see the mountains, rivers, lakes and seas." "

Young people's eyes are like torches, as if they can see through people's hearts, and go straight to the most vulnerable places in people's hearts.

Song Xiangsi smiled slightly, hugged him, and said softly: "It's okay, you can't be a princess, you can hug face-to-face like this."

"If we can't see the mountains, rivers, lakes and seas, then we will see every corner of City A." "

Chen He, don't be afraid, I'm always by your side. The

girl's tone was soft, as if she had stuffed a ball of dates into Chen He's heart.

Chen He's originally dry and cold and sour heart actually felt a little sweet.

Song Xiangsi really understands him.

She knew that Chen He was afraid.

Chen He hesitated for a long time.

I once thought about it a hundred times on a night when I couldn't sleep because of the pain.

Just burn charcoal or swallow sleeping pills, and die without pain.

But when he turned over and saw Song Xiangsi next to him, when he recalled his family, when he remembered that so many people liked his songs.

Chen He suddenly didn't dare to die again.

He still has so much unfinished business.

He has only written a dozen songs.

and his musical dreams, which are not yet complete.

If he really dies like this, will he be willing?

The reason why he was so bad before was because there were no people who cared about it, and there was nothing he wanted to accomplish.

But now it's completely different.

Wouldn't it be too cowardly to have a chance of life in front of me and not to seize it?

I could have endured the darkness if I hadn't seen the light.

Family and friends are the salvation that pulled Chen He out of the abyss.

If he really wants to give up like this, Chen He really can't give up in his heart.

Chen He hugged Song Xiangsi tightly, as if he wanted to rub her into his bones.

"If it still can't be cured, I want to go to Xinjiang.

Chen He's voice was muffled, as if he was talking under a quilt.

This means that the decision has been made to undergo amputation.

Whatever the result, it's still a matter of trying.

If there is no way to cure here, then he will have an extra year and a half, and he can do a lot of things he wants.

Song Xiangsi nodded and encouraged him.

"Okay, I'll go with you.

"Go and see the Tianshan Mountains, see the grasslands, and see the stars." "

If you try your best and you still can't keep it, then you can only look away.

Just enjoy the rest of the time.

The meaning of life is not the length of life, but whether or not you are living hard every day.

There are people who are alive, but they are dead.

Some people are dead, but they are still alive.