Six palaces without concubines in the Red Chamber

0138 After desolation, fear and repentance, she shed tears and complained willingly

"Director Xi, the emperor confessed that no one will be seen. Isn't it good for you to act like this?"

I have never seen such a winkless person, Xi Shiyue was angry and wanted to laugh.Just because of his appearance, do you want to suppress him to become the chief executive?

Xi Shiyue laughed back angrily: "Your boy shook his head, it must be the sound of muddy water." He didn't want to talk to Zhou Laiyun, bent like a shrimp, and asked Daiyu to go forward with a smile: "He is the new Those who are chosen to do things do not know what is going on. People are also stupid, and they don’t know how to be flexible. It’s just rare that he is loyal, and the empress is the prime minister, so don’t care about him like him.”

Daiyu didn't intend to do anything, Zhou Laiyun obeyed the emperor's oral order and didn't allow anyone to enter, which is also right.But when he inadvertently looked at Shangguan girl above, something changed.

"The emperor has no shortage of loyal people, the most important thing is to learn how to look." Daiyu pointed, with a smile on her lips, mixed with three points of sarcasm. "I know how to get there. Eunuch doesn't need to follow. But this one..."

Although Daiyu knew she was from the Tongle Academy, she didn't quite remember which family she was from, so she paused and hesitated for a moment.Zhi Qi hurriedly stepped forward to remind: "This is the third girl from the Shangguan family in Nanyang."

"So it's Miss Shangguan." Daiyu nodded, and told Xi Shiyue: "It's windy at the pier, send Miss Shangguan back."

Then he went straight in to find the emperor.

The little eunuch who was waiting in the main hall greeted him and said: "Go back to your mother, the emperor is in the Zhengxi hall."

Wanfang'an is surrounded by water on all sides, and there is no second way to go up except for the pier in the southeast direction.The emperor liked it very much, saying that it was clean and elegant.When Daiyu came into the garden, Wanfang Anhe was the first place the emperor led her to visit.The Zhengxi Temple is not commonly used, and is mostly used for listening to operas.Therefore, the pavilion is in the shape of a swastika, so the Northwest Hall and the Zhengxi Hall are facing each other across the water.

The emperor didn't like to listen to operas, so he rarely used this room.This time, he stayed alone in Zhengxi Hall, which really made people feel anxious.

Daiyu entered the Zhengxi Hall, but saw the silence in the house, the curtains all around were hanging down, making the wind shiver, flying in the wind like several flowers that can walk.The Zhengxi Hall is facing the water in the northwest direction, and has large floor-to-ceiling windows with a total of six windows. The windows are not covered by gauze or paper, but transparent glass.Once opened, the situation of the Northwest Hall can be fully seen, and the West Hall also appears open and bright.

It was supposed to be a relaxing place, but the emperor leaned on the throne, but he looked gloomy and lonely.Leaning on the big pillow, he took off the thumb ring, pushed it forward between his thumbs, watched it roll back, then pushed it forward again, and saw it roll back to the original place.So repeatedly, tirelessly.

Originally such a vigilant person, but now Daiyu has walked behind him, but he hasn't noticed yet.It wasn't until Daiyu reached out to pick up the wrench that he frowned and raised his head with eyes filled with displeasure.Looking up and seeing Daiyu, the cold reprimand turned into surprise and astonishment.

"Why are you here?"

"You don't come to see me, I have to come to see you." Daiyu went around and sat down on the other side of the throne bed.The emperor straightened his clothes, sat up and straightened his back.He is the person who pays the most attention to manners, and the indulgence just now was when there was no one around, especially now that Daiyu is in front of him.

Daiyu looked at him carefully for a while, the emperor still had a dull pain in his heart, but he didn't want to let her worry, so he forced a smile and said, "Look at what?"

"I see that the emperor has become thinner and haggard." Those eyes, which were always full of awe-inspiring aura, revealed endless exhaustion and desolation at this moment.Once the peach blossom eyes are sad, they will reveal withered sadness.Fengshen Langxiu's husband became lonely and pale because of Princess Rongshou's sudden death.

"There's been a lot of things recently and I've been a little busy, it's inevitable."

He is the emperor and the father of Princess Rongshou.Could it be that his daughter is gone, can he remain indifferent, eat, drink and rest like a normal person?He has been in the imperial court for five years, and he only had such a daughter, and it is not an exaggeration to say that he treats her like a jewel in the palm of his hand.But it was because he underestimated the ruthlessness of the Queen Mother Dong that he ruined her life.The emperor was so heartbroken that he wished he could kill the Empress Dowager Dong to avenge Princess Rongshou.But the Supreme Emperor just told him that he couldn't. Not only could he not, but he had to support the Eastern Empress Dowager, and he had to maintain the filial piety of mother and son on the surface with her. How sad?

Even... His daughter died, and he couldn't even cry in front of others.Because he is the emperor, the emperor has to be calm and composed, and he has to be in harmony with the light, and he has to be happy with things and not sad with himself.

Daiyu saw that he was holding back his sorrow and sorrow, but he still had to show a calm and peaceful appearance, and she couldn't help feeling sour along with it.

She got up and sat next to the emperor, and said softly, "Show your hands."

The emperor didn't know what she wanted to do, but he followed her words and spread his hands.The palm of his hand felt a little cool, it was Daiyu who put the emerald jade finger back into his hand.

"You once told me that the words 'Keep in a hurry, use patience' on the finger were given to you by the Supreme Emperor after he brought you back from Huangzhuang. I want to tell you that you will not be alarmed, and that you can be calm and calm when you encounter problems." Daiyu told him Holding hands, staring at him, he said: "Shiyan, in life, calm and open-minded peace is the highest state that everyone pursues. Although you are an emperor, you are a human being after all, not a god. A human being will have emotions. Sad and sad. The Supreme Emperor hopes that you will remain calm, but he definitely does not want you to suppress yourself all the time. I am your queen, what can't you tell me? If you are sad, just tell me. Just want to cry in front of me, I'm with you too."

The emperor fixedly looked back at her, and suddenly hugged her forcefully into his arms.He hugged him too eagerly and too hard, like a drowning man desperately grabbing a life-saving straw.He was a little out of control, and Daiyu felt a little hurt from being hugged by him, but she didn't say much, instead she stretched out her hand and patted him on the back as if to comfort him.

"Sometimes I feel so useless..."

Daiyu felt a little wet and cold on her shoulders, and she paused for a moment.She didn't make a sound, just patted his back quietly.

The emperor was like a lost child, choked up in front of Daiyu: "When I was young, the Empress Dowager Dong didn't like me. I tried my best to please her, but it was useless. In her eyes, I was superfluous. Call her After suffering, I shouldn't have appeared in this world. As the son of Zhonggong, when I didn't go to my ancestors, I was actually not as good as the eunuch in Kunyi Palace. At that time, I felt that I was very useless, but always I thought, when I grow up, I can move out.

"Later, King Yongle succeeded to the throne and he became the emperor. King Jinzhuang and I became thorns in his eyes. He couldn't tolerate us, so he sent me to Huangzhuang and appointed someone to guard me. I'm not afraid of your jokes, even if you come out later Yeah, back then I used to have nightmares too. In those days, I had a taste of powerlessness. It’s when you clearly want to resist, but you can’t do it because no one can see. Then I know, there are powerful people in this world Only people are qualified to speak. Otherwise, your filial piety and kindness will be useless. There will always be people who want to climb up, stepping on your head and using you as a stepping stone.

"At that time, I swore secretly in my heart that I must go to the highest peak and completely control my own destiny. I thought that as the emperor, I would never have a moment of powerlessness. But Zhangjiao's death is like Someone hit me hard and woke me up. Tell me that even if I become the emperor, I am still an incompetent person. I can't keep my daughter, and I can't even avenge her. I have to respect Dong Empress Dowager, I have to take care of the Eastern Empress Dowager, because she is my aunt, and I am justified because she is the middle palace!"

"Shiyan..." Daiyu's nose was sour, and she felt sad when she heard it, and she couldn't help crying: "I don't know that your heart is so bitter..."

How long has he endured, how long has he been pressed?These words cannot be said to the Empress Dowager, and he will not tell the noble concubine and concubine Shu.Just such a person bears and tastes the bitterness alone.Even hearing it made her feel like a knife was piercing her heart, let alone his personal experience?

The emperor stepped back an inch, and the two looked at each other, with tears in their eyes, each of them could find their own reflection in each other's tears.

"Honghong, I'm really scared, and I even regret it."

"Regret what?"

The emperor paused, lowered his eyelids silently, and said in a hoarse voice, "I regret that I insisted on making you a queen and insisting on keeping you in the inner court. I really regret that I involved you in the Forbidden City for my own sake. If you don't enter the palace, maybe I can live a more stable life, at least there will be no fear of my life. These days I have been thinking whether I did something wrong. I shouldn’t force you to stay for that love, just like I shouldn’t forcefully move water lilies. The water lily is very beautiful, it is enough to see it from a distance, why bother to move it to the side and watch it decay and wither day by day."

He regretted it sincerely.He was afraid that Daiyu would become the second Princess Rongshou, and that he would not be able to protect her and let her die in the palace battle.Maybe she should have been made princess in the first place, choose a perfect young man for her, and give her a generous gift to add makeup.

"Murong Shiyan! You are not allowed to say that!" How could Daiyu not know what he was thinking in his heart, just because she knew, the tears became more and more unbearable, falling like raindrops.She raised her hand to cover his lips, not allowing him to speak further.Looking up at him, he choked up and said: "What I don't want is that you put a knife on my neck, and I would rather die than do it. Even if you issue an edict to force me to be a queen, I will not nod. I am here today, staying in the inner court to be your queen, because I am willing. I am willing to face those things, and I am willing to be trapped in Sifang City for you. The person is Murong Shiyan. I have forgotten those words, so don’t say them again. Every word you said broke my heart..."

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To like is to want to possess, to really love deeply, is to want you to live better than me, even if this good has nothing to do with me.